恩典见证
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恩典见证 39.我…
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这事情发生在三年半的时候； 我有这个想法，是因为我已经在香港做宣教士、牧师已经差不多有五年了。 可是两年半前，其实我在挣扎：「是不是真的想要回新加坡？」 因为我本身是新加坡人，这几年都在中国、菲律宾、香港等地服事，也在不一样的教会 、不一样的生意人、不一样的大学团契里牧养孩子们。
二年半前我其实有想过：「累了、心累了 – 真的想要回新加坡休息，放弃香港的服事！」 可是有一天我从菲律宾的宣教回来，然后我去了麦当劳，在 那边见到一个年青人，他穿得很整齐（衬衫、领带），可是他显得很不开心。 我买了餐之后，就坐在他旁边，介绍自己是个牧师，然后对他说：「嘿！年青人」「Hi, is everything OK?有 什么事我能为你祷告吗？」 那年青人说：「理你才怪，关你屁事啊？ 」可是当他说这句话的时候，他的眼睛是红红的。
我就说：「好不好你让牧师为你祷告、祝福你，你可以跟牧师说发生了什么事？」 后来他等了一下，看着我说：「好！牧师你为我祷告！」 「 其实我今天是去应征的，可是那个应征也不知道能不能通过？我在家里是老大，今天回去，爸妈就要我搬出去住，因为家里不够地方休息，家里的资金也不够。加上 我的工作又不稳定，因为我从大学出来了之后，就一直在做散工、兼职、合约员工」 我听到的时候，其实感到心痛。
一个香港的年青人，他跟我说：「没有钱是一件事情、没有地方住是另外一件事情、每天的生活都在奔跑，觉得很累」 我就问他：「嘿，年青人 你的梦想是什么？」 要是神给你一个梦，祂不会挪去这个梦的！ 祂会看着你，按着祂的时间、安排，去成就你的梦，以及每一个人的梦！
「牧师，我现在都不知道下一餐饭够不够吃、我也不知道要去哪里住…别说梦，我连一个梦想也不敢去想！」 对我来说，一个22岁刚毕业 不久的孩子，竟然跟我说这种话！ 我觉得很心痛，所以我就决定留下来，我说：「好吧，神啊…我们把教会的名字改为「梦事工」！ 」 因为我们把教会接回来的时候，教会的名字都还没有改。 REVER是一个法文，叫做「梦」，所以我们是叫做 REVER MINISTRIES（梦事工）。
那时候，我们就用了神的话语来祝福这孩子，对他说：「神其实有一个梦给你，那个「梦」是要给你「未来」，不要让你的未来，因现在的困境 而受到影响！ 」 这年青人听的时候，觉得很奇妙，他说：「虽然我不是基督徒，但却觉得有一个很舒服的平安！」 我就继续再跟他说：「你的梦，可使你实现 神要你做的事情！」 我再问他：「你想做什么？」 「牧师，我想要做一个银行员」（原来他刚刚去了花旗银行应征，可是却完全不知道是否能通过） 。
我就鼓励他：「要是神给你一个梦，让你去做银行员的话，祂不会挪去这个梦的！祂会看着你，按着祂的时间、安排，去成就你的梦， 以及每一个人的梦！」 在人类的思维、角度里，总是认为梦是不实际的。 尤其对香港的孩子来说。
可是我要说的是神的承诺，必定成就，也会胜利！ 我再跟这个年青的孩子说：「每一个人都是上帝的梦想，神有计划和目标给你的！」 我就是这样子去鼓励他，然后我就为他祷告。
过了一个、两个星期，他回了一个电话给我，说：「牧师，我想相信你的神！因为，我从来没有看过有这样的神会成就人的梦想！我相信有奇迹，我 的梦想必会成真！」 后来真的在一个月之后，他收到花旗银行的一封信，说他被录取了！ 接着，我就用这个机会跟他传福音，说：「神爱你，神用祂的爱、梦想去建立人的事业。
神把梦给每一个人，神会给你一个 梦，神也必定会成就这梦，因为神是一个信实的神！」 我给你一个例子，迪士尼的创办人Walt Disney，他不是拥有一个迪士尼乐园吗？ 但Walt Disney 去世的时候，在佛罗里达的迪士尼乐园都还没完成，可是他的工人却说：「这个梦想已经成就了！」Walt Disney 的意念与目的就是要创造一个「让人去到世界上 最幸福的地方」为目标！
神说：「我已经有好的计画要给你！」 所以你要知道，神是准备、预备了一个梦是要给你的。 而每一个人的梦想都是独特的；每一个人的梦都是很不一样的。
只要你相信、有希望，神必定成就你的梦。 因为祂已经选择了你、给了你命定、计划、目标和意愿，来成就祂所要成就的事！ 我要鼓励你们，当你跑累了，你就问问：「上帝，我能作什么梦？我能成就什么？」
因为你能成为什么，一定是根据神所给你的梦。 并且，不是你能做什么，而是你能成为什么！ 因为神是一个信实的神，阿们！ 那年青人对我说：「牧师，我想在银行做客户经理。」 今天他已经升职了，在这短短的三年里跟随着神，他已从经理升到总监的位置上。 虽然他不是在我的教会，但神允许我们两个人有这个沟通，也从这个沟通里，神告诉我要带给香港年青人一个梦想、希望，并去祝福他们，好让他们知道：神 的爱是永远、永恒的！ 透过这个经历，虽然只是一个很短暂的一小时，我在那里跟这个香港年青人吃早餐、为他祷告，再也简单不过的动作，但却借着这年青人，改变了我，使我愿意 继续留在香港，好祝福香港的年青人。
我很想把天上的秘密带下来，祝福香港的人，把希望、盼望、期望带给他们。 因为神爱人、神爱你们香港人！ 阿们！
恩典见证
Testimony…
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1. The power of the gospel – the whole family is blessed
The story also starts from when I was born, since I was born, my mother has been seriously ill, although she has sought countless medical treatments, the medicine stones are ineffective, and the family is even more destitute.
Since that moment, on the most conspicuous table in our house, several “distinguished guests” have been invited one after another – Guanyin, the land god, the Buddha, etc. Although my father pulled my seriously ill mother and young me every day, punctually offered them offerings, offered incense, bowed down, and even underwent strict training in posture, after several years, these “miracle doctors and immortals” did not seem to have discussed and formulated a “treatment plan”, and my mother’s condition did not improve at all. In desperation, my father had to take my mother, who had no way to seek medical treatment, to “find” Jesus, who was “in the limelight” at that time, and was said to be a “great immortal with higher mana”.
Later, as the truth of the Bible deepened, their utilitarian hearts were eliminated and their faith was established. Finally, one day, my parents resolutely smashed the idol that they had worshiped in their family for many years, threw away the medicine jar that Lai Yi had lived for, and bravely opened the door of their home to those who believed in it in the confusion and doubts of their relatives, established the first church in the village and served God until now.
I was about five years old at the time, and because of my parent’s faith, I became a “little Christian” as a matter of course. But because I grew up in this “special” family environment, my “hatred” for God grew day by day!
2. God’s Elect – Personal Grace
“Cowardice and shame” is the deepest feeling and evaluation I have for those who believe in Jesus, especially my parents, as an adult.
It can be said that I grew up surrounded by all kinds of bullying and abuse from my neighbors! And any resistance and dissatisfaction will be severely reprimanded by my parents. I couldn’t understand what they were saying: This is suffering for the Lord! I just know that this God has made the mother who was once called “tigress” so cowardly and incompetent to her father, who was once regarded as a “capable man”! I hate God! I want to change this reality!
I’m very good at making friends, especially those who are seen as “ruffians” who are always easy to befriend. I enjoy this life because no one dares to mess with me. What God, what Jesus, unconsciously disappeared from my life. I squandered my life and youth in sin.
“So-and-so just crashed and died!” my friend casually told me, but it was a bolt from the blue! Not only because the deceased was my former best classmate, but also because I suddenly realized: I am afraid of death! Death was so close to me, and all of a sudden, fear permeated my heart. For many days after that, I was thinking, “If I die, where will I go, and who can solve the problem after death?” all of a sudden, Jesus came into my mind again, and it was my first encounter with Him after a long absence. Although it was only a brief experience, from then on, Jesus began His wonderful work in my life.
When my parents again urged me to pray and read the Bible, I no longer responded to them with the same tiredness as I once did, “Enough!” and I said to them, “I will pray.” And I prayed. Although that time, it was not so much a prayer as a reproach and a question against God! But I felt that God was listening! I felt that God was by my side!
Within a few days, my father forced me to quit my job. He said he was going to ask me to do something more important.
3. Experience the Lord’s grace – life renewal
It was only after I followed my father to a dilapidated village that he told me that I needed to study theology here for a few days. In desperation, I could only comfort myself, I should be at peace when I came! What I didn’t expect was that I made a best bosom friend here, Jesus.
In those few days of study, my myths about faith began to be dismantled, the value of life began to be repositioned, and my understanding of Jesus began to deepen. In just half a month, my life seems to have undergone an earth-shaking change. My once hard knees finally bent and I knelt before the Lord and confessed my sins and repented! I truly felt a sense of relief and joy at the forgiveness of my sins, the Holy Spirit came into my life, and I knew I was saved!
The Lord Jesus said, “The Son of Man has come to seek and save that which is lost.” (Luke 19:10) I am convinced that anyone who humbly confesses their sins and seeks Him will, like me, experience a “grace turn” from darkness to light, from pain to joy, and from bondage to be delivered!
4. The call of grace – total devotion
After being born again, although I did not experience Paul’s great light and did not see the vision of Moses, I truly felt God’s graceful call to my life to make my mission clear – to serve Him!
Although I have been receiving a lot of theological equipment over the years, and church leaders and my wife have constantly urged me to serve full-time, because of the endless “ambition” in my heart, my desire is still to try my best to be a good Christian, to participate in the church as much as possible, and to work and earn money is my primary goal in life. However, in the process of “serving God and mammon”, I felt the difficulty of “not having both fish and bear’s paws”.
In my work, whenever I work hard, I feel the constant depression and pain of my spiritual life, in the ministry, whenever I see the lack of shepherding workers in the church, the urgent need of young people and college students, like flock without a shepherd, my heart is full of anxiety, and in prayer, I keep hearing the reproach of the Holy Spirit with sighs and the gentle call of the Father—my son, my heart is mine. More than once, I burst into tears with excitement and shame.
After a long struggle, I finally relied on the Lord to overcome my “fear” of full-time ministry and responded to God’s call in the depths of my soul that I was willing to give my whole life to the Lord and dedicate my life to the Lord.
In the nearly 10 years of full-time ministry, although it was tiring, it was full of joy! I still can’t forget (and sometimes still experience) the struggle to withdraw from the pressure of ministry, the pain of mixed interpersonal complexities, and the helplessness of financial constraints in the face of various needs.
But thank God for allowing me to experience these “sufferings” in my ministry life, and it is because of this that I have experienced more deeply what “wonderful grace” is! It is a painful and joyful process, and it is a leap of faith that can lead one to “hear about him and see him with my own eyes”!
Pray that the Lord will continue to guide and strengthen me – that I can “serve Him with confidence and righteousness in holiness and righteousness.” (Luke 1:75).
恩典见证
恩典见证 38.奇…
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一、福音大能 – 全家蒙恩
故事，还要从我出生的时候说起，自我出生以后，母亲就一直重病缠身，虽求医无数，但药石皆无效，家里更是因此一贫如洗。
从那刻以后，我们家里最显眼的一张桌子上，就相继请来了几位“贵客” – 观音、土地神、如来佛祖等。虽然父亲每天都拉着重病的母亲和年幼的我，准时给它们上供、上香、跪拜，甚至连姿势都经过严格的训练，但数年过去了，这几位“神医大仙”好像还没有商讨、制定出一个“治疗方案”，母亲的病情丝毫不见起色。百般无奈，父亲不得不带着求医无门的母亲“找到”了当时“风头正劲”，据说“法力更高的大仙” – 耶稣。
之后，随着圣经真理上的进深，他们的功利之心被除掉，信心也得以坚立。终于有一天，父母毅然地砸掉了家中敬奉多年的偶像，扔掉了赖依为命的药罐，并在亲人的不解与质疑中，勇敢地将家门向相信的人敞开，建立了村庄里第一间教会，服事神直到如今；母亲的病也被神医治，直至今日从未再患。
那时我大约五岁，因着父母的信仰，我也顺理成章地成为了一个“小基督徒”。但因着成长在这个“特殊”的家庭环境，我对神的“恨”却与日俱增！
二、神的选召 – 个人蒙恩
“懦弱、羞耻”，是我在成年之后，对信耶稣的人，特别是我的父母最深刻的感受与评价。
可以说，我是在邻居的百般欺凌与辱骂声中成长的！并且任何的反抗与不满，都会受到父母严厉的指责。我无法理解他们所说的：这是为主受苦！我只知道，这位神使曾经被人称作“母老虎”的母亲，使曾经被人看为“能人”的父亲变得如此懦弱无能！我恨神！我要改变这个现实！
我很擅长交朋友，特别是那些别人眼中的“地痞流氓”总是很容易与我成为朋友。我享受这种生活，因为没有人敢惹我。什么神，什么耶稣，不知不觉从我的生命中消失了。我在罪恶中肆意地挥霍着我的生命与青春。
“某某人刚刚坠车死了！”朋友不经意地告知，对我却是一个晴天霹雳！不仅因为死者是我曾经十分要好的同学，更是因为我突然意识到：我很怕死！死亡离我是如此的近，霎时，恐惧弥漫在我的心里。之后的很多天，我都在思想：“如果我死了，我会去哪里呢？谁能解决死后的问题呢？”猛然间，耶稣再次进入了我的脑海，这是我与祂久违后第一次的相遇。虽然这只是一次短暂的经历，但从那时起，耶稣在我的生命中开始了祂奇妙的工作。
当父母再次劝勉我要好好祷告、读经的时候，我不再像曾经那样厌烦地回应他们：“够了！”而是连我自己都感到吃惊地对他们说：“我会祷告的。”并且，我真的祷告了。虽然那一次，与其说是祷告，不如说是对神的指责与质疑！但我却感受到，神在听！我感受到神在我身边！好奇妙！
没过几天，父亲“软硬兼施”的逼着我辞掉工作。他说，他要让我做一件更重要的事。
三、经历主恩 – 生命更新
当我稀里糊涂地跟着父亲来到了一个破旧的村庄之后，他才告诉我，我需要在这里上几天的神学。万般无奈之下，我只能安慰自己，既来之则安之吧！没想到的是，我在这里结交了一个最好的知心朋友 – 耶稣。
在那几天的学习当中，我对信仰的迷思开始得到解开，对生命的价值开始重新定位，对耶稣的认识开始更加深入。短短的半个月，我的生命仿佛经历了一个翻天覆地的改变。曾经坚硬的膝盖终于弯曲，我跪在主的面前，认罪悔改！我真实地感到一种罪得赦免的轻松与喜乐，圣灵进入我的生命，我知道我得救了！
主耶稣说：“人子来，为要寻找拯救失丧的人。”（路19: :10）我深信，任何一个谦卑认罪并寻求祂的人，都会像我一样，经历到从黑暗走向光明、从痛苦进入喜乐、从捆绑得到释放的“恩典转弯”！
四、恩典呼召 – 全然奉献
重生得救之后，虽然没有经历保罗的大光，没有看到摩西的异象，但我真实感受到神向我的生命发出了恩典的呼召，使我清楚人生的使命 – 事奉祂！
虽然多年来一直在接受许多的神学装备，教会领袖以及我的妻子都在不断地劝我全职事奉，但因为心里那未绝的“雄心壮志”，我的心愿仍然是：尽力地做一个好基督徒，尽量地参加教会的服事，工作赚钱却是我首要的人生目标。但是，在“事奉神又事奉玛门”的过程中，我感受到了“鱼与熊掌不可兼得”的难处。
在工作中，每当拼搏努力的时候，就感受到灵命在不断的消沉痛苦；在事奉中，每当看到教会缺少工人的牧养，青年人和大学生事工的迫切需求，如同群羊没有牧人一般，我的心就充满了焦急；在祷告中，不断听到圣灵带着叹息的责备，与天父温柔的呼唤 – 我儿，将心归我不止一次，我激动又羞愧地泪流满面。
挣扎良久，我终于靠着主，胜过了内心对全职事奉的“恐惧”，并回应了神在我灵魂深处的呼唤 – 我愿意全然奉献给主，一生为主竭诚献上。
在全职事奉近十年间，虽然很累，但却充满着喜乐！有苦吗？有！至今忘不了 – 在面对事奉压力时想退缩的挣扎，在面对人际复杂时五味杂陈的痛苦，在面对各种需要时却经济拮据的无奈.
但是，感谢神让我的事奉人生经历这些“苦”，正是因着它，我才更深地经历了什么是“奇妙的恩典”！这是一个痛苦并快乐着的过程；这是一个可以让人从“风闻有他，到亲眼看见他”的信心飞跃！
祈求主继续引领、坚固我 – 可以“坦然无惧地用圣洁、公义事奉他。”（路1: 75）
恩典见证
恩典见证 37.职…
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职棒巨星，在身为职业选手的20多年期间，缔造了多项让人望尘莫及的纪录，是安打王、打点王、得分王，更是全垒打王；退役后，目前担任职棒味全龙队打击教练，提携后进。
能从年少到年老，不论个人际遇、职棒环境发生过何等起伏变化，张泰山都坚守着棒球，竭尽全力的要多打一棒、多守一球，也坚持要用「球员」身分退役，在球场上好好地与爱护他的球迷们告别。
他认为，坚持梦想的力量除了源自于对于棒球运动的高度热爱，能够一步一脚印的坚定前行，和他是基督徒，有神带领他走前方的每一步有密切难分的关係.
缺乏物质，却不缺爱
张泰山，阿美族人，生于臺东县东河乡泰源村，幼时家中主要经济收入源自于务农。
从幼时家庭经验谈起，张泰山回忆那段物质不丰裕却幸福的时刻。
虽然家境并不宽裕，但他表示，「我们家共有7个孩子一起长大，我是最小的，上头还有2位哥哥、4位姐姐，甚至听他们说更之前还有几位手足出生，只不过因为各种因素就早一步地离开了家人、活在我们的记忆之中。」
此外，张泰山的父亲为远洋渔业船员、常年不在家中，更因为在一段航程中突发盲肠炎、最终不及就医逝世，「这让我在长大的过程中，对于父爱的印象是较为缺乏的。可是，我还是很庆幸，妈妈非常爱她的每一个孩子。」
张泰山表示，早年每个家庭都会有多位孩童出生，在经济不宽裕的年代，收出养是很常见的事情，在当年，也曾有未能生育的邻里提议：「妳这个最小的（张泰山）给我们养啦！」可是张妈妈听到这个请求后，却是想也没想的直接拒绝：「不要！我自己生的，我自己养！」
在妈妈与哥哥姐姐们的爱护下，张泰山的童年过得非常快乐，就算日用饮食多仰赖就地找寻野菜果腹，一家人相守度日却也是另类的幸福。
「可是，有时候肚子真的是太饿了！」张泰山表示，最初踏入棒球队的契机，只是因为很羡慕队员都能有牛奶喝、有馒头吃，「我也想要和他们一样，所以小学四年级的时候正式加入学校棒球队。」
入队之初，张泰山被交办的首项任务，是帮队内学长準备食物，「每次帮学长冲泡热牛奶，我就会边準备、边先吃一些。」
不过，张泰山仍知道，既然已加入球队，好好寻求表现、成为职棒选手，是必须要达成的目标！因为他也深知，哥哥姊姊们很多都是念到小学2、3年级就辍学工作、帮忙补贴家计，所以他得要更加努力。
信主成为家族最贵重祝福
然而，上帝的引领悄悄的在此时开展。因着张泰山的姐姐很早就出社会工作，得以认识姊夫，并经由母亲的撮合下共结连理。
「阿美族是母系社会，所以姐姐结婚并不是『出嫁』，而是男方会来到我们家中。」张泰山说明，姊夫以基督徒的身分加入，让张家有机会全家信主、不再一样，「这是我们家最为重要的祝福。」
纵然，幼小的心灵尚未能明确认识每个宗教的区别，但张泰山记得，信主后家中就不再祭拜鬼神，「我们开始上教会、做礼拜，孩子们都在教会裡度过了愉快的成长时光。」
更重要的是，信主让张家脱离饮酒的恶习，也不抽菸、不吃槟榔，他表示：「大家都知道，张泰山是不喝酒的，这是我从加入职棒迄今的坚持。」
张泰山警醒自守的程度，甚至到了当他在婚宴、庆功的场合，会倒一杯浅酌，表达与众人一同庆祝的心意时，不熟的后辈会惊唿：「学长，那是酒！你不是不喝的吗？」
而对张泰山来说，信主带来的最大祝福，则是让他透过各式各样的环境，深知：「人非有信就不能得神的喜悦，因为到神面前来的人必须信有神，且信他赏赐那寻求他的人。（来 11:6）」
犯错沉潜、终至发光
进入职棒领域，他首先感受到神「在后的必要在前」的带领和祝福。
张泰山分享，他于1996年、19岁时加盟中职，而那年头要加入职棒队，按规定，要满24岁之后才会入选，因此能够早一步加入，都是神的带领与安排。
当年，为了让年轻优秀的选手能在精华时期，先加入国家队、打国际赛事，才立下规则，加入职棒须满24岁，以避免选手因太早进入职场（职棒）而阻碍为国争光的机会。
然而，因为张泰山在国中、高中都默默无名，自然也不会成为国际赛选手，这让他先将目标放在全国大赛，希望能藉此让球探注意，有机会加入职棒。
「可是，当我到了高叁那年终于有机会在全国赛登板时，我却犯了错，最终也没能参加。」
为了加强训练，教练本安排全队按路线跑10公里增进体能。没想到，出发后没多久队友就招唿他：「泰山，来啦！一起！我们跑另一条路好不好？」
那是一条能省下多数路程的捷径，张泰山表示，绕路程度甚至到了「本来10公里，只要跑2公里就好」。
一开始，心中本来还有些迟疑，但不久后却心生：「不行，我们需要团结！」的念头，就与同伴选择轻省的路走。
「当然，最后还是被教练抓包，重新跑了完整的10公里，再加上回程看到学弟也被罚，又跟着跑了第二趟，总共是22公里之多！」
张泰山本以为被罚完就没事了，没想到教练却差了学弟告知：「行李收一收就走吧，教练说太失望了，不要再看到我们！」
照计画，张泰山盘算打了全国赛就能让人认识、有机会年满后成为职棒选手，突如其来的退队叫人不知所措，万幸时任时报鹰教练的李瑞麟协助开了门，让他先加入时报鹰业余队，才有了后续的可能性。
再接续，是张泰山遇见了职棒路上的重要恩师徐生明，用「练习生」名义让他进入味全龙队，总算是「沾上边」的踏入职棒。
眼高于顶再反璞归真
接着张泰山分享第二项心得，是领略何谓「虚心的人有福了！」
张泰山正式上场的时间点，为职棒成立第7年。在全民疯棒球的热潮下，张泰山沉潜数年后爆发的表现极为亮眼，成为球队倚重、媒体追逐的要角。
突然成为镁光灯的中心，张泰山说那时「红到屁股不自觉会翘起来、眼睛的位置一路从脸部移到头顶！」没想到，大起之后的打球手感，蓦地急速衰退，「状况突然超差，不是打击叁振就是守备漏接。」
而媒体然也不会放过这种反差，报导仍是铺天盖地的以「张泰山」为主题，只不过内容改成批评奚落他在球场上的表现。
「在那个阶段，一到家我就衝进浴室，把莲蓬头的水开到最大、同时爆哭。」一段日子后，张泰山一路走来始终相伴的妻子，在一日见他于浴室哭得差不多时，探头进来、给出一句提醒：「你为何要逃避它呢？」
太太的话让张泰山忽然醒悟「对啊，我为什么要逃避呢？」便开始调整心态、日復一日的规律练球，让体能、球技都维持在最佳状态。
同时，张泰山依循球团教练的叮咛，把自己的学歷补齐，用多年时间，在臺湾体育运动大学取得学士、硕士学歷。
他说明，虽因常年只专注棒球，在学识、电脑操作上都有许多不足，但他抱持着「我就是不会，所以才来学」，就学期间尽可能地不迟到、不早煺，惟因比赛需要才会请假，「师长都蛮肯定我的念书态度，也说我影响了校内的许多同学，让我明白『坚持就有力量，想要好成绩，就先做好每一样準备工作。』」
心态的改换，大大的帮助了张泰山在球场上的表现，他坦承，「打球的缘故，整天东奔西跑、有一段时间没上教会了。」然而，基督信仰却是一直扎根在心中，也成为球赛比数紧绷时的力量。
他提到，有一场比赛关乎球队能否打进当季总冠军赛，从休息室要走上打击区的时候，他哼起了在心中响起的诗歌：「一切歌颂讚美，都归我主我的神， 你是配得歌颂与讚美」一边看来蹦蹦跳跳地走到场上。
「旁边的人看到都说，『哇，不愧是明星！这么放鬆！』但他们不知道，其实我紧张到脚都一直发抖。」张泰山说。
困难中留下长存的果子
最后，神在张泰山的生命中赐下了「多结果子」的祝福。
加入职棒后，随着规定的改变，身为职业选手的张泰山仍有许多机会参与奥运、亚运、世界盃棒球锦标赛、亚洲棒球锦标赛、世界棒球经典赛、洲际盃等赛事，披上国家队战袍。
而在这么多场国际比赛中，张泰山最难忘怀的，是2008年的北京奥运。
那年张泰山除了是台湾国家队的重要成员，因为婚后久未得子，他正与太太进行相关的备孕疗程，「但，我服用的助孕药物中含有微量『可洛米酚（Clomifene）』，这刚好是棒球运动员不能验出的禁药，我就被处分禁赛一年，虽然与团队一起出国，却没有办法上场效力。」
为此，张泰山将儿子取名为「张可洛」以资纪念，但他认为很神奇的是，之前夫妇俩不孕数年，本来在儿子出生后曾考量要再透过生殖医学，多生一个孩子，「结果，女儿就自然而然地来报到了！」
纵然，随着年岁的加增，张泰山在台湾职棒辉煌多年后，曾因球团考量运动员应该要维持年轻化的政策，有一段时间辗转加盟日本四国岛联盟德岛蓝短袜队、澳洲棒球联盟等，寻求发展。
对张泰山来说，旅外时的所属球团虽不比中华职棒来得有规模、待遇较丰厚，「可是换个角度想，就是再一次学习放下身段，也趁此机会带着孩子来享受不同国家的棒球文化。」
小时候，张泰山曾经很渴望有父亲的陪伴、能在球场上让父亲以自己为荣，「虽然，当时的梦想没有达成，但我现在看着自己的孩子被陪伴、慢慢长大的身影，同样也是很幸福的。」
同时，上帝也为张泰山预备转任教练前的最美谢幕，他在澳洲棒球联盟的最后一场出赛的最后一次打击中，漂亮的轰出了满贯全垒打，在众人的喝采欢唿下退役、开始学员养成、提携后进的工作。
他表示：「我是张泰山，很谢谢大家一路以来的支持，这成为我坚持下去的动力；而能挺过每一次困难和挑战，则是因为我是神的儿女，上帝给我力量、带领我一路向前。」
「即便，曾有困难，但把得到的和失去的相比，我知道我比别人还幸福得多！」张泰山宣告。
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Li Guangping’s baby daughter – music album “Amazing Grace”
As a Christian family, our family is blessed by God. Our daughter, Li Silin, is the best example of being used by God and loved by God. Growing up in a Christian family, Celine was favored by God. When she was very young, she went to church with us, and at night, before bedtime, she would study Bible stories on her own, and we often taught her Bible truths. Wherever she goes, there is a magnetic field, and she is loved by the gods. In 2005, to allow Li Silin to receive the best music education in China, we decided to move our family north and move to Beijing to prepare for the high school attached to the Central Conservatory of Music.
You may not know that the composition major is the most difficult in the Conservatory of Music: before the exam, we not only have to learn composition, but also learn professional piano performance, ear training, folk song memorization, music theory knowledge, etc., and we have to take four or five classes a week, which are all very difficult courses! I remember that we often took taxis, buses, subways, etc. through Beijing to go to class in the snowstorm, and Si Lin never complained. In the process of studying, the biggest miracle is that the teachers who teach Si Lin’s composition class and piano class are all Christians, which is God’s blessing of preparation! As a result, she was admitted to the composition major of the High School Affiliated to the Central Conservatory of Music with the first place in her major. I deeply feel that every life we have is not accidental, it has a will and mission from God, and behind everything we do, there is also goodwill and blessing from God!
In 2008, when my friend Deng Weibiao (he is a representative composer of “New Century Music” in China) was chatting with me, he said that he wanted to release a record for Si Lin, and he asked me about the theme, and I immediately thought of the theme of hymns, so I decided that we would make a fever record of hymns for Si Lin! I hope that our family is willing to put our lives on the table, use beautiful music to promote the main sound and attract more people to God. And no matter what we do in the future, we will always do it in the spirit of spreading God’s great love, so that it will be a meaningful and valuable musical life.
I am deeply grateful to Ms. Yang Lanxiang, chairman of the board of directors of “Haojie Culture,” and Lin Haodong, general manager of “Haojie Culture”! The publication of the album “Amazing Grace,” attracted the attention and encouragement of a large number of writers in China; Wang Shuya, Li Wan, Hua Zi, Han Songluo, Han Haoyue, Chen Weiwen, and other famous writers all spoke highly of it; and writer Yu Jie also gave the record to many Hong Kong, Friends from Taiwan and the United States, let everyone listen to hymns from Chinese mainland and promote the grace of the Lord.
The songs in the album, such as “Love is a Miracle”, “I Have a Good Friend”, and “Ode to Love”, have been widely circulated in society and have been well received. Speaking of the preface to “Amazing Grace”, this is also a miracle worth writing about: I have always liked the film review articles written by the Christian writer Mr. Wang Shuya, and to find him to write the preface, I emailed or called him but could not find him;
One day, I accidentally bought the book “Heaven Was Silent for Half an Hour”, and I wrote a few words on my blog, but I showed it to Brother Peng Qiang, the publisher of the book, and he took the initiative to contact me, and through him it was easy to get in touch with Brother Wang Shuya. I think Cereen is a very good instrument used by God, and her singing voice sings the yearning of many people’s hearts. I hope that she will not only be a singer, but also she will become a musician in the future, not only singing, but also composing, using all her wisdom to glorify God, and we hope that many people will know the God behind us because they hear her praise singing. All of this is already beginning to be revealed: many of Cyrene’s “fans” say that they didn’t know what a “hymn” is, let alone about God’s grace, but now they are starting to understand, and some fans are even starting to go into the church to hear the pastor preach, what a wonderful thing!
At the end of 2008, Li Silin’s hymn concert held in Dongguan, Guangdong Province attracted a large number of people from Hong Kong, and Shenzhen, This was the first ticketed hymn concert in the Chinese mainland, and its significance is really special: many people feel the beauty of music, we believe that the seeds of the gospel will be sown in their hearts; China now needs such a concert so much: let the hard heart become soft, let the indifferent heart become warm, let the disappointed hear hope, let the desperate see the light, let the proud learn to be grateful, let the humble heart comfort the heart, let the shallow heart yearn for abundance, let the gray life see the sacred！
5. Born to the Lord
Li Guangping shared his testimony at Fengtai Hall in Fengtai District, Beijing, and I am grateful for God’s care and kindness over the years. As a little intellectual who likes to think, there is no way to escape the serious question of “What do you live for”. One day, I was chatting with a friend in Taiwan on the Internet, and I said, I have talked with you a few times about business experience, and I feel that you are a Christian. He immediately replied to me: Thank you for your care, I was saved more than ten years ago! I was greatly moved by what he said about “being saved”! Yes, the day we were baptized, we were saved! We were born out of the dead, born to the Lord! In fact, from the day we were born, we were “created” and born to the Lord. Psalm 139:13-16 says, “You have made my inwards.” I am in my mother’s womb, and you have covered me. I praise you, for I have been created to be amazing and terrible. Your deeds are wonderful, and I know them in my heart. I was created in secret, and I was connected in the depths of the earth. At that time, my form was not hidden from you. Your eyes have seen my unformed constitution. Before I have spent a day of your day, you have written it in your book.
This is the living and true truth that Heavenly Father has revealed to us! Decades of materialist education have made us atheists and so-called “liberal” intellectuals, and most of those who do not believe in God cannot avoid the severity of these questions: Do you believe that man has a soul? In addition to material life, man must have a spiritual life, there is no doubt about this, but the ultimate result of spiritual life is not to find a home for one’s spiritual world. If you don’t admit that people have a soul life and that the soul is immortal, then we are only alive, and there is no eternal ultimate meaning, and there is no absolute law of behavior! We see too many such people: After material satisfaction, you will inevitably have endless emptiness, loneliness, depravity, and decadence, as well as anxiety, pain, and boredom, this is the death of the soul, and what is the difference between it and a walking corpse? This is the death of the soul, and you live in the world in vain! At this time, what you need most is the warmth of love with an eternal heart! I like a passage that the famous host Zhang Yue said: “We need eternal love, never give up, and always be gentle.”
We desperately look for this kind of love in the world, but we never find it. Friends may empathize, lovers may not love, and only maternal love may be closer to eternity, but after all, it cannot be eternal. Mother is a human being, and if she is a human being, she may have all the faults of people, such as narrow-mindedness, such as selfishness, such as vulnerability, such as utilitarianism, which is normal and cannot be blamed. If you know that there is really someone who loves you, no matter how bad you are, and loves you so much that he can die for you, do you feel a little more settled in your heart? A little warmer? Can you be a little nicer to others? It is this love that looks at you sadly and with concern from the cross, why don’t you look into his eyes? The more we look at the history of World War II, the more we feel disappointed in people and our closeness to God; how despicable, shameless, cunning, vicious, and cruel human crimes have been in China’s “movement” and in world wars; how ungrateful, murderous, unreasonable, and miserable we are! What is sad is that we have not had these sufferings, but what is sad is that we have forgotten these sufferings, blood and tears, tragic memories, painful lessons, and pictures of death, intentionally or unintentionally! What is sad is that our history has been rewritten, and obscured, and Sadly, some events are still repeated, and tragedy is repeated!
In the Christian faith, in the process of studying the Bible, I have been reminded again and again: never underestimate human sin! Never give up faith in God! No matter how great a great man is, no matter how great a leader is, he must be doubtful, because man is man, except by following Jesus, we can never go to the Father (God); the great British Christian writer Louis said that there are two things in this world, you can’t be too amazed, one is the sinful nature of man, because of sinfulness brings out sin. We see that a person has been bad to this extreme, and you will see something worse than him. You can’t overstate how you marvel at the crimes of man. And there is one thing that we cannot be amazed enough about, and that is the glory of God, which is where our hope lies. We were born in the sixties, and to be honest, we have not experienced too many dark periods of extermination of humanity in Chinese history, but while shedding tears of sympathy for our parents, the only thing we can do for future generations and survivors is to find a quiet place in the dead of night, alone to God, with the most humble, softest, and most tender heart, to offer our prayers and praises!
Let me end this article with “John 3:16”: God loved the world and even gave His only begotten Son so that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life! Li Guangping has won professional awards such as the “1996 Outstanding Musician Achievement Award in the Chinese Pop Music Circle”, the “Fifth Chinese Music Media Award – Special Contribution Award in the Chinese Music Circle”, and the “Outstanding Contribution Award for Musicians in the 30 Years of Guangdong Pop Music”. He is a member of the 1st and 2nd “Society Awards” Review Committee of the China Pop Music Society, and a judge of the National Pop Singer Newcomer Selection Competition. He is currently the artistic director of Beijing Starlight Culture Communication Co., Ltd., and currently lives in Beijing. Representative works: “Are You Okay in Another Country”, “Wet Heart”, “Believe in the Distance”, “101 Blessings”, etc., and composed more than 600 songs. He has won more than 60 central and provincial music creation awards. He has published two kinds of music criticism books and more than 100,000 words of music criticism articles.
Blog note: Once again, we hope that God’s mercy will always accompany Brother Li Guangping’s family and that the more they serve, the more humble they become, and the more they serve, the more blessed they be! May Brother Li and his daughters use God’s gift of music to spread it on this much-needed arid land in China! Please pray for their family! God commemorates and blesses them!
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect reward comes from above, from the Father of lights, and there is no change in Him, nor a shadow of turning. 1 Peter 4:11 If anyone preaches, let him speak according to the word of God, and if anyone serves, he should serve according to the strength given by God, that God may be glorified in all things through Jesus Christ. For to Him is the glory and the power forever and ever. Amen!
Introduction of Li Guangping
Li Guangping is a well-known music producer, lyric writer, expert in the planning, commenting, and promotion of music culture and music activities in China, and a member of the Chinese Musicians Association. He has won the 1996 Outstanding Musician Achievement Award in the Chinese Pop Music Scene, the Special Contribution Award in the Chinese Music Scene at the 5th Chinese Music Media Awards, and has served as a member of the 1st and 2nd “Society Awards” of the China Light Music Society and the China Pop Music Society, and a judge of the National Pop Singer Newcomer Selection Competition.
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Li Guangping is a well-known Chinese music producer, lyricist, expert in the planning, commenting, and promotion of music culture and music activities, a member of the Chinese Musicians Association, a director of the China Pop Music Society, and a well-known music producer in China. 1. The first trial was born in a remote town in the mountainous areas of northern Guangdong, Guangdong Province. In 1982, when I was 18 years old, I was lucky enough to be one of the six people in the county who were admitted to university that year and went to Guangzhou to study at university. As far as I am concerned, the most tragic memories that the “cultural life” has given me are the inexhaustible examination materials of my father and mother and the discriminatory youth; at that time, I did not know whether I would “go to the mountains and go to the countryside” after graduating from middle school; Culturally, I belonged to the “small-town youth” with relatively pure nature and a relatively narrow cultural vision; when I was a teenager, I knew nothing about Christianity as a world view or as a cultural phenomenon, and some of them were only in the “post-××× era” or “reform and opening up” In the early days, I made an instinctive enthusiastic embrace of the changes of the times and liked it. Because, if the “literacy” continues, a child like me, who was born into a so-called “landlord” family, no matter how good my cultural performance is, can only be a “young intellectual” or a small-town salesman and other imaginable jobs.
The college students of the 80s had a crazy desire for Chinese and foreign cultures, just like the crazy desire for power, money, and sex now! I am grateful that the 80s was an era of poetic lyricism, an era of vigorous cultural development, an era of innocence and romance, and an era of humanism. In my four years at university, I read a lot of books on aesthetics, literature, philosophy, and psychology, wrote a lot of poetry and prose, and began to publish articles in newspapers and magazines. In 1986, I had just finished my college days. To study English and get into graduate school, I started attending some university teachers’ and students’ gatherings.
The first time I went to Sun Yat-sen University to attend a family gathering of foreign teachers, I found that they all talked about learning the words of the Bible, and I actively joined them in learning English with the attitude of learning English. At that time, some Hong Kong pastors began to come to Guangzhou to preach the gospel. I didn’t know they were evangelizing.
One day, I remember very well that it was at the Sanyu Hotel in Guangzhou, and at first, I thought it was a lecture on learning English, but suddenly a large number of police surrounded the hotel and began to drive away the foreign teachers, saying that they were “illegal missionaries”! They also started to register our identity documents; many of my classmates were frightened, but I was calm, because I felt that we had not done anything bad; in my eyes, these missionaries were quite magical: they were very good, elegant, It is incredible, that they can not only speak standard Mandarin, but also speak fluent Cantonese! The most important thing is that I learned from them for the first time or saw a kind of humility, peace, softness, enthusiasm, and tenacity of personality and life! Is this a legendary Christian? Thank God! What a good test it was, and it made me see a vision of life: in the face of persecution, in the face of absurdity, in the face of disappointment, those missionaries were smiling, and calm I have been thinking about my own life, and I have also read books such as “Desert Sweet Spring” and Liu Xiaofeng’s “Salvation and Escape”, so it can be said that the Lord has sown the seeds of grace in my heart at that time, and I am just waiting for the opportunity to take root and sprout. I began to read the Bible and began to think about the way forward. Although there were years of hesitation and wait-and-see, I continued to read the Bible.
Including the period when I graduated from university and was assigned to teach at Guangzhou Xinghai Conservatory of Music, I have been looking for a way out in the study of aesthetics and literature, of course, most of the time I am at a loss. As you know, I’m working in pop music, not cultural studies and academic criticism. In the eyes of many, pop music is associated with frivolity, shallowness, fashion, and decay, but I believe that under the Lord’s arrangement, all work is equally important and equal, because all things and the world are entrusted by God the Father, because “there is no authority in heaven and on earth that is not from God” (Romans 13-1).We are just instruments in the hands of our Heavenly Father. So, as long as we have a humble and obedient heart, we can use the work at hand to do the work that glorifies the Lord! So I feel fortunate today to sing the Lord’s grace with the songs I have written!
Second, the desperate place to survive
After the successful group photo of my daughter’s gospel concert in 1989, because I was “punished”, I was no longer suitable to stay on the university campus to be a “glorious people’s teacher”, and I left the conservatory to enter the business sea and become a music producer. Looking back at my songwriting trajectory for more than 20 years, my works before I became a Christian mainly stayed on personal joys, sorrows, and sorrows, expressing love from my perspective. “Is Your Other Country Okay” and “Wet Heart” are sung on the streets and alleys, reflecting people’s desire for love and helplessness from the side; if some works still have some value, they are nothing more than expressing the emotional experience of Chinese in the transition period in finding a new home and new life value, and I have always felt powerless, lacking, light, and depressed in terms of touching people’s hearts, especially in the renewal of soul life. Whether we listen to Bob Dylan, listen to the U2 band, or listen to Handel, Mozart, and Beethoven, we find that their profundity and pure poetry make us feel the coldness, rigor and integrity of the soul, because there are the melancholy feelings and sufferings and dreams of Christ in them.
It can be said that the biggest difference between Chinese and Western music, whether it is pop music or classical music, is the difference between life feelings and religious feelings: we do not touch the soul, what we pursue is beautiful and light, the beauty of words and melody and the pleasure of the body; what they pursue is majestic and heavy, it is the cry and catharsis that go straight to the soul, and it is the accusation and pathos that face suffering and despair. Recognizing this, I saw hope in despair at the same time, and I had to inject more soul into my benevolent pop music creations.
But it wasn’t until the year 2000 that God used affliction to make our family trust Him completely. That year, a singer that my couple had worked so hard to train was rewarded with false accusations after gaining our complete trust and the initial results of the production. This makes us sad. Although both courts ruled in favor of us, the lawsuit showed me the vileness and greed of the human heart, the disappointment of our careers, the exhaustion of our husband and wife, and the disappointment of humanity. At this moment, God sent his handmaid to lead us to a meeting, and when we heard that Jesus’ disciples, who had also been raised with love, had betrayed the Lord for thirty taels of silver, we were comforted in our hearts, and we were born in desperation and ushered in new life in Christ. Christ used the blood of his cross to awaken our numb hearts!
What is this frustration for us to be betrayed by his beloved disciples for doing so righteous and loving so much? I am very grateful to Sister Wang Die, who led our husband and wife to study the Bible, she is a good preacher with rich spiritual experience, and we are also deeply grateful to Brother Yuan and Brother Zhang, whose preaching on the other side of the ocean has added tremendous strength to our faith!
Jesus said in Matthew 6:44-45, “But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you.” so that you may be the Son of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes the sun shine on the good and the wicked and sends rain on the righteous and on the unrighteous. So, our feelings of pain and resentment are relieved and our hearts are healed, which is just a small ditch in the course of life. Later, in the process of studying, I saw more stories of forgiveness of enemies because of faith in Jesus and my Lord, and in those heart-wrenching stories, countless people’s hearts were healed! For example, Lin Yixiong, former chairman of Taiwan’s Democratic Progressive Party, and his daughter Lin Wanjun were broken into Lin’s house by gangsters in 1980, wielding a knife to kill Lin’s mother and twin daughters, and the eldest daughter Lin Huanjun was stabbed several times and did not die In 2003, my wife and I were baptized in Dongshan Church, Guangzhou.
3. The Light of Faith
After Li Guangping, his wife Lin Jing, and their daughter Li Silin came to Christ, I felt that the biggest change in myself was that I knew that I was a sinner, a sick person, a weak person, a corrupt person, and a person who was never perfect. From the point of view of creation, before I believed in the Lord, I was very proud and proud because I had written a lot of popular songs that were popular for a while, and I was never happy to be proposed by others to make any suggestions, and I thought that my songs were the best in the world, the most beautiful songs; now I look back and listen to them, how pale the feelings of many songs are, how shallow the lyrics are, how narrow the creative perspective is, and how straightforward the way of expression is, which makes me feel ashamed! Thank you, Lord, now I am not only with “sympathetic understanding” I listen to other people’s songs, and I no longer get angry at other people’s criticisms of me, but revise, adjust, tear down, and rewrite, and have no regrets! Even if someone rejects the manuscript and doesn’t use it, I don’t get angry, thinking that maybe this is the Lord’s will, and be relieved. The second change is that when our family’s life is completely renewed, our musical compositions also reflect the dazzling light of faith.
“The eyes are the lamps on the body. If your eyes are bright, your whole body will be light, and if your eyes are dim, your whole body will be dark. (Matthew 6:22), Pastor Yuan said, before we believed in the Lord, we were on the ground, focusing on some small livelihoods on the earth, but after believing in the Lord, our eyes were polished, our hearts were lit, and our works were filled with God-given love and warmth! After believing in the Lord, whether we listen to other people’s works, masterpieces, or new works, we have a pair of God-given ears and eyes, and we can hear and see many details and feelings that have been overlooked before, and in terms of creation, we have leaped to a new height! For example, in the song “Happiness”, we express a family’s “concept of happiness” in words that can be understood by children very clearly, that is: happiness is a family, happiness is love, and happiness is that parents love each other!
After this song was sung on CCTV, it touched the hearts of countless family audiences! Another example is the song “101 Blessings,” many people have heard blessings, heard warm and beautiful human feelings, heard the call for peace, and heard the awareness of environmental protection, and almost no one knows that this is a “corporate song”! It can be said that after believing in the Lord, his creative vision has been greatly broadened, he has a new goal and direction, and he is no longer confused and confused. The third change is that we no longer need “inspiration” for our creations. Because the Lord is beside us, in our hearts, and in our heads! Because “in the beginning was the Word”, “The Word”, “Immanuel”, and “Hallelujah”, you have finished these four sentences, and the Holy Spirit has come down on you, what else do you need to do besides praise?
In the choice of song themes, Christianity has completely illuminated our eyes, making us pay more attention to the life stories of love and compassion, suffering and redemption, suffering and salvation, and the suffering of the people at the bottom of the world! The spirit of God runs in our hearts, and the songs are therefore thick and deep, more powerful and full of emotions, more durable and worth remembering; for example, there is a song in “Amazing Grace” Love Defeats Hate” is my creative passion after reading a piece of news. The girl with folded wings, who learned to love and fly by the grace of the Lord, touched me deeply, and I was convinced that only love from God can overcome hatred.
Being a musician who cares about the soul is my ultimate pursuit! The devastating earthquake in May last year touched the hearts of countless people, and I kept watching live TV, buying newspapers and magazines, and browsing websites every day to pay attention to the disaster area. The dripping blood and brutal images kept me at peace for a long time. Jesus said, “Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who mourn.” Be of one heart with one another, and do not be ambitious, but bow down to the lowly. (Romans 12-15), I fasted and prayed in the face of suffering, and wrote inspirational songs to pray for the rest of the deceased, and for the living to be strong and healthy.
On the second day of the earthquake, I composed the song “Pray with Love”, which was used as the theme song for the earthquake relief gala jointly organized by Guangdong Province and Sichuan Province, and a series of musical works such as “Love is a Miracle” and “Choose to Be Strong” all expressed our love, encouragement, and blessings to the people in the disaster area, as well as our good wishes to participate in the earthquake relief and spiritual reconstruction with songs. Later, I learned that in Shifang City, Sichuan, the hardest-hit area, the song “Pray with Love” became the most comforting and inspiring song during the disaster relief period, which was a gift from the Father of Heaven, and it was not something that we humble people could do! Later, this song entered the church and was well received by the brothers and sisters, which was the most gratifying result for us. 4. Sing for the Lord
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李广平的宝贝女儿–音乐专辑《奇异恩典》
作为一个基督化的家庭，我们一家都很蒙神的祝福。我们的女儿李思琳，就是一个为神所用为神所爱的最好例子。在基督徒家庭中成长，思琳倍受神的眷顾。很小的时候，她就和我们一起上教堂，夜晚睡前，她会自己学习圣经故事，我们也经常用《圣经》真理教育她，思琳接受起来也非常虔诚虚心，并在她幼小的灵魂中刻骨铭心。思琳走到哪里都有一个磁场，蒙神人的喜爱。2005年，为了让李思琳接受中国最好的音乐教育，我们决定举家北上，移居北京，备考中央音乐学院附中。
大家可能不知道，作曲专业是音乐学院最为艰深的专业：考前不仅仅要学作曲、还要学习专业的钢琴演奏、视唱练耳、民歌背唱、乐理知识等等，一周要上四五节课程，都是非常艰难的一门门课程！我记得，我们常常在大风雪中坐的士、公车、地铁等等穿越北京城去上课，各种艰苦，思琳从来没有一句怨言。在学习的过程中，最大的神迹就是：教思琳作曲专业课和钢琴课的老师都是基督徒，这就是神预备的祝福啊！结果她以专业第一名的成绩考上中央音乐学院附中作曲专业。我深深感到，我们每个生命不是偶然的，都有来自上帝的旨意和使命；我们做的每一件事背后，同样有来自神的美意与祝福！
2008年，我的朋友邓伟标兄（他是国内“新世纪音乐”的代表性作曲家）在与我聊天的时候，说要给思琳出一张唱片，他问我题材，我一下就想到了赞美诗这个题材，于是决定我们一起来给思琳做一张赞美诗的发烧唱片！我希望我们一家愿将生命摆上，用动听的音乐弘扬主音，吸引更多人归向神。而且我们今后无论做什么，总是本着传播上帝大爱的精神来行，这样才是有意义有价值的音乐人生啊。
感谢珠海豪杰文化艺术公司，他们愿意为这张赞美诗唱片出资并发行，我深深感谢“豪杰文化”的董事长杨兰香女士和林昊东总经理！《奇异恩典》专辑出版后，引起国内大量作家的关注和鼓励；王书亚、李皖、华姿、韩松落、韩浩月、陈蔚文等著名作家都给予高度评价；作家余杰还把唱片送给许多香港、台湾和美国的朋友们，让大家聆听来自中国大陆的赞美诗，弘扬主的恩典。
专辑里面的歌曲《爱是奇迹》、《我有一个好朋友》、《爱的颂歌》等歌曲已经在社会上广泛流传，深受好评；在广州东山堂、广东协和神学院、东莞文化中心大剧院，我们一家都做了多场见证和演唱，开拓了一条用音乐展示基督的爱与公义的新颖的事功之路。说起《奇异恩典》的序言，这也是一个值得写写的神迹：我一直喜欢基督徒作家王书亚先生撰写的影评文章，为了找他写序，我发电子邮件、打电话都没有找到他；
有一天无意中买到《天堂沉默了半小时》这本书，就在我的博客上写了几句话，却给这本书的出版人彭强弟兄看到，他主动联系我，通过他就很容易与王书亚弟兄联系上了，真的感谢神！一切是如此神奇美妙！我们想要做的是把流行音乐和赞美诗结合起来，把音乐和信仰融合在一起，去更新年轻人的心思意念。我觉得思琳是神使用的一个非常好的器皿，她的歌声唱出了很多人内心的向往。我希望她不仅仅是一个歌手，更希望她今后成为一个音乐家，不仅仅是唱歌，也要创作，用她的全部的智慧去荣耀神；我们希望许多人因为听到了她的赞美的歌声，继而认识了我们身后的上帝。这一切已经开始显露出来了：许多思琳的“粉丝”说，以前根本不知道什么叫“赞美诗”更不知道关于上帝的恩典，现在开始明白了，甚至还有歌迷开始走进教堂听牧师讲道了，这是多么美好的事情！
而2008年年底在广东东莞举办的李思琳演唱的赞美诗音乐会，更是吸引了大量来自香港、深圳、广州的基督徒，现场气氛极为温馨热烈，轰动一时；这是中国大陆第一场售票演出的赞美诗演唱会，其意义真是特别：许多人在感受音乐的美妙的同时，我们相信福音的种子一定会在他们心中撒下；现时的中国太需要这样的音乐会了：让刚硬的心变柔软，让冷漠的心变温存，让失望的人听到希望，让绝望的人看到光明，让自傲的人学会感恩，让卑微的人心里慰安，让浅薄的心向往丰富，让灰暗的人生看到神圣！
五、向主而生
李广平在北京丰台区的丰台堂分享见证信主这些年来，我很感激神的眷顾和恩待。作为一个喜欢思考的小知识分子，没有办法逃避“你为什么而活”这个严肃的问题。有一天在网上和一位台湾商业上的朋友聊天，我说，和你谈过几次生意经，感觉你是一个基督徒？他马上回答我说：谢谢你的关怀，我十几年前就得救啦！我对他所说的“得救”这个说法大为感动！是啊，我们洗礼的那天就是得救啊！我们是出死而生，向主而生啊！其实，我们从一出生那天起，就是“被造”的一生，就是向主而生。因为，《诗139:13—16》上说：“ 我的肺腑是你所造的。我在母腹中，你已覆庇我。我要称谢你，因我受造，奇妙可畏。你的作为奇妙，这是我心深知道的。我在暗中受造，在地的深处被联络。那时，我的形体并不向你隐藏。我未成形的体质，你的眼早已看见了。你所定的日子，我尚未度一日，你都写在你的册上了。
”这是何等神奇的诗句！这也是世界上最美的诗句啊！这就是天父向我们显明的又活又真的真理！几十年的唯物主义教育观，让我们一个二个成为无神论者和所谓的“自由主义”知识分子，不信神的人大多无法回避这些问题的严峻：你相信人有灵魂吗？除了物质生活，人必须拥有精神生活，这一点没有疑问，但精神生活的最终，不是为了自己的心灵世界寻找家园吗？不是为了是自己的灵魂感受安宁吗？如果你不承认人有灵魂生活，不承认灵魂不死，那我们活着就仅仅是活着，没有永恒的终极意义，没有绝对的行为法则！我们看得太多这样的人：物质满足以后，你必然会有无尽的空虚、孤独、堕落与颓废；以及焦虑、痛苦、无聊，这就是灵魂的死亡，和一个行尸走肉又有什么不同？这就是心灵的死亡，白白活在世上一趟！这时候，你最需要的就是有一种永恒的心灵的爱的温暖！我很喜欢著名主持人张越说过的一段话：“我们需要一个永恒的爱，从不放弃，永远温柔。
我们拼命在尘世寻找这种爱，却总是找不到。朋友可能移情，爱人可能别恋，只有母爱可能比较接近永恒，但毕竟不能永恒。母亲是人，是人就可能有人的一切毛病，比如狭隘，比如自私，比如脆弱，比如功利，这都属正常，责备不得。如果你知道真的会有一个人爱你，不管你多糟糕都爱你，爱到可以为你去死，你是不是觉得心里安定了一点儿？温暖了一点儿？你是不是可以对别人好一点儿？就是这份爱，从十字架上悲伤而关切地望着你，你为什么不看他的眼睛？”真是振聋发聩，一语中的！信仰的力量就是出死入生的力量，就是新生的呼唤！我最近在看中国的反右运动史，看文g e史，看二次大战历史，越看越感觉到对人的失望和对神的亲近；人的罪行在中国的“运动”中，在世界大战中，表现得是多么卑下、无耻、狡诈、凶恶、残忍；是多么的忘恩负义、凶残无理、惨不忍睹！可悲的还不是我们有过这些苦难，可悲的是我们有意无意地已经忘却这些苦难、血泪、悲惨记忆、痛苦教训和死亡画面！可悲的是我们的历史被改写、被遮蔽、被抹杀，被清除！可悲的是有些事件还在重复上演，悲剧轮回！
而在基督教的信仰里，在研读《圣经》的过程中，我都被不断反复地提醒：永远不要低估人的罪行！永远不要放弃对神的信心！任何伟人活着领袖再伟大也要对他抱着怀疑，因为人就是人，除了通过跟随耶稣，我们永远到不了父（上帝）那里去；英国伟大的基督徒作家路易斯有一句话，在这个世界上有两件事，你是怎么惊叹都不过分的，一个是人的罪性，因为罪性才带出罪行。我们看到一个人已经坏到这个极点，你还会看到比他更坏的。你对人的罪行怎么惊叹还不过分。而还有一样东西是我们怎么惊叹也不过分的，就是上帝的荣耀，这是我们的盼望所在。我们生在六十年代，说实话没有经历太多中国历史上灭绝人性的黑暗时期，但是，在为我们的父母辈一洒同情之泪的同时，我们这些后生者和幸存者，惟一能够做的，就是在夜深人静的时候，找一个安静的处所，一个人独对上帝，用最谦卑、最柔软、最温柔的心，献上我们的祈祷和赞美！
让我用《约3: 16》结束这篇文字吧：神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不至灭亡，反得永生！李广平曾获得“1996年中国流行歌坛杰出音乐人成就奖”、“第五届华语音乐传媒大奖——华语乐坛特别贡献奖”、”广东流行音乐30年音乐人杰出贡献奖”等专业奖项；曾任中国轻音乐学会、中国流行音乐学会第一届、第二届“学会奖”评审委员会委员、全国流行歌手新人选拔赛评委。现任北京星之光文化传播有限公司艺术总监；现居北京。代表作：《你在他乡还好吗》、《潮湿的心》、《相信远方》、《101个祝福》等，创作歌曲六百余首。曾先后60多次获中央级和省一级音乐创作奖。出版音乐评论书籍两种，发表音乐评论文章十余万字。
本博注：我们再次愿神的慈爱一直伴随着李广平弟兄一家，愿他们越服事、越谦卑，越服事、越蒙福！愿李弟兄及女儿，用上帝给他们的音乐恩赐，广撒在中国的这块急需要的干旱土地上！请大家多为他们一家代祷！神纪念及祝福！
《雅1: 17》各样美善的恩赐和各样全备的赏赐都是从上头来的，从众光之父那里降下来的；在他并没有改变，也没有转动的影儿。《彼前4: 11》 若有讲道的，要按着神的圣言讲；若有服事人的，要按着神所赐的力量服事，叫神在凡事上因耶稣基督得荣耀。原来荣耀、权能都是他的，直到永永远远。阿们！
李广平简介
李广平，我国著名音乐制作人、歌词作家、音乐文化和音乐活动的策划、评论、推广专家，中国音乐家协会会员。曾获得1996年中国流行歌坛杰出音乐人成就奖、第五届华语音乐传媒大奖——华语乐坛特别贡献奖、曾任中国轻音乐学会、中国流行音乐学会第一届、第二届“学会奖”评审委员会委员、全国流行歌手新人选拔赛评委。
恩典见证
Testimony…
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2. This time it’s fate
In December 2009, I went to Suqian to talk about business at a place called Suyang. The road from Suqian to Suyang is very good, it is a double road. There is a green belt in the center of the road, which should be regarded as a first-class highway. At that time, my friend and I were driving, and when we were about to arrive in Suyang, my friend fell asleep, and I was also very tired and sleepy. It didn’t take long for my eyelids to blink a few times and I fell asleep, I don’t know how long. I woke up from my dream with a thud and knew something was wrong. By the time I reacted, the car had already crossed the green belt and drove onto the opposite side of the road. Fortunately, there was no car on the other side, so I hit the right direction and didn’t drive into the ditch! Thank God!
We were all safe and sound, but the bumper of the car broke. There are also two broken wheels. Thinking about the speed of the car at that time, it was really fast, and if there was a big truck on the opposite side, it would flatten our small car. If there are pedestrians on the road, it will cause a major traffic accident, and I am afraid of fear! Thank God for His grace! This is because a believing family is blessed by God, God is with us all the time, and it is God who saved me! But in this car accident, I did not go to church to give thanks, and I quickly forgot about it, so that I only now know God. It wasn’t until the loving Heavenly Father delivered me from sickness and death for the third time that I truly threw myself into the arms of the Lord.
In March 2010, I was diagnosed with a pancreatic tumor and had to undergo surgery. Before the surgery, my family and my brothers and sisters in Christ prayed for me before God to save me and heal me. Even my 68-year-old father, a ××× worker, fell to his knees crying and begged God to heal me. The old father knelt down three times, all of them crying and praying. When he prayed for me for the third time, his mood suddenly calmed down, and he felt that I was at peace. Thank God, it is God’s grace! After the operation, my father came to see me, he clasped my hands with both hands, and the first thing he said was, “Son, God bless you!” I looked at my father’s red and swollen and tearful eyes, and my heart was about to break! I didn’t dare to look at my father more, otherwise, I would not be able to control my emotions. I turned my face to the ceiling and said firmly, “Dad, God is with me, my surgery was successful! I will get better soon, don’t worry!” My father nodded straight and said yes! I know that my father has been comforted! Brothers and sisters, I was diagnosed in the Nanjing Military Military Hospital. But after seeing the images, experts from the military hospital said that the tumor could not be removed.
We went to consult the second specialist doctor, and the second specialist doctor said, “What stupid doctor would dare to do this to you!” this means that my illness was hopeless. The family held on to the only hope and went to the Provincial People’s Hospital to give it a try. Director Qian, an expert from the Provincial People’s Hospital, received us, and after looking at the image and the inspection report, he said: “We are not sure that we can do it, but we can open it and take a look, and we can do our best to do it, if we can’t do it, we will reroute you and maintain temporary life!” After family research, it was decided to agree to the operation.
At 7:30 a.m. I was wheeled into the operating room. It wasn’t until around 5:30 p.m. that my surgery was over. Thank God for His grace! When the chief doctor came out of the operation, he confidently told my family, saying, “Luckily! The tumor was successfully removed! And it was cut clean!” But what I didn’t expect was that at about 10 p.m., I woke up and felt a pain in my abdomen, and when the doctor came to check on me, I coughed violently and spit out something like a blood clot from my mouth, and then I didn’t know anything! Later, I learned that it was an intra-abdominal hemorrhage and had to undergo a second operation. So at two o’clock in the morning, he was pushed into the operating room again.
The second operation is very dangerous, and it is almost impossible to get off the operating table! Because the abdominal cavity of the second operation is full of blood, the internal organs cannot be seen clearly, and the internal organs can be easily damaged. When the second operation came, my wife couldn’t control her emotions anymore and she was completely devastated. The doctor told her to sign it, and she was delirious. In confusion, his wife could only cry and call Pastor Wu and say, “God is not saving him!” and Pastor Wu said, “Don’t be afraid, I saw God’s hand holding him in prayer!” Thank God for His grace, as the pastor said, I woke up safely the next day. And I slept so soundly, I never slept so comfortably, just like a person who has just unloaded the burden! I was tired, and I was completely refreshed, my mind was clear, and my whole body was relaxed! I said to my second sister-in-law, who came to see me, “I slept so comfortably today! I want to sleep here for another week!” “Thank God for His grace! I was able to be so comfortable in the second operation, it was completely God’s healing! The second operation was also successful. But I didn’t expect that after 7 days, my wound suddenly swelled and I felt like the needle and thread were falling off. Hurry up and call the doctor, the chief doctor rushed to untie the gauze of the wound, and the blood sprayed straight out!
The chief doctor was also startled, but quickly calmed down and quickly tied the blood vessels inside. Then a few more stitches. The bleeding finally stopped. However, the chief doctor was helpless in the face of my condition. There were no stitches on the wounds outside, and I said that after two days of observation, it would be up to you to make it! When the doctor said such things, my heart was very clear! I knew how many times I was tortured, and the doctor no longer had much confidence in my condition! I knew that only God could heal me and save me! My family, my brothers and sisters in Christ, were praying for me.
That night, I was asleep, and I felt a little hot pain in my wound, but it was as if a warm hand was gently caressing my wound, and that hand was so warm and loving! Thank God for His grace, God is healing me! After a day and a night of observation, the next day I was in good condition, and all the indicators on the computer were healthy, and even the chief doctor was amazed! His surprised smile was also full of surprise! He said, “Very good, very good! Everything is fine!” I quickly recovered and was discharged from the hospital a week later!
In all three surgeries, God healed me through the hand of a doctor. God loves me, God is with me, and God has saved me! I know that without God’s healing, I can’t go through even one ordeal! Thank the Lord for His grace! I will follow the Lord and walk the gospel path. Let more people receive God’s grace! After the operation, I was in good condition! But the devil took the opportunity to attack me, day and night, and when I closed my eyes, all I saw were colorless faces, or my face was covered with blood, and I was deformed and horrified! From far to near, from left to right, floating in front of my eyes.
I had never experienced this before, I didn’t believe it when people told me before, I didn’t expect it to happen to me! My wife and I kept praying for God to drive away the filth in front of me. Maybe it’s because of my weakness, but it’s still a little far from God’s inspired communication. I didn’t get rid of those shadows for several days, and in my helpless confusion, my mind remembered the words in the hymns that my wife usually sang. I can’t remember which poem it was, so I made it up from my memory and feelings. I can’t sing, but I sing in a very good tune! Lord Jesus! I love you, and with you I have everything! You are on earth as in heaven, Lord Jesus! I love you, you have given me the bright sunshine! You have given me the power of life! Lord Jesus! I love you! With you I have everything! What am I afraid of? Lord Jesus! I love you! I will follow you all my life! I will follow you all my life! I will follow you all my life! I will sing every night until I fall asleep.
In the morning, I insisted on going to the window and singing. Because he had just undergone surgery, his body was very weak, like a chick that had just come out of its shell, staggering around. Looking out the window, the spring sun that has just risen, shining on the mountains and forests in the distance and the gardens nearby, looks particularly brilliant and beautiful! The feeling of being born again makes me wish I could go out for a walk! I can only sing in praise of the beautiful world that God has created. These lyrics were so deeply imprinted in my mind that about the fourth day, those filthy faces disappeared from my eyes! In their place, these powerful songs! Thank God! I truly felt the power of God’s Holy Spirit who created all things in the universe! Thank God for His grace! During the operation, I felt the warmth and love of Christianity, this big family! Before my surgery, several brothers and sisters came to visit me after learning about the situation. Comfort me in every way to have faith in the Lord. And pray for me with tears!
I was touched enough to meet a few people I didn’t know, made a long bus trip, and came to the 9th floor of the inpatient department to see me! But far from that, they came to see me after my operation, bought a lot of food, and encouraged me to have faith and rely on the Lord! I cried! In the same way, when I returned home, my brothers and sisters came to see me, cared for me, cared for me, prayed for me, and offered their love. It made me feel the great happiness of being a member of the family who believed in Christ!
This is the Christian brothers and sisters, their love is so selfless, so sincere! Thank God! I want to be a Christian so that more people can enjoy the warmth and love of Christianity, this big family! Now I am very close to my brothers and sisters, and I love every brother and sister because I grew up in their love!
I had surgery on March 8, was baptized in May, and joined the choir in June. At the end of September, my health check-up turned out to be normal! God healed me, the Holy Spirit understood me, and I understood that greed is the source of human sin. Gluttony will cause disease, and greed for money will also get disease, and even death in violation of the law. Thank you to our loving Heavenly Father for opening my eyes so that I can see the world. I used to see the world with my physical eyes, but now I see the world with spiritual eyes, and I see two completely different worlds.
God’s Word tells me, “What was once beneficial, is now lossy, what was once glorious, now it is shame, what was once precious, now it is dung!” When we look at the world with our eyes, we see a world of vanity, jealousy, hatred, lust, greed, pleasure, and insatiable sin, and in this world, we do not see our sins to the point of death. Only by relying on the Lord Jesus Christ and washing away our sins with the Blood can our hearts be cleansed and we can see the world spiritually.
Spiritual eyes can see our sins clearly, keep us away from the world of sin, and also enable us to see another beautiful world full of love, that is, the world of eternal life with joy and happiness! Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I believe that under the Lord’s care, this young seed of mine will take root, sprout, blossom, and bear fruit. Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I will cherish and cherish all the affection, friendship, and natural scenery that God has given me!
Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I will go through my life with love until I reach the Heavenly Father who loves me! Dear brothers and sisters, Life is divided into two levels, one is life and the other is life. I used to be in sin after life, material things, and money, and I forgot that there was still life. But God loved the world, and in my afflictions, it was the Lord Jesus Christ who saved me and chose me again and again.
After listening to my testimony of life, may we all surrender our lives to God, let God be the Savior of our lives, and look to Him and trust Him so that we will always be healthy, joyful, and peaceful on the road of life! Today I will confess my sins before you! Pray that the Lord Jesus Christ will once again wash away all my sins, all my unclean thoughts, and all my unclean souls with His precious Blood! Let my heart be cleansed! Let me become a truly regenerated person, let me be an instrument of the Holy Spirit, and let my spiritual life be nourished by the Holy Spirit and grow like a green tree, which grows without growth before it bears fruit!
恩典见证