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After eating at noon, and cleaning up the children, the wife took the children into the room for a lunch break, I cleaned up the kitchen, cleaned up the “battlefield” left by the two children’s dinner, walked out the door, drove straight to the highway, there was no destination, just kept driving… There is only one thought in my mind: to escape this life as much as possible.  

When I got home, the children woke up, then cleaned up, and came to the library, my wife took the two children to read and play, and I sat down alone in front of the computer. In the end, there is still no escape, and you still need to come back and face it, and then you will have to face cooking dinner, cleaning up the kitchen, and taking the children to read the Bible.

The heart is disturbed, depressed, and even a little desperate.

As a father, I need to spend a lot of time every day taking care of my two children, although I am very happy, at the same time, honestly speaking, a lot of depression, exhaustion, and even complaints, many times, really just want to escape, even if it is a short escape, even a moment of peace, for me, is precious.

Every morning, the children get up very early, and then I also get up early (around 7 o’clock) to take care of the two children, and the wife goes to prepare breakfast, or the wife takes care of the children, I go to prepare breakfast; After breakfast, I clean up the kitchen, and then I take the children to read or play; After a while, it will be lunch time, and the same procedure will be the same: I take care of two children, and my wife prepares lunch, or my wife takes care of the children, and I prepare lunch; After lunch, I clean up the kitchen, and then I take the children or go to the library, or to the park, or to the room; It’s not until dinner time in a while, and it’s still the same:.

After dinner, the wife takes the child into the room, I clean the kitchen, go into the room to take the child, the wife washes first, then I wash the child, then I take the child to read, read the Bible, then pray, then the wife takes the child to sleep, I go to read, write, read, look at the mobile phone. Of course, before that, I have to wash the bottle and clean up some other mess.

Between my wife and me, of course, there will often be disputes over the methods and ways of educating children, and there will also be mutual complaints or accusations, and each other is a little dissatisfied with each other, and even often quarrels and cold wars over this.

Sometimes, when I am alone with a child, there are many unexpected situations: the small one spills the water cup on the floor, I was just about to dry the floor, and the big one suddenly shouts: I want to go to the bathroom. When the big one came back from the toilet, the little one had already dried the floor with his own clothes, and by the way, he broke himself and cried alone in the room. Two children play together, constantly having accidents: grabbing toys, grabbing water cups, and then the two cries together. Pick up one, and the other one cries harder for you to hug.

I believe that such a scene should be familiar to many parents, especially to parents who have more than one child, these experiences may seem familiar, and the emotional changes in this are also interesting.

Often in such scenes, there is an inexplicable anger, an inexplicable grievance, or an inexplicable desperate atmosphere, which will produce a reproach of the spouse and take the anger out on the child or the spouse.

Once, I was cooking, my wife took the child, the little one wanted to play with the can, I said I couldn’t play, it was too dangerous, the wife said it’s okay, let her play, the big one was in the toilet, to watch, I didn’t pay attention, after a while, the little one was injured by the can, bleeding, crying. My first reaction was, of course: I told you a long time ago, right? Just don’t listen.

Such situations and even quarrels are commonplace.

Recently, because I spent a lot of time with children, I experienced more than before, experienced more than before, and experienced more deeply than before, so the sting was deeper and more real.

The reason why I accuse the other party is that I subconsciously think: I am stronger than the other party, if it is me, I will definitely take care of the children more than the other party, will definitely be more attentive and careful than the other party, and will definitely not let the accident happen, and the reason for the accident is the fault of the other party. That’s what I think in my subconscious, at least, it’s what I think in my subconscious. But the truth is that many times when I take my children, I also swipe my phone so that the children fall.

The reason for complaining or resentment is also because there is no deeper, more true understanding of God’s trust and responsibility to us as parents. It is known in theory, but it is not yet known in practice.

Despair is due to the fact that, in essence, we have not yet recognized our limitations: how limited we are as human beings, as parents, and how much we need God’s grace at every moment.

I am no stranger to these principles and principles, nor have I ever doubted them, and even often hold similar lectures in various places, which really makes many parents, including myself, get a lot of help. But in reality, when you can’t bear it again and again, when you face a messy room again and again when the child seems to be less cooperative again and again, these theories will fall apart in an instant. Then, you have to face the weakness, ugliness, and corruption in yourself, and you need to face the lack and dryness in yourself.

As a result, I began to understand (understand, not approve) why so many brothers like to come home and lie on the sofa and brush their phones instead of changing diapers for their children; Why many men like to be busy with work instead of taking care of their children; Why many fathers would rather go out to dinner with friends, colleagues, leaders than cook for their children. I began to understand that the essence of these phenomena is actually to some extent a desire to escape, from the exhaustion and despair of taking care of children, from the powerlessness and resentment of taking children. Escape as much as possible, escape as brightly as possible.

To be honest, I also wish I could lie on the couch and swipe my phone, I also wanted to hide in the library every day, and I also liked that I could leave my child alone with my wife every day.

Two days ago, I went to Indiana, far from home, to preach, it took two days to fly back and forth (because of the 3-hour time difference, I had to transfer flights), and I said to my brothers and sisters there: Thank you for inviting me to preach, you don’t have to worry about me working hard, this kind of going out is actually a vacation for me, even if I talk for 12 hours a day, I won’t feel too tired. You see, I hope so too, and I like to be able to go out and serve every day, for how honest and spiritually godly reasons?

But as fathers, as brothers, when we can once again reflect deeply on God’s calling and mission, we can understand that once we become fathers, then, basically, those “time that belongs” to me, are gone. I was listening to Chandler’s sermon recently, and I was very heartbroken. For a father, he simply won’t have time for himself. His time should be spent leading, caring for, and providing for the family. This does not mean that the family becomes our center and everything, but that for a father, it is God’s mission and calling for him.

Of course, the center of our lives is God, and the goal of our lives is of course to glorify God, there is no doubt about it, but as fathers, the way we glorify God is to take care of, accompany, and lead our children, rather than hiding in the office, leaving the children alone with our wives, and working hard, earning money, and serving ourselves, which is not the way God says he wants. The way God says to be is that you accompany your child as much as possible every day, lead your child to know him, lead your child to read the Bible, and pray, in this process, it will definitely be easier than work (to some extent, not necessarily absolutely), you will want to be angry, you will even have despair, but you can still look up to and rely on God’s grace, you can still face it because of God’s call and mission to you.

At this point, I stopped writing and decided to take the children to read, let my wife rest, and come back half an hour later to continue writing.

(half an hour later). The two babies drove me crazy again. The process will not be described. I once again verified and witnessed the ugly and hypocritical face inside me.

It is difficult to be a father to God’s heart because it means self-denial, which is thorough, timely, energetic, and exhausting. We will no longer have too much time to do what we love, and no longer have much time to enjoy the leisure and leisure of a person. It took me almost two years to realize and comprehend the transformation of this process.

I often wonder, are all sisters more likely to have children? Isn’t all sisters more methodical? Are all sisters born with babies? In fact, it is neither, but they are more patient and loving, they are stronger than men, and they do not flee and give up easily. They also have these emotions, sorrows, and weariness, just like all of our brethren, even more than we do, and they have them, but they are stronger.

After a while, I believe that I should still fall into the cycle of exhaustion, fatigue and complaining, but I still have to face it by grace, and this process will be repeated, this is not “one understanding and one comprehension forever”, but it needs to rely on grace, comprehend again and again, turn back again and again, rely on grace again and again to have the reality of hope and joy. In this reality, you constantly acknowledge your limitations, constantly admit your weaknesses, and constantly admit that you need God’s grace.

I also realized that for me, becoming a father is just the beginning, and there are still too many places to learn and be shaped by God. Therefore, this process is not only the process of teaching children but also the process of self-being shaped and pruned by God.

In the end, I also realized that leading children is not by “loud voice”, not by the authority of “I am your old son”, not by “even coaxing him to eat”. These methods may work for a while, but they are ways to fail. These are the ways that we think of when we are angry and corrupted when we want to rely on ourselves when we want to achieve our goals.

This is my personal experience as a father, an experience of failure, but also an experience of facing it by grace, and in the grace of Jesus Christ, when we look up and rely on His grace, from exhaustion, from busyness, even from the slightest trace of despair, there is still joy and hope.

Are there any good ways to make it easier to raise children? Are there any good ways to make caring for children easier? In fact, there is none, and there will not be, because taking care of children and raising children has never been easy, nor will it be easy. The important thing is that although it is not easy, although it is difficult, although it will still be full of difficulties and despair, we still look up, still obey, and still have hope in Christ.

Of course, it reminds us of the Father’s love, how He tolerates the sins and sins of His people again and again, how He leads us back again and again out of love, and How He sacrifices Himself for us.

I am willing to pray for all parents to give us wisdom, wisdom and confidence to better lead our children in Christ by His grace.

I would like to pray to all fathers and brothers that we will be more faithful and better in keeping with the special mission and trust God has given us in the process of leading our children. God has given us the authority to be fathers and husbands, and in addition to this authority, He has given us responsibilities, callings, and missions.

生命福音[133]…

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「但悖逆的和犯罪的必一同败亡；离弃耶和华的必致消灭。」【赛1: 28】

不要惧怕悖逆者的邪恶和犯罪者的邪恶权势，他们都必败亡。在神眼中，凡离弃神的都必致消灭。末世患难中，可以靠主得平安，昂首挺胸，进入天國 。

人堕落拜偶像的恶根并「离弃耶和华」，只靠自己拜偶像。狂妄愚昧不寻求神，也转向信奉人手所造的假神，且自我膨胀而虚妄。

让自己降服在任何的罪行里，除非人离弃罪孽，否则人对基督的盼望是虚空的。人要弃绝自己的罪， 否则人永远找不到怜悯。人必须离弃自己的罪，否则失去自己的灵魂；人若爱惜罪，神必会远离你。人的罪必要受死， 否则自己要因罪而死。如果自己容纳罪，即使是渺小隐密的罪，虽有人说是不得已的，或有一百个借口，你终必要 因存留这罪，而失去灵魂生命的永生归宿。留住罪的代价是否太高？世人可自我斟酌 !

人要聆听思考，若离开自己的罪，神会给我们 – 在基督里得自由。人若灭亡，并非因自己未曾被提供救主或真道，而是因人太像犹太人一样，宁可要凶手也不要有救主，要罪恶也不要有基督，因为人不爱光，倒爱黑暗。人要省察自己的心，就像犹太人在逾越节前用蜡烛在他们达到房里搜寻酵一样。人要努力搜寻自己的罪，要自我省察：用短枪刺透自己的心，像约押刺透押沙龙的心一样。

神的民因无知识而灭亡。弃掉认识神的知慧，必被神弃掉，不能服事神。因为他们的淫心使他们迷失，他们就行淫离弃神，不守约束。

我们若贪求肉体的享乐，犯属灵淫乱，心偏于邪，就失去那向基督所存畄纯一清洁。

別只是看着自己的罪恶，或把它保留在自己舌头底下隐藏着；反而要把罪当作毒药，惧怕和厌恶地把它吐出来。人的罪对自己有什么好处，为何舍不得离开罪呢？罪恭维人，却是要毁灭人。当罪讨人欢喜时，同时是在毒害人，也使得无限量神的公义和忿怒与我们作战。

罪恶为我们开了地狱的口，将堆起燃料，为要烧死我们！我们要看罪为人预备的绞刑台，要对待罪恶就像哈曼一样，要治死它们，就像它们想治死我们一样。除掉罪恶，将它们钉在十字架上，我们离弃罪孽，惟独让基督耶稣在我们身上作主。感谢神 ! 奉主蒙恩 ! 阿们 ! 

见证篇171.少年…

当教育的目的是在竞争中胜出，高考就成为一道门，通向合法碾压同类的成人世界。为了不太虐心，导演设计了温馨的结局：和小北一同入狱的陈念，再次高考，高分逆袭，成为人民教师。借着惩戒与奖励，体制完成了对青春的塑造与吸纳。灵魂却再也找不到回乐园的路。

你不一定有过霸凌的经历，但想必参加过、至少见识过高考的阵势。在爆款刷屏电影《少年的你》中，从“距离高考还有60天”的倒计时开始，导演讲述了一个校园霸凌故事，随着高考一天天迫近，金马奖影后周冬雨饰演的女孩陈念，面对的霸凌一天比一天严重，高考的紧张感和霸凌的恐惧感同频递增。

高考不仅仅是故事的背景。当胡小蝶跳楼自杀以后，加害者面对警察问讯时只用一句“她受不了高考的压力”就搪塞过去，高考遮盖着罪行。警察在校园调查胡小蝶的死因，上课铃响了，老师对警察说，“他们还要高考”，鲜活的生命要向庄严的高考让步。陈念被霸凌者盯上以后，椅子上无端出现了红墨水，班主任的第一反应是“离高考还有几天了，还搞这种恶作剧？”比起高考来，霸凌只是不值一提的“恶作剧”。“恶作剧”的作者就是魏莱，因为有了稳定的成绩和各种奖项的加持，她的霸凌行为竟被学校和家长堂而皇之地淡化。

高考俨然成为霸凌的同谋，在分数为王的体制中，校园里那些黑暗的角落被遮掩、淡化和忽视，光难照入。当青春在生命的霸凌中透露出成长的残酷，弥漫全片的压抑气氛提醒我们，另有一种无所不在的力量高冷地俯视着每个人。走出影院的你，或许并没有意识到，高考所代表的体制化生存对你我青春的碾压，是否是一次大规模的合法霸凌？

“你保护世界，我保护你”

影片中，当陈念选择求援，却让痛苦更深。警察的介入迫使校方更换班主任，开除两个学生，锁上校门，这就是学校所做的全部努力。直到陈念失手将魏莱推下楼梯摔死。

如果说高考在霸凌者那里是对罪恶体制性的遮盖与漠视，在陈念这里却摇身一变，俨然带着救赎者的光环。“虽然不公平，还好有高考，高考可能是人生里唯一一次公平的比赛，我们一起加油！”陈念的手机接到一条这样的短信，让她寄希望于通过高考这一制度性的安排逃离黑暗的阴沟，隐忍一时换得冲进体制的艳阳天里。

体制承诺给人安全感和体面的生活，但前提是你必须先进入体制。体制为了维护自身运行的效率，需要设立筛选机制。霸凌的悲剧，就发生在等待进入筛选程序的路上。小混混小北生存在高考的世界之外，陈念原本是看不起他的，因为他完全没可能被体制吸纳，注定是边缘角色，五个现代化的社会里没有他的位分。在小北的底层生存智慧中，人被分为两种：受欺负的与欺负人的，为了不成为前者，他只能成为后者。陈念企图在被小北保护的同时传递出一种朴素的文化信念：力量也可以被用来保护人、守护世界，在爱中使用。遗憾的是，作为中学生的她首先被迫学习如何努力生存。

当陈念尚未通过高考进入高阶生存时，粗砺的现实逼她寻求之前所鄙视的力量的保护。颠覆性的反叛力量借着小北的出现，成为陈念的另一种救赎力量，就像江湖成为庙堂失效时的救济。受到霸凌的孩子只能在“合理合法”的途径之外寻求生存之道。

尽管如此，陈念希望能够通过爱驾驭小北野蛮生长的“生命原力”。的确，遇到陈念之后，小北那种不受拘束、带着破坏性的“原力”被悄悄改变。直到小北对陈念说那句：“你保护世界，我保护你”，无形中他已经改变了从前对人的粗暴分类。陈念帮助小北坚持住作为保护者的底线，而不陷入以恶制恶的诅咒。当陈念被剪头发、拍裸照之后，小北的底线遭遇了最强烈的挑战，陈念死死抱住小北，阻止他脱轨驶上复仇之路。

当陈念失手将魏莱推下楼梯，小北这个“外援”只能帮她将杀人的事实掩埋进更黑的深渊之中。为了不至于太虐心，导演曾国祥为影片设计了一个温馨的结局：陈念自首，和小北入狱4年；4年后重新参加高考，高分逆袭。借着惩戒与奖励，体制最终完成了对陈念的塑造与吸纳。她当上了老师，两人最终走到一起。

爱情，只表明你会和谁一起哭

电影并未实锤讨论校园霸凌的解决之道。陈念最终逃离了那片有着凌辱记忆的地方，来到另一所城市作英文老师，成为体制里的一名知识分子，一个拥有宣讲资格、可以传递三观的角色。

在影片的首尾都是陈念的教学场景，她在讲台上讲解“was”和“used to be”的区别，前者是简单的曾经，而后者却有一种失去乐园的感叹。“乐园”概念的出现，使我们可以大胆尝试解读出电影作为文化寓言的含义。对于陈念，乐园所指的是未被霸凌之前的生活？或者是有小北保护的青春岁月？无论答案如何，可以肯定的是，一个存在着霸凌和高考的校园与社会，对于一个成年人来说可以被接受，但远远称不上乐园。

现代中国的高考，起到类似土著文化中成人礼的作用。年轻人需要通过略显残酷的考验，才能被接纳为成人世界的一员。结束任性生长的阶段，在高考面前第一次学会按照规定说出标准答案：说得好，派糖；说错了，出局。

霸凌者魏莱按成绩考上大学不成问题，我们同样可以合理地推测，她能够迅速融入体制并掌握在体制保护下合法行恶的能力。在陈念的成人礼仪式中，魏莱作为一道附加题出现了。影片的节奏已经暗示我们，不做好这道附加题，就别想拥有高考的入场资格。

表面乖巧可爱的魏莱被损耗掉了，但她却帮助体制解决掉了两个潜在的危险分子：带着野蛮生命力的小北，向往爱的力量的陈念。这两种力量都令体制不安。如果小北考上警校，片中警察可能就是被体制吸纳的小北成年后的样子。影片结尾，小北依然在陈念后面保护她，其实，是他自己借此附着在体制上获得了一个被认可的社会身份。两人合体后升级，完成了社会化生存的过程。

导演原本想用温暖的结局安慰众人，却不料想道出了更残酷的现实：片中没有一个人找到了有效的救赎之道。当爱已成往事，人们注定生活在失乐园里。陈念的轨迹，隐约标示了一代知识分子的成长路径。她或者会继续宣讲爱，或者不会，这不重要；无论她做什么，她的里面已经脆弱乏力。

如同万能青年旅馆在《乌云典当记》里所唱的，“铁幕重重困青年，谁用运气换呼吸，谁用灵魂换稻米”。爱已经沦为生存的润滑、体制的遮羞，丧失了行动力。所谓爱情，只意味着你在失乐园里和谁一起哭而已。两个幸存者像两只小动物，所能行出的最大的善，只是彼此取暖。

我们的乐园是何时失去的呢？

《圣经》中，人类的确曾经有过乐园，否则何谈失去。巧的是，离开乐园的人类所犯下的第一桩恶行，就是发生在一对亲兄弟之间的霸凌事件：该隐与他兄弟亚伯在田间说话，该隐突然起来打死了亚伯，血渗入大地，从此人类开始了互殴互虐的历史。直到二战时期纳粹德国发动了上个世纪一群人对另一群人最大规模的霸凌和屠杀。

当我还在读小学二年级的时候，班里有一位智力偏低、体型庞大的男生，好像自然而然，他就成为我们班一众男生欺负和取笑的对象，我们羞辱他、谩骂他，他还以为我们跟他开玩笑，那副表情逗得大家更加起劲。后来，我们怂恿他去亲班里另一位女生，将她压在身子底下。除了那位女生以外，全班哄堂大笑。

这一幕至今常常在我脑海中出现，使我无比内疚和自责。在一个人人都是“祖国花朵”的年纪，令人困惑的是，为什么我们竟以羞辱别人为乐。要知道，这两个受害者没有得罪任何人，我们的快乐也是发自内心没有丝毫伪装，而那种羞辱别人取乐的方式也从未有任何人教导。我们内心没有责备，也没有任何人站出来指出我们的不是，就这样，我们的快乐成了别人的噩梦。乐园是什么时候失去的呢？

儿子今年上一年级。同学春游的时候，一位女生因为脚伤而享受了全程被高年级的哥哥抱着走的待遇。看到这一幕，儿子愤愤不平，口中嘟囔着：“真希望现在手里有一把刀。”老师奇怪地问他要刀做什么，他说：“这样就可以把她杀了，让哥哥抱我了。”老师将儿子的话转述给我，我吓了一跳。为了得到别人的关注而动了杀人的念头，和该隐因为嫉妒神喜悦弟弟亚伯就杀了他，岂不如出一辙？乐园是什么时候失去的呢？

这些失落的瞬间，无法归咎于环境或体制。无论是体制安排的出路，还是体制之外的救济途径，都无法解决人心因为恶导致的堕落。这个世界的一切都是失乐园的一部分，因此怎么可能提供力量帮助我们找回心的平安喜乐？

每起恶行都是从目中无人开始的

作为二战纳粹暴行的亲历者，神学家巴特认为悲剧之所以发生的根本原因在于人与邻舍的关系被切断了。所有对人性的反思都应回到问题的根源——重新发现“邻人的权利、尊严和神圣性”。

《少年的你》里碾压青春的高考，让人漠视生命。因为整个体制都在培养学生成为“为了考试的人”。这种教育模式对人性最根本的伤害不在于让孩子的知识结构出了问题，而是让一代代人的灵魂出了问题。人们被培养被模塑成以同类为敌的竞争爱好者，只有在竞争中胜出才可能占有更多资源拥有更多自由。

在巴特的人性教育中，目光的对视、言语的交谈与双耳的倾听，都是我们作为别人邻舍的责任。他的意思是人们自己应该开放自己，走向别人，与别人相遇，去体会、理解、感受和关怀他人。教育应该培养人有发现邻舍、服务邻舍的能力。目中无人的教育，最终将沦为制造大小“恶魔的工厂”，培养出一个个零件，以无感的心参与最安全的作恶方式，就是体制之恶、习俗与文化之恶。

雷思丽·尤德文（LesleeUdwin）是纪录片《印度的女儿》的导演，片子内容是调查一桩发生在印度黑公交上的轮奸案。通过对罪犯、罪犯家人、朋友、学者、警察等的采访，尤德文试图寻找悲剧的原因。“这起轮奸案只是冰山一角。实际上，所有的社会问题都是人的问题，都跟教育脱不了干系。”

“我们一直以来的教育都太强调对头脑的训练、对智力的开发，却没有对心灵的教育。学校教孩子怎么考试，却没有让人们学会怎样成为一个真正的‘人’。”尤德文认为。随后她创办了为孩子提供心灵教育的公益组织“公平思考”，专门关注提高对不同背景或文化的人们的理解力、同理心和怜悯。

“人只有看见另一个人，只有倾听他人并与之对话，只有帮助他人并接受他人帮助，他方才是人。人只有为此而自由，不仅出于必要，而且乐于成为另一个人的伙伴、伴侣、同事，方才是人。”巴特说。

当儿子轻易说出“杀人”的话，再次提醒我，无论我还是儿子，我们的人性都已沦陷。我意识到要带领这个“小魔头”重返失去的乐园并不是只和他一起读读圣经、上上主日学就行的。如何让他体会上帝对他个人价值的看重，如何让他欣赏别人身上上帝的形象，如何帮助他的眼睛有别人，的确是一项艰巨的任务。

儿子放学后，我开始调整我们之间的对话。除了问他在学校有什么开心或难过的事，我开始按着名字问他的同学今天是否开心或难过；一起祷告时，我也会问他同学们有什么需要期待靠着上帝，使他的同学成为他的第一批邻舍。我这个先被上帝稍稍改变的“大魔头”的责任，就是领着儿子这个“小魔头”，去上帝那里学习对人的尊重，对生命的敬畏。

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When the purpose of education is to win the competition, the gaokao becomes a doorway to the adult world where the same kind is legally crushed. In order not to be too sadistic, the director designed a warm ending: Chen Nian, who was imprisoned with Xiaobei, took the college entrance examination again, counterattacked with high scores, and became a people’s teacher. Through punishment and rewards, the system has completed the shaping and absorption of youth. The soul can no longer find its way back to paradise.

You may not have had the experience of bullying, but you must have participated in and at least seen the college entrance examination. In the popular screen movie “Young You”, starting from the countdown of “60 days before the college entrance examination”, the director told a school bullying story, as the college entrance examination approached day by day, the girl Chen Nian, played by Golden Horse Award actress Zhou Dongyu, faced with bullying getting worse day by day, and the tension of the college entrance examination and the fear of bullying increased frequently.

The gaokao is not just the background of the story. When Hu Xiaoflutter committed suicide by jumping off the building, the perpetrator prevaricated with only the phrase “she can’t stand the pressure of the college entrance examination” when questioned by the police, and the college entrance examination covered up the crime. The police were investigating Hu Xiaoflutter’s death on campus, and when the class bell rang, the teacher told the police, “They still have the college entrance examination”, and the fresh life must give way to the solemn college entrance examination. After Chen Nian was targeted by the bully, red ink appeared on the chair for no reason, and the head teacher’s first reaction was “It’s still a few days before the college entrance examination, and you still engage in this kind of prank?” Compared to the college entrance examination, bullying is just a “prank” that is not worth mentioning. The author of “Prank” is Wei Lai, whose bullying has been downplayed by schools and parents because of her stable grades and various awards.

The gaokao has become complicit in bullying, and in a system where scores are king, dark corners of the campus are obscured, watered down, and ignored, and the light is difficult to penetrate. When youth reveals the cruelty of growing up in the bullying of life, the oppressive atmosphere that permeates the film reminds us that there is another omnipresent force that looks down on everyone coldly. When you walk out of the theater, you may not realize that the institutionalized survival represented by the college entrance examination crushes you and your youth on large-scale legal bullying.

“You protect the world, I protect you”

In the film, when Chen Nian chooses to ask for help, it makes the pain deeper. The intervention of the police forced the school to change the head teacher, expel two students, and lock the school door, which was all the school was trying to. Until Chen Nian missed his hand and pushed Wei Lai down the stairs and fell to his death.

If the college entrance examination is a cover-up and indifference to the evil system in the bully, in Chen Nian, it has changed, like a redeemer’s aura. “Although it’s not fair, it’s good that there is a college entrance examination, and the college entrance examination may be the only fair competition in life, let’s cheer together!” Chen Nian’s mobile phone received such a text message, which made her hope to escape the dark gutters through the institutional arrangement of the college entrance examination, and forbearance for a while in exchange for rushing into the bright sunny days of the system.

Institutions promise security and decent life, but only if you first enter the system. In order to maintain the efficiency of its own operation, the system needs to establish a screening mechanism. The tragedy of bullying happened on the way to the screening process. The little gangster Xiaobei lives outside the world of the college entrance examination, and Chen Nian originally looked down on him, because he was completely impossible to be absorbed by the system and was destined to be a marginal role, and there was no place for him in the five modern societies. In Xiaobei’s underlying survival wisdom, people are divided into two types: bullied and bullied, in order not to become the former, he can only become the latter. Chen Nian tries to convey a simple cultural belief while being protected by Xiaobei: power can also be used to protect people, protect the world, and be used in love. Unfortunately, as a middle school student, she was first forced to learn how to struggle to survive.

When Chen Nian has not yet passed the college entrance examination to enter high-level survival, the rough reality forces her to seek the protection of the forces she despised before. The subversive rebel force took advantage of Xiaobei’s appearance to become another redemptive force for Chen Nian, just as the rivers and lakes became relief when the temple failed. Children who are bullied can only seek survival outside of “reasonable and legal” means.

Despite this, Chen Nian hopes to harness the “life force” of Xiaobei’s barbaric growth through love. Indeed, after meeting Chen Nian, Xiaobei’s unrestrained and destructive “Force” was quietly changed. Until Xiao Bei said to Chen Nian: “You protect the world, I protect you”, he has invisibly changed his previous rough classification of people. Chen Nian helps Xiaobei stick to the bottom line as a protector without falling into the curse of fighting evil with evil. When Chen Nian cut his hair and took nude photos, Xiaobei’s bottom line encountered the strongest challenge, and Chen Nian hugged Xiaobei to prevent him from derailing and driving on the road of revenge.

When Chen Nian missed and pushed Wei Lai down the stairs, Xiao Bei, a “foreign aid”, could only help her bury the fact of the murder into the darker abyss. In order not to be too sadistic, director Zeng Guoxiang designed a warm ending for the film: Chen Nian turned himself in and went to prison with Xiaobei for 4 years; Four years later, he retook the college entrance examination and counterattacked with high scores. Through punishment and rewards, the system finally completed the shaping and absorption of Chen Nian. She became a teacher, and the two eventually came together.

Love, which only indicates with whom you will cry

The movie does not really discuss the solution to school bullying. Chen Nian eventually escaped from the humiliating memory and came to another city to become an English teacher, becoming an intellectual in the system, a character with a qualification to preach and pass on the three views.

At the beginning and end of the film are Chen Nian’s teaching scenes, where she explains the difference between “was” and “used to be”, the former is a simple past, while the latter has a sigh of losing paradise. The emergence of the concept of “paradise” allows us to boldly try to interpret the meaning of the film as a cultural allegory. For Chen Nian, what does paradise mean about life before being bullied? Or are the youth years protected by Xiaobei? Whatever the answer, what is certain is that a school and society with bullying and college entrance examinations is acceptable for an adult, but far from being a paradise.

The college entrance examination in modern China plays a role similar to that of the bar mitzvah in indigenous culture. Young people need to pass a slightly cruel test before they can be accepted into the adult world. End the stage of willful growth, and learn for the first time in front of the college entrance examination to say standard answers according to the regulations: speak well, send sugar; Wrong, out.

Bully Wei Lai does not have a problem getting into college on her grades, and it is also reasonable to assume that she will be able to quickly integrate into the system and master the ability to legally commit evil under the protection of the system. In Chen Nian’s coming-of-age ceremony, Wei Lai appeared as an additional question. The pace of the film has hinted to us that if we don’t do this additional question well, we don’t want to have the entrance examination qualification.

Wei Lai, who was well-behaved and cute on the surface, was depleted, but she helped the system solve two potentially dangerous elements: Xiao Bei with savage vitality, and Chen Nian, who yearned for the power of love. Both forces unnerve the system. If Xiaobei is admitted to the police academy, the police in the film may be what Xiaobei was absorbed by the system as an adult. At the end of the film, Xiaobei still protects her behind Chen Nian, in fact, he himself is attached to the system to obtain a recognized social identity. After the two merged, they upgraded and completed the process of socialized survival.

The director originally wanted to comfort everyone with a warm ending, but unexpectedly came up with a crueler reality: no one in the film found an effective way to redeem. When love is a thing of the past, people are destined to live in paradise lost. Chen Nian’s trajectory vaguely marks the growth path of a generation of intellectuals. She will either continue to preach love, or she will not, it doesn’t matter; No matter what she did, she was already fragile and weak inside.

As the Universal Youth Hostel sang in “The Pawn of the Clouds”, “The iron curtain is full of young people, who exchange luck for breath, who exchanges soul for rice”. Love has been reduced to the lubrication of survival, the shame of the system, and the loss of action. The so-called love only means who you cry within Paradise Lost. The two survivors, like two small animals, can do the greatest good which is to warm each other.

When was our paradise lost?

In the Bible, mankind did have a paradise, otherwise, how could it be lost? Coincidentally, the first evil act committed by humans leaving paradise was a bullying incident between two brothers: Cain and his brother Abel were talking in the field, Cain suddenly rose up and killed Abel, blood seeped into the earth, and since then mankind has begun a history of beating and abusing each other. It wasn’t until World War II that Nazi Germany unleashed the largest bullying and massacre of one group of people against another in the last century.

When I was in the second grade of elementary school, there was a boy with low intelligence and a large body in the class, and it seemed that naturally, he became the target of bullying and ridicule by the boys in our class, we humiliated him, abused him, and he thought we were joking with him, and that expression made everyone even more excited. Later, we encouraged him to kiss another girl in the class and crush her underneath. Except for the girl, the class burst into laughter.

This scene still appears in my mind so often, making me feel extremely guilty and self-blamed. At an age when everyone is a “flower of the motherland,” it is puzzling why we take pleasure in humiliating others. You know, these two victims did not offend anyone, our happiness came from the heart without the slightest pretense, and the way of humiliating others for fun has never been taught. There is no blame in our hearts, and no one stands up to point out that we are not, and just like that, our happiness becomes someone else’s nightmare. When was paradise lost?

My son is in the first grade this year. During the spring outing classmates, a girl enjoyed the treatment of being carried by her senior brother the whole time because of a foot injury. Seeing this scene, his son was indignant and muttered: “I wish I had a knife in my hand now.” The teacher asked him strangely what he wanted the knife to do, and he said, “So I can kill her and let my brother hold me.” “The teacher relayed my son’s words to me, and I was shocked. Isn’t it better to have the idea of killing in order to get the attention of others, and Cain killed his brother Abel because he was jealous of God’s pleasure? When was paradise lost?

These moments of loss cannot be attributed to the environment or the system. Neither the way out of the institutional arrangement nor the relief outside the system can solve the problem of the depravity of the human heart caused by evil. Everything in this world is part of Paradise Lost, so how can it possibly provide the power to help us find peace and joy in our hearts?

Every evil deed begins when no one sees it

As a first-hand witness of the Nazi atrocities of World War II, theologian Barthes believes that the root cause of the tragedy is that the relationship between people and neighbors has been severed. All reflection on human nature should return to the root of the problem – the rediscovery of “the rights, dignity, and sanctity of one’s neighbor”.

The college entrance examination in “Young You” crushes youth, making people ignore life. Because the whole system is training students to become “people who work for exams”. The most fundamental harm of this educational model to human nature is not to make children’s knowledge structure go wrong but to make the soul of generations go wrong. People are groomed to be molded into rival enthusiasts who are enemies of their own kind, and only by winning in the competition can they have more resources and more freedom.

In Bart’s human education, eye contact, verbal conversation, and listening with both ears are our responsibilities as neighbors to others. What he meant was that people themselves should open themselves, go to others, meet others, experience, understand, feel, and care for others. Education should cultivate the ability to discover and serve one’s neighbors. Education that has no one will eventually be reduced to a factory that manufactures large and small demons, cultivating parts one by one, and participating in the safest way to do evil with an insensitive heart, that is, the evil of the system, the evil of customs, and the evil of culture.

Leslee Udwin is the director of the documentary “India’s Daughter,” which investigates a gang rape on a black bus in India. Through interviews with criminals, criminals’ families, friends, academics, police officers, etc., Youdwin tries to find the cause of the tragedy. “This gang rape case is just the tip of the iceberg. In fact, all social problems are human problems, and they are inseparable from education. ”

“Our education has always placed too much emphasis on the training of the mind and the development of the intellect, but not on the education of the heart. Schools teach children how to take exams, but they don’t teach people how to be a real person. Youdwin thought. She then founded Fair Thinking, a nonprofit organization that educates children about their hearts, focusing on improving understanding, empathy, and compassion for people of different backgrounds or cultures.

“Man is only human when he sees another person, only when he listens to and talks to him, only when he helps others and receives help from others. A person is only human if he is free for this, not only out of necessity but also willing to be a partner, companion, or colleague of another. Bart said.

When my son easily said the word “kill”, it reminded me once again that whether it is me or my son, our humanity has fallen. I realized that leading this little devil back to his lost paradise was not just about reading the Bible and attending Sunday school with him. How to make him feel that God values his personal worth, how to make him appreciate the image of God in others, and how to help his eyes have others, is indeed a difficult task.

After my son finished school, I began to adjust the conversation between us. In addition to asking him what he was happy or sad about at school, I began to ask his classmates by name if they were happy or sad today; When praying together, I would also ask him what the classmates needed… Looking forward to relying on God to make his classmates his first neighbors. The responsibility of me, the “big devil” who was slightly changed by God, is to lead my son, the “little devil”, to God to learn respect for people and reverence for life.

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「因我活着就是基督，我死了就有益处。」【腓1: 21】

信徒是因有基督的生命，故能学基督；领受生命在先，效法榜样在后。认识基督和克制肉体，是不能分开的。如果我们效法别人，也是效法他们身上的基督。

我们倾听、领受和学习的对象及内容，不是教义，不是理论，乃是『祂』。真理不只是神给我们看见，给我们摸着，更是指我们所看见、所摸着的神进到我们的里面，叫我们在生活中活出神的形像。

听道必须和领受教训并学习真理相联，凡只听道，而不领受教训并学习真理的，无论听了多少的道理，仍然毫无益处。

一个真正活着就是基督的人，他的生活就是他的工作。我们的生活、动作、存留，都在乎祂。

主耶稣在地上的三十三年半中，形成了那些信祂之人要被模成的模子、模型。这种教训要我们用天然的生命效法基督，并活出祂的标准；这样的教训乃是异端。这绝对与那在耶稣身上是实际者无关。这教训否认真信徒是在基督里，并且有基督在他里面的事实。

我们与这异端的摩登派教训相反，我们是照着新约圣经说，当一个罪人悔改，相信基督并受浸归入基督时，神就把他摆在作模子的基督里。同时，基督作赐生命的灵进到他里面作他的生命。他越凭基督而活，他就越自然而然的模成那模子的模样。这是在基督里的生活，也是在我们里面之基督的生活。我们乃是在作模子的基督里，并且祂在我们里面作我们的生命。这样，我们就照着那在耶稣身上是实际者学了基督。奉主蒙恩! 阿们!    

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「放胆传讲神国的道，将主耶稣基督的事教导人，并没有人禁止。」【徒28: 31】

当人能捆绑基督的传道人，但不能捆绑基督的道。保罗自己曾说：『我为这福音受苦难，甚至被捆绑，像犯人一样，然而神的道，却不被捆绑』。

神国的道必须借着耶稣基督的事来阐明。我们若不借着耶稣基督，就不能活在神国的实际里。神国度的真实意义，乃是耶稣基督所做各样的事上，丰满的表显出来。

福音丝毫也不能受到拦阻，因为传道的门是神所敞开的，而祂所敞开的门，是无人能关上。 

人的地位站得稳，神的工作便毫无拦阻；人的地位站得不稳，那人自己便是使主作工的拦阻。

复活的主借着圣灵在地上的工作还没有结束，直到今天仍在继续不停地进行着。我们作为主的器皿，应当要参与其事的进展和果效，愿主使用我们，在传揚神的道上有份。

人必须放弃依赖自己的学术、自己的聪明、自己的义、自己的力量，而要完全进入基督里，否则无法逃离罪恶的缠繞。主耶稣是我们的拯救，是我们的避难所。也是我们唯一的依靠。

当人仍信任自己、立自己的义、靠肉体时，他们不肯来就耶稣基督得赎。人必须自觉与悔改的心，人原以为与自己有益的其实是有损的，并能发现自己的义只不过是污秽的衣服，人才会全心归向基督。

在祷告、默想、或尽我所劝你尽的本份时，你要放弃倚靠自己，要求圣灵的帮助，因为你想靠自己的力量行任何讨神喜悦的事，是会全然绝望的！但是，你也不可以忽略自己的本份。放胆传讲神国的道，将主耶稣基督的事教导人并沒有人禁止；当太监在读圣经时，圣灵差派腓利 到他那里。当使徒在祷告时、当哥尼流和他的朋友在听道时，圣灵降临在他们身上并充满他们。感谢神 ! 奉主蒙恩 ! 阿们 ! 

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「因为祂预先所知道的人，就预先定下效法祂儿子的模样，使祂儿子在许多弟兄中作长子。」【罗8: 29】

基督救恩的最高峰，就我们而论，全人从里到外，从灵到体，都被『模成神儿子的形像』；就神而论，祂借着『长子』得着了『众子』，合一个『儿子群』，也就是一个扩大的儿子，一个丰满的儿子，一同显在荣耀里，使祂本性一切的丰盛，得到最完满的彰显。这就是神最终的心意。

在神永远心意中，基督乃是为我们效力，要把我们模成基督的形状；同时祂又以基督作我们爱的保障，保守我们在万有的『模成』中，能够得胜有余，而达成神在我们身上完美的心意。是神旨意中的一切。

一个人得救之后，他里面深处就渴望，照着主耶稣所设立的模型过生活。然而，许多人不是忽视这渴望，就是错误的培养这渴望，以为凭着自己的努力可以成功的效法祂。我们以为靠着运用天然的生命可以效法基督，这是错误的。

当我们爱主，接触祂，向祂祷告，我们就自然而然的照着福音书中所描绘的模子活祂。这样，我们就被形成、被模成这个模子的形像。这就是学基督的意思。

这样学基督，与把祂当作客观的榜样，而凭我们天然的生命努力模仿祂，是全然不同的。神已经把我们摆在主耶稣在地上生活所形成的模子里。同时，基督作赐生命的灵已经进入我们里面作生命。我们越爱祂，越接触祂，我们就越照着这模子活祂。结果，我们就自然而然的模成这模子的形像。因此，我们能同保罗说，‘在我，活着就是基督。奉主蒙恩! 阿们!   

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「感谢神，使我们借着我们的主耶稣基督得胜。」【林前15: 57】

罪仗着律法的权势，把人钩入死亡中；但赞美主，复活的基督把这一切都摧毁了！因此我们若还活在律法之下，以致被罪钩入死亡中，那是何等愚昧！我们若活在复活的基督里，就能欢然夸耀说，感谢神，使我们借着我们的主耶稣基督得胜﹗

论到罪，说到律法，说到死，神就把得胜赐给我们。得胜，不只胜过罪，也胜过律法；不只胜过律法，也胜过死亡。这里有一个唯一的福音，就是神把得胜赐给我们每位在基督里的人。

若人倘未归正，生命的线断了，或许是在明天，或许几分钟之后，你会在哪里呢？又会掉进哪里？的确，这条线一断，人就 要掉进烧着硫磺的火湖里，也要痛苦躺在那里，直到永远。

耶稣要我们承认自己的罪，也需要从罪中救赎我们，并且信靠祂是我们的救主。我们要做的就是向祂敞开心门，承认自己的罪，并邀请祂进入心中。祂说：“看哪，我站在门外叩门，若有听见我声音就开门的，我要进到他那里去。”

人要细查自己的悲惨结局，直到內心向基督呼求，就像正溺水的人迫切地向船只呼救，或像受伤的人急需外科医生一样。人必须看到他们的危险，也感觉到他们致命的伤势和疾病，否则基督对他们是无用武之地。杀人凶手，当报血仇的追 杀他时，快速地跑往逃城；人必须被迫离开自己，否则不会来就基督。患难和困苦迫使浪子回家。

人要大大睁开良心之眼，看尽自己一切的悲惨。人的心充满恐怖或逃避是不可避免。人自觉悲惨不过是溃烂的伤口，必须化脓才能得医治。最好是现在惧怕未来的 折磨，而不要在未来亲身经历永久的折磨。改邪归正，借着我们的主耶稣基督得胜。感谢神 ! 奉主蒙恩 ! 阿们 ! 

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「我给你们作了榜样，叫你们照着我向你们所作的去作。」【约13: 15】

我们时常忘记自己是耶稣和邻舍的仆人,从而陷入自取荣耀的傲慢当中。忠诚的仆人应该时刻谦卑地去事奉。他们生活的座右铭应该是“劳苦在我,荣耀在神”。

将自己完全降服于神的旨意，不为自己作甚么，也不盼望为自己得甚么，这样的人，心里才会有真正的安息。接受主给我们一切的托付、工作、事奉、甘心顺服，就能「得享安息」。

我们若要与主同负一轭，便须要调整我们的脚步，与主同行，亦步亦趋，不前不后，不离左右。真安息乃是内心的平静安稳，与客观的环境无关，也不受外界事物的影响。

基督对我们不仅是生命，也是榜样。我们照着祂的榜样跟祂学，不是凭我们天然的生命，乃是凭祂在复活里作我们的生命。根据新约，主耶稣并没有直接进到我们里面作生命。祂在地上三十三年半的一生当中，设立了模型，模子，榜样。

写四福音书的一个原因，就是要给我们看见，神所要之生命的模型是什么，能满足神并完成祂定旨之生命的模子是什么。因这缘故，新约从四方面给我们一部独特的传记─ 主耶稣的传记。主耶稣设立了启示在福音书里的模型之后，就被钉在十字架上，然后进入复活。祂乃是在复活里，进到我们里面作我们的生命。

那在耶稣身上是实际者，是指耶稣一生的真实光景，如四福音书所记载的。外邦堕落之人不敬虔的行事为人乃是虚妄；但在耶稣敬虔的生活里乃是真实，实际。耶稣在生活中总是在神里面，同着神并为着神行事。

神是在祂的生活中，并且祂与神是一。这就是在耶稣身上是实际者。我们信徒，既以基督作我们的生命得了重生，并在祂里面受过教导，就照着那在耶稣身上是实际者学了基督。奉主蒙恩! 阿们!