圣商恩典[97]神…

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天怎样高过地,照样,我的道路高过你们的道路;我的意念高过你们的意念。【赛55:9】

爱德基金会圣经印刷公司的圣经库房,在一个夏季里的连日大雨中,屋顶一些地方突然开始漏水了。如果圣经书籍被水浸泡,损失之大不堪设想!

当总经理焦急地带着员工,拿着防水布,准备把圣经和其他书籍重新包裹的时候,却惊奇地发现,漏雨的地方都在过道处,圣经书籍没有被水淹到,毫发无损。大家不禁赞叹和感恩神的做为,都感叹神的办法是我们人想不到的!

今天,让我们感叹,上帝的道路、上帝的意念、上帝的做为是多么的超越我们的所见所想!哈利路亚!奉主蒙恩! 阿们!

Testimony…

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Sammi Cheng, a diva-level super-artist in the Chinese music scene, has sold more than 2,500 million albums worldwide since 1990, becoming one of the most successful female singers in Hong Kong. She is also one of the most popular and highest-paid actresses in the Hong Kong film industry and has appeared in many blockbuster films.

Sammi Cheng held a concert of gospel songs, and Sammi Cheng published a gospel album. However, after filming the last movie “Song of Long Hatred” in 2005, Sammi Cheng suddenly disappeared, which aroused great curiosity in the media, and even once reported negative news such as serious illness and death. This three-year-long “extraordinary period” was the darkest part of her life, but it was a real experience of God’s life process.

In 2010, the reborn Sammi Cheng stood on the stage again with confidence and had a completely different vision of life and the world. With a heart that has been refined and full of enthusiasm for her mission, she generously confesses her faith journey through music, and speaks for God in the style that belongs to Sammi Cheng, conveying the surging love and faith in her heart.

Recently, Sammi Cheng was interviewed by “True Love Blog”, she took off the halo of a star, and confessed God’s great love to the audience and friends, during the interview, she was choked up and cried because of her emotion, and her innocent smile told the world “I am fine now by God!” In front of the camera, she restored her true self, did not shy away from her true age, and revealed that she lost herself by chasing wrong values before believing in the Lord, and even asked God for divination to predict the future, as well as the unknown powerlessness during her illness.

The real life of the “diva”.

Zheng Xiuwen, 38 years old this year, has debuted for 20 years. She entered the singing scene in 1999 when she participated in the third place in the 7th Hong Kong Rookie Singing Competition, Anita Mui was the first place in that year, this competition can be called the pedal of Hong Kong’s king and queen, Sammi Cheng recalled that year, “I participated in the competition only because I was not very good at reading, and I was quite interested in singing, so I tried it, and participated in the competition with a random mentality.” My personality is so desperate, so thorough, and I do everything without hesitation and courageously. ”

‘s strong willpower has made Sammi Cheng brilliant today, and at the same time, it also brought her collisions and injuries for a time. In the torrent of showbiz competition, she chases the worldly and wrong values instilled in society, equating ranking, money, and beauty with Sammi Cheng and her survival value.

“I care a lot about rankings, this represents Sammi Cheng, and it’s over without rankings. My values have always been very wrong, I have been chasing the wrong values of the world, chasing after them, chasing after them, chasing after me, thinking that these things alone are equal to my survival values. There is often a black hole in my heart that I feel that this can be filled. But then I found out that I had to be saved by God’s love to fill it. This is the voice of Sammi Cheng’s heart. To prosper in the entertainment industry, she wants to predict and control the future and often tells fortunes for a while. Sammi Cheng admitted frankly that this is something he is very reluctant to expose.

To achieve an ideal figure, Sammi Cheng only ate two apples for seven consecutive days, and even if he fainted, he had to maintain the eternal glamorous diva in everyone’s eyes. Especially when she took over the filming of “Thin Men and Women” to play the heroine who was fat and thin, to complete the filming task, Zheng Xiuwen also gained weight and lost weight in a short period. The process shattered Sammi Cheng, who was struggling to lose weight, unable to eat every day, and running desperately. When it was over, “I was like a dead worm, slumped on the couch, too tired to do it.” I was weak physically, and even weaker in mind. But I knew that in ten days, I would shoot again, and I would wear a cheongsam again, and I would become a fair lady. ”

In the past, Sammi Cheng was a big owner of many brands and was keen on luxury. “I used to be crazy about buying clothes and going to designer stores. They would treat me very specially, and when they saw me, they would shout ‘Miss Zheng is here…… and then they would push out the hangers, all the latest clothes. I feel contented, I have a halo on my head. I found that I really needed these things to glorify myself and wrap myself. ”

Driven by perfectionism and strong willpower, Zheng Xiuwen was scarred, “The pursuit of perfection has brought me a lot of harm, and I often can’t hear the needs of my heart.” I thought that money and beauty were everything, but I didn’t expect that the process of pursuing it made me feel hurt. I put a lot of wrong values on myself, how can I bear such heavy pressure with such a small heart? I often ignore my feelings, such as sadness, physical needs, and rest. ”

Outbreak of depression

Zheng Xiuwen has lived under a strong appearance of camouflage for a long time, chasing fame and fortune, but also being overwhelmed by the aura of fame, and continuing to confront the huge workload and inexplicable low tide. In 2005, with a heavy sense of powerlessness, she took over the work of the heroine of the movie “Song of Long Hatred”. This eventually became the straw that broke the camel’s back, overwhelming her and causing her to develop depression. After filming the last shot of “Song of Long Hatred”, Zheng Xiuwen was like an oil lamp, and the oil ran out.

During that process, rumors spread from the outside world, either true or false. Many people say that Sammi Cheng is “too deep in the play” and “possessed by the role”. Zheng Xiuwen was noncommittal about this statement, and now she revealed: “I don’t think I can’t jump, but this excuse also makes me breathe a sigh of relief.” I was depressed to the point where I couldn’t do it, and people said that so that I didn’t have to explain that I had depression. ”

As early as the filming of “Thin Men and Women”, Zheng Xiuwen’s mental condition begins to weaken, but she has a strong appearance, Zheng Xiuwen self-dissected: “It’s not that filming “Song of Long Hatred” makes me depressed, but that I make this movie with melancholy. She also revealed: “At that time, there were a lot of advertising contracts, but on the day of filming, I couldn’t work because of a heavy sense of powerlessness, everything was ready, I just couldn’t get out of the room, and at the last moment I had to call the assistant to say that I was sick.” So I kept losing money, and a lot of the chaos was because of depression. ”

Sammi Cheng stopped all work and stayed at home behind closed doors. In order to get rid of the feeling of powerlessness and melancholy, she desperately read to release her emotions, devoted herself to every novel, invested in each protagonist, read until she was about to lose herself, and did not eat or sleep. This process made Sammi Cheng feel a little “withdrawn”, forgetting the melancholy and powerlessness for a while.

But when she faced this feeling of powerlessness, life had become completely meaningless. She didn’t look in the mirror for a month and didn’t take a shower for seven days. “It’s like I’m living in a little wooden box with only one person in it, and you can’t seem to breathe or smell the outside world. And when I wake up in the morning, I feel a lot of despair. In this way, Sammi Cheng “ran to sleep during the day, closed the windows, and made the room black.” In the evening, when the moon comes out, you can get active, go out to eat, and watch TV. ”

At first, Sammi Cheng didn’t realize that it might be depression. She also refuses to admit it, she doesn’t dare to face it, she doesn’t dare to touch it, and it may be depression. Sammi Cheng chose to escape and retreat into the small world to see if the situation would be better.

God saves the lost

God personally searches for the lost, and when Sammi Cheng’s depression is at its worst, she often hears a voice, “Sammi Cheng, I can save you this time.” It’s not the doctor, it’s me, God. You pray!” The voice was strong and long-lasting, lingering in Zheng Xiuwen’s ears. Sammi Cheng remembered that when she was a teenager, she made a decision to pray with her Christian sister and said that she would follow God. Because she was very young at the time, she didn’t take her faith very seriously. “After praying, I forgot about fortune-telling, worship, everything. But I didn’t expect that at the bottom of my life, it was God who came to save me. ”

In his hut, Sammi Cheng began to pray. She hopes to live in fellowship but can’t get along with the crowd, so Sammi Cheng prays for God to open the way. Zheng Xiuwen knelt, sometimes he was lazy and lay down, sometimes he sat down, sometimes he cried very much, sometimes he was very excited, sometimes he would shout ‘You want to save me’, and sometimes he was quieter. “Prayer has a lot of comfort for my emotions and a lot of exile for my emotions. The negative emotions that I had accumulated were slowly healed through prayer, and I slowly saw God’s guidance to me step by step. ”

Eight months later, God placed Sammi Cheng in a special Bible study class and asked her to face her problems seriously. On the first day, I went to the Bible study class, and when I heard the hymn and remembered it, Sammi Cheng’s tears burst into tears. “I took some of the very serious pain in it, and some of the negative emotions that bothered me in it, all of them flowed out with tears. It was a kind of ‘very quiet collapse.'”

Sammi Cheng’s life is a reversal from prayer, and she emphasizes the importance of prayer: “So I think prayer is very important, and you can only know that it is God’s response when you pray. If you don’t pray, how do you know it’s God’s leading?”

In the light of the Holy Spirit, she truly faced herself. “We all like to conform to the values of this world, and most of us don’t dare to live our lives, including me. My name is Sammi Cheng! When I have a lot of things that everyone desires, I find that I have nothing in my heart. ”

Sammi Cheng also realized that fortune-telling, a stupid method, could not predict the future. When she was experiencing depression, these things didn’t help her get up at all. “I have to have a lot of power to save my outlook on life, my values, and turn them around. There was no way to tell fortunes, they wrote something to me, and I burned it completely. I have nothing to worry about in my future, so I’ll leave it to God. I walked every day with the confidence he gave me. He will give me the strength to overcome the difficulties he gave me. ”

To get out of the slump, Sammi Cheng bravely begged God: “Give me the courage to face the crowd again, I hope to do a concert.” You don’t give me success, I beg you to give me the strength to take this step so that I can start again. After three years of depression, Sammi Cheng held a comeback concert, she felt very deeply when she got up that day, and quietly wrote a letter to herself, every word from the bottom of her heart, she read it publicly during the concert, which made the audience sigh, she remembered that at the end she said to herself: “The most important thing is that your courage is back.” Speaking of this, Zheng Xiuwen choked up.

God not only gave Sammi Cheng a new life but also wore away many weaknesses in her personality. She examined that she had been selfish and bad-tempered in the past and that she had pretended to be “straightforward,” and that the Bible had made her understand that love was “not boastful or arrogant,” and she understood: “Selfish people are not happy, but through these three years, God has given me a lot of training, and many of my shortcomings have been worn out.” Now I still have a lot of bad things, but I am willing to obey. I cherish my relationships with people, and that joy is important. I still have a lot of shortcomings, but I’m willing to obey. ”

Righteousness is the gospel

Re-engaged in work, Sammi Cheng has a different mission, “I still like work and the feeling of hard work, but I used to pursue a sense of achievement, but now I have a great sense of mission to publish gospel albums and write certificates.” Very subtly, my life can be inspiring, and the more painful it is, the more it is worth it! Now many people in pain will talk to me, many people are curious about the help of faith, and I use my little story to let people know the power of God, and I love this character very much. ”

“God has given me peace, courage, and ability, so I don’t worry about sales or how I’m going to be defined from day one, and the more I don’t think about that, the more God will be more preserving,” Sammi Cheng said. My motivation is pure, I want to tell my story and people will be helped. Unexpectedly, as soon as the gospel album was released in Hong Kong, sales immediately soared, and she donated all her royalties to help many charities, as she said: “The less you worry, the purer your motives, the greater God’s help.” ”

Using his life to testify to God, Sammi Cheng said that he “has no hesitation”, “I have published a book without hesitation, and I have said that I have to write without hesitation.” I struggled to write this book, and I told my Bible study sisters that I was in pain, that I didn’t want to write, that I didn’t want to open myself, that I had to open up my worst things, and that I couldn’t resist as long as people punched me. I struggled, but I obeyed. How to write, I went through a lot of prayers. When I was writing, I found that I couldn’t stop, and God was writing for me. After writing this book in obedience to God, Sammi Cheng felt a sense of healing, and she found that when she could calmly spread out as history, depression was truly over.

She used to be too busy, but now she cherishes the time she spends with her family, and she has also changed from blindly accepting the role of love to loving communication. Zheng Xiuwen said that she has expectations for love and reflects on the past, “I used to be the one who received love, and in the future, I hope that the love I will talk about is reciprocal, I can be loved and loved.” ”

With a new experience of love, Sammi Cheng embraced and cared for the soul openly. She went to the hospital to preach the gospel, and went to the mountains of Yunnan to be a teacher for a week, lived in the house of the first old woman, and ate coarse tea and light rice, but she said: “The soul is like eating a tonic, and life is abundant.” She plans to go with two friends every year. Once in Mongolia, I helped a child who lost his parents to take a bath, and the water was black when he washed out, seeing the child soaking in the bathtub and being happy like a duckling, Zheng Xiuwen said: “I felt like a mother at that moment!”

Zheng Xiuwen, who is Xi to being surrounded by fancy clothes and material things, now prefers to spend his time preaching the gospel or listening to the difficulties of friends. Now Sammi Cheng is like a caring angel and a good friend to everyone, she encourages the audience and friends: “God’s love is impartial, as long as you trust, you will find it.” If you are not a believer, it is advisable to start with a small prayer. ”

恩典见证 32.郑…

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郑秀文,华语乐坛天后级的超级艺人,自1990年开始至今,她的专辑在全球销量已累积突破了2500百万张,成为香港最成功的女歌手之一。她同时也是香港影坛最具号召力及片酬最高的女星之一,演出过多部卖座电影。

郑秀文举行福音歌曲演唱会郑秀文出版福音专辑。然而在2005年拍完最后电影《长恨歌》后,郑秀文突然销声匿迹,而引起媒体高度好奇,甚至一度传出重病,死讯等负面消息。这一段长达三年的“非常时期”,正是她人生最黑暗,却是真实地经历上帝的一段生命历程。

2010年,重生的郑秀文带着信心,再度站在舞台上,对生命和世界有了全然不同的眼光。她胸怀着一颗被粹炼过,充满热情使命的心肠,藉着音乐,她大方告白自己的信仰历程,并用属于郑秀文的风格为上帝代言,传达她心中汹涌澎湃的爱和信念。

近日,郑秀文接受《真情部落格》采访,她卸下明星的光环,与观众朋友真情告白上帝大爱,采访中她因感动一度哽咽落泪,而纯真的笑容更告诉世人“靠着上帝我现在很好!”在镜头前,她还原真我,毫不避讳真实的年龄,袒露信主前追逐错误的价值观以致迷失自我,为了预知未来甚至求神问卜,以及患病期间不为人知的无力感。

“天后”的真实人生

今年38岁的郑秀文,已出道20年。她1999年参加香港第七届新秀歌唱比赛第三名而踏入歌坛,梅艳芳是那届的第一名,这场比赛堪称香港天王天后的踏板,郑秀文回忆当年说,“我参加比赛只是因为我读书不太好,对唱歌也蛮有兴趣,就试试看吧,抱着乱碰乱撞的心态参加了比赛。我的个性就是那么拼命,那么彻底,做每件事都义无反顾,勇往直前。”

坚强的意志力成就了郑秀文今天的辉煌,同时也一度给她带来碰撞和伤害。在演艺圈竞争的洪流中,她追逐着社会所灌输的世俗错误的价值观,将排名、金钱和美貌等同于郑秀文和她的生存价值。

“我很在意排名,这个就代表了郑秀文,没有排名就完蛋了。我的价值观一直非常错误,我一直追逐着世俗的错误的价值观,追追追,追到我以为,我单凭这些东西就等于我的生存价值。我的心里常常存在着一个黑洞,觉得这些才可以填满。但后来发现,必须要上帝的爱来拯救我才能填满。”这是郑秀文心底的声音。为了在娱乐圈中长盛不衰,她很想预知并掌控未来,有段时间常常算命。郑秀文坦言,这是自己很不愿意暴露的一件事。

为了达到理想的身材,郑秀文连续七天只吃两个苹果,就算昏倒也要维持大家眼中永远光鲜亮丽的天后。尤其是她接拍《瘦身男女》饰演忽胖忽瘦的女主角时,为了完成拍摄任务,郑秀文也在短时间内增肥减肥。那个过程令郑秀文支离破碎,她疯狂地减肥,每天不能进食,拼命跑步。结束之后,“我好像一条死掉的虫,瘫在沙发上,累到不行。我身体很弱,心灵更弱。但是我知道,十天之后又要拍了,又要穿回旗袍了,变成一个窈窕淑女。”

以前的郑秀文是许多品牌的大户,热衷奢侈品。“以前我买衣服很疯狂,去名牌店。他们都会特别地招待我,看到我会喊着‘郑小姐来了……’,然后会把衣架推出来,都最新的衣服。我觉得很满足,我的头上有一个光环。我发现,其实我很需要这些东西来荣耀我自己,包装我自己。”

完美主义、坚强意志力在错误价值观驱使下,令郑秀文伤痕累累,“追求完美带给我很大的伤害,也让我常常听不到自己心底的需要。我以为金钱、漂亮就是一切,没想到追求的过程让我感觉很受伤……我把很多错误的价值观放在自己身上,心那小,怎么能承载这么重的压力?我常忽略自己的感受,比方悲伤、身体的需要、休息的需要。”

爆发忧郁症

郑秀文长期活在伪装的坚强外表下,追逐名和利的同时,也被名气光环压得喘不过气来,持续和庞大工作量和莫名低潮对抗。2005年,她带着沉重的无力感,接下电影《长恨歌》女主角的工作。而这最终变成了压倒骆驼的最后一根稻草,令她不堪重负,爆发忧郁症。拍完《长恨歌》最后一个镜头,郑秀文好像一盏油灯,油尽灯枯。

那段过程,外界谣言四起,或真或假。许多人说郑秀文“入戏太深”、“角色附身”。 对这说法郑秀文不置可否,现在她才透露:“我不觉得我跳不出,只是这个借口也让我松一口气。我忧郁到一种不行的地步,人家这样说,反倒让我可以不用解释自己有忧郁症。”

早在拍摄《瘦身男女》的时候,郑秀文精神状况已经开始耗弱,只是她撑出坚强的外表,郑秀文自剖:“不是拍《长恨歌》让我忧郁,而是我带着忧郁去拍这部电影。”她还透露:“当时挺多广告合约,但每到开拍当天却因为沉重的无力感而不能工作,什么都准备好了,就是无法走出房间,最后一刻只好打电话给助理说我病了。所以不断的赔钱了事,很多混乱状况都是因为忧郁症。”

郑秀文停掉所有工作闭门在家。为了摆脱无力感和忧郁的吞噬,她拼命阅读来释放情感,投入每一本的小说里面,投入到每个主角当中,阅读到快要失掉自己,不吃饭也不睡觉。这个过程让郑秀文感觉到一点“抽离”,暂时忘掉忧郁和无力。

但是当她面临这种无力感时,生命已经变得完全没有意义。她一个月没有照镜子,七天不洗澡。“我好像生活在一个小木箱里,里面只有一个人,你好像呼吸不到,也嗅不到外面世界是什幺样。还有早上起床,我会有种很重的绝望。”就这样,郑秀文“白天跑去睡觉,把窗都关起来,把房间弄得黑黑的。晚上的时候月亮出来了,就可以活动一下了,出去吃饭,看看电视。”

最初的时候,郑秀文没有意识到这可能是忧郁症。而且她也不肯承认,不敢面对,不敢触碰这可能是忧郁症。郑秀文选择了逃避,缩回小小的世界,看状况会不会好一些。

上帝拯救失丧者

上帝亲自寻找失丧者,在郑秀文忧郁最严重的时候,她常常会听到一个声音,“郑秀文,这次可以救你的。不是医生,是我——上帝。你祈祷吧!”这个声音强烈持久,萦绕在郑秀文的耳边。郑秀文想起,她曾在十几岁时,和基督徒的姐姐做过决志祷告,并且表示要跟随上帝。因为当时年纪很小,她没有很认真地面对信仰。“祈祷后也忘了,算命、拜拜,什么都干。但是没有想到在我生命谷底的时候,是上帝出手拯救我。”

在自己的小屋里,郑秀文开始祈祷。她希望有团契生活,但又无法跟人群相处,郑秀文祷告求神开路。郑秀文跪下来,有些时候比较懒惰就躺下来了,有些时候坐下来,有些时候哭得很厉害,有些时候很激动,有些时候会喊出来‘你要救我’,有些时候就比较安静。“祈祷对我的情绪有很多安慰,给我的情绪很多流放。让我累积下来的负面情绪透过祈祷就慢慢医治,也慢慢一步一步看到上帝对我的带领。”

八个月后,上帝把郑秀文安排在一个很特别的查经班,让她认真面对自己的问题。第一天去查经班,一听到赞美诗想起的时候,郑秀文的眼泪决堤一样流个不停。“把里面一些很严重的伤痛,把里面一些困扰我的负面情绪,全都随着眼泪流出来。那是一种‘很安静地崩溃’”。

郑秀文的生命是从祷告开始翻转,她强调祷告的重要性:“所以我觉得祷告很重要,你祷告才知道这是上帝的回应。你没有祷告,怎么知道这是上帝的带领呢?”

在圣灵的光照下,她真正去面对自己。“我们都喜欢迎合这个世界的价值观,大部分人都欠缺活出自己的勇气,包括我。我叫郑秀文!当我拥有很多人人渴望的东西时,我却发现我的内心一无所有。”

郑秀文也认识到算命这种很蠢的方法并不能预知未来。当她经历忧郁的时候,这些东西完全不能帮助她爬起来。“我必须要有一个很大的力量去拯救我的人生观、价值观,把它们扭转过来。算命通通都没有办法,他们写东西给我,我完全烧掉。我的未来没有什么好担心的,就交给上帝。我每天就带着他给我的信心走下去。他给我的困难,他一定会给予我力量去跨过的。”

为了走出低潮,郑秀文勇敢向上帝求:“给我勇气再度面对人群,我希望做一场演唱会。你不要给我成功,我求你给我踏出这一步的力量,让我能够重新开始。”经过三年的忧郁,郑秀文开了一场复出演唱会,那天起床她感触很深,静静写了封信给自己,句句肺腑之言,演唱会中她公开读出,令在场观众唏嘘不已,她记得最后她对自己说:“最重要的是,你的勇气回来了。”说到这里,郑秀文哽咽起来。

上帝不仅给了郑秀文崭新的生命,而且磨掉了她个性当中的许多弱点。她检讨到自己过去自私、脾气差,还自命“直爽”,《圣经》使她明白爱是“不自夸、不张狂”,她懂了:“自私的人是不会开心的,但通过这三年,上帝给我很多磨练,我很多缺点都磨掉了。现在我还是有很多不好的地方,但是我愿意顺服。我非常珍惜跟人的关系,这种喜乐很重要。虽然我现在还是有很多缺点,但是我愿意顺服。”

义无反顾为福音

重新投入工作,郑秀文有了不同的使命,“我还是喜欢工作,喜欢努力的感觉,只是以前是追求成就感,现在发福音专辑、写见证书有很大的使命感。很巧妙地,我的生命能让人有启发,辛苦熬过这三年,越痛苦越值得!现在很多痛苦中的人都会找我谈,很多人好奇信仰的帮助,我用我小小的故事让人知道上帝的能力,我非常喜欢这角色。”

关于出福音专辑这一大的转变,不担心市场的反应吗?郑秀文说:“上帝给我平安、勇气、能力,因此我从第一天就不担心销量或被怎么定义,越不去想这这些,上帝越保守。我的动机很纯净,希望讲自己的故事让人得到帮助。”没想到福音专辑在香港一发行,销量立即直冲而上,她把全部版税捐出去,帮助了很多慈善机构,确实如她说 :“你越不去担心,动机越纯净,上帝帮助越大。”

用生命为上帝作见证,郑秀文说自己“义无反顾”,“我义无反顾出了一本书,开宗明义就说义无反顾非写不可。写这本书很挣扎,跟查经班姐妹说我很痛苦,不想写、不想打开自己,那得要公开自己最不好的地方,人家只要打我一拳我就无力抵抗了……我一直挣扎,还是顺服了。该怎么写,我经过很多祷告。当我却写的时候,发现停不下来,是上帝在帮我写。” 为福音愿意失丧生命的,必得着生命,顺服神写完这本书,郑秀文得到一种疗愈感,她发现,当她可以坦然当做历史摊开,忧郁症是真正画下句号了。

以前太忙碌,现在她珍惜跟家人相处的时间,也从一味接受爱的角色转换为爱的交流。对爱情呢?郑秀文说她对爱情有期待,对以前有反省,“以前是接受爱的那一方,以后我希望谈的恋爱是对等的可以被爱和付出爱。”

带着对于爱的崭新体会,郑秀文敞开拥抱、关怀灵魂。她到医院传福音,还跑去云南山区当一周的老师,住在当第一位老婆婆家,吃粗茶淡饭,她却说:“心灵像吃了补品,生命丰盛了。”她打算每年都和两个好友一起去。有次在蒙古帮失去父母的小孩洗澡,洗出来水是黑的,看到孩子泡在浴缸快乐得像只小鸭子,郑秀文说:“霎那时有种当妈妈的感觉!”

习惯被华服、物质包围的郑秀文,如今宁可把时间用来传福音,或聆听朋友的困难。现在的郑秀文,像个关怀天使,大家的好朋友,她鼓励观众朋友:“上帝的爱不偏不倚,只要信靠一定会找到。如果你不是信徒,建议从一个小小的祷告开始。”

Testimony…

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Deng Tianzhao: The miracle of life of the “King of Gambling”.

His story was made into a movie by the Hong Kong Video and Audio Mission many years ago [God of Gamblers]

He described it like a movie, and he can instantly “change cards” and “win every gamble”

Deng Tianzhao at a gambling gospel dinner

He won more than 80 million Hong Kong dollars “King of Gambling” Deng Tianzhao, lost all his money in half a year, huge debt, miserable, and finally when he was at the lowest point in his life, and planned to commit suicide to end his life, the true god of love found him and immediately saved his 。

Four generations of professional gamblers Four generations have been governed by the curse of gambling

Born in Malaysia at the age of 46, Tang Tien Siu was a professional gambler before he believed in Jesus. “My great-grandfather, grandfather and father were all professional gamblers,” he said. By the age of three, I had fallen in love with money, and at a young age, I loved to hold it close to my nose and smell it. I learned to gamble at the age of seven, and for twenty-eight years, I never left the table. Whether I was studying at university in London, England, or back in Malaysia to help my dad in the construction business, I never forgot to gamble. ”

In 84 years, due to the economic recession in Malaysia, the construction industry also blew a weak wind, and Father Deng proposed that Tianzhao go to the port together. The purpose of their travel is not to see the mountains, rivers, and scenic spots, but to visit different casinos in Australia. According to Mr. Tang, “There are casinos in four or five states in Australia, and we have a lot of fun gambling there every day. At that time, I did a little statistic that my “record” was not good 85 years ago, and I lost more than I won, but from January to November 85, I won as much as 30,000 Australian dollars, which is equivalent to 60,000 ringgit, which is quite an attractive amount!”

“Changing cards” supernatural power actually “wins every gamble”

At the end of November of the same year, in the Australian casino, this professional gambler Deng Tianzhao and a local foreign master who is famous for playing baccarat launched a tense and exciting “decisive battle” in the surrounding commotion. Deng Tianzhao recalled the scene and said: “For a time, the crowd around me became my cheerleaders; they vigorously advocated that I should fight for the Chinese. When I got the first hand, I secretly cried out that it was not good, because I had accumulated 23 years of gambling experience, and I learned from the sixth inspiration that my opponent’s hand was “eight” and mine was “zero”, in other words, as soon as the card was dealt, I was the loser. I kept muttering in my heart, “I have to be nine, I have to be nine.” “Unexpectedly, when I opened the card, mine turned out to be a “nine-point” win. At that moment, I exclaimed, “There are ghosts, there are ghosts!” and then my whole body trembled, and I repeated many times, “No reason; ”

“I didn’t bet on the second game. In the third game, the process was the same as the first game, and I won the next game with “nine points”. At that time, I couldn’t help but shout with joy: “I am developed!” Because I have the transcendent power to change cards, and I will have whatever cards I want, isn’t this equivalent to being invincible?” So Deng Tianzhao pleaded with Shangtian that he must keep this power and not let it leave him.

Won HK$80 million

Sure enough, the transcendent power made Deng Tianzhao win every time he was in the casino. According to him, he never lost his professional gambling record from December ’85 to ’91. During this period, he visited casinos scattered in Australia, Malaysia, Genting, Macau, South Korea, Las Vegas, the United Kingdom, and other places. Since every time he entered and exited Singapore, Mr. Tang, who was superstitious, decided to move his family to that blessed land in 87 years. In eight or nine years, this professional gambler even won the “reputation” of “Asian Pacific Gambling King Champion”.

“In those years, I earned 80 million Hong Kong dollars (equivalent to 18 million Singapore dollars), and my business was also doing well, so it can be said that wealth was rolling in during those days. I am rich and status, and I often put on an invincible appearance and am arrogant. For a while, I didn’t take people, especially the poor, into my eyes, and I looked down on them and discriminated against them. Later, it became even worse, and the six relatives did not recognize me, not only did they not recognize their father and family, but they also had a very distant relationship with his wife, and my wife and daughter were very afraid of me and never dared to harass me. At that time, I thought the most important thing was to make money. The pity is that although I have money, I have no sense of security, because I am often afraid of being kidnapped, so I have to hire underworld bodyguards to protect me; ”

Gambling reversal Every time you gamble, you will lose your luck

In July and August of ’90, Deng Tianzhao encountered a strange incident in the casino: “On that day, a strange old man with a white body and a white suit came to my side and persuaded, “You should stop gambling and stop gambling.” “How could I listen to him when I was in high spirits at that time? In the days to come, of course, money will continue to gamble. Six months later, my luck began to decline, and it seemed that my transcendent powers had been lost. Since the first month of 91 years, the “long-winning gambling king” has become a loser who “will lose every gamble”. Deng Tianzhao said: “In the past six months, I have completely lost all the 80 million yuan I have won! I have sold my real estate, my property, my car, and all my savings and everything I have lost all of a sudden, and I still owe a debt of 3 million S$. At that time, I was at a loss, so I had to go around looking for Xiangshi, a Feng Shui Master, and Psychic Medium for help, but unfortunately, there was no help. At the lowest level, I couldn’t eat for a whole week.

Jump off a building to escape from death

One night, I was sitting alone on the terrace of my apartment when I heard a voice reminding me that I might as well “commit suicide”. Now that you have no money and status, you have nothing to love in life, and after you jump down and die, you don’t need to repay your debts and no longer have to bear the responsibilities of your family. So I jumped from the fifteenth floor, and at the same time, I heard someone in front of me clearly saying, “Pray quickly, or it will be too late! God loves you.” At that moment, I shouted to the heavens, “If there is a god, you will let me see your love!”

“Somehow, at seven o’clock in the morning, I woke up and was still sitting on the terrace and not dead. I don’t know why, but two hours later, my brother-in-law called me from Hong Kong and said he was coming to see me in Singapore, and my bad intentions came again, and I was going to borrow 2 million from him under the pretext of lobbying him to invest so that I could gamble again and make a profit.

Today is your last chance to pray that God loves you

Deng Tianzhao took a group photo with everyone at a gambling gospel dinner

“My sister and brother-in-law asked me to accompany them to church on Sunday morning, and to please them so that they could lend me money, they agreed to go with them. When I got home in the afternoon, my brother-in-law asked me to sit down and listen to him “talk about Jesus”, and everyone knows that gamblers’ time is precious, so it took me four and a half hours to divert enlightenment, but unfortunately, something strange happened. In the middle of the lecture, my brother-in-law suddenly stood up, pointed at me, and said, “This is not the way, you have to pray quickly, or it will be too late! God loves you.” The voice was familiar, and it didn’t look like my brother-in-law’s voice. He admonished me three times, and each time he spoke more forcefully. I remembered what I heard yesterday on the terrace when I was about to kill myself, and I burst into tears, feeling that God loved me.

Then they invited me to a missionary meeting. The pastor on the stage that day shouted as if pointing at me, “Today is the last chance, I hope you can change, God loves you.” When I heard these familiar and affectionate calls, I wept bitterly, and my whole body fell and accepted Jesus as my Savior. ”

A miracle occurs to see the great love of the true God

Later, when we got to the airport to see my brother-in-law back in Hong Kong, he hugged me and told me that a few days ago in my sleep, (at the same time as I was about to jump off the building), the Holy Spirit woke up and moved him to leave for Singapore to visit me, just as I prayed to God – “If you are God, you will let me see your love.” At that moment, I cried and said to God, “I don’t know who you are, but I want to know you.” “I truly saw the greatness of God, who sent many times to persuade me, to love me, to restore me. I was so touched by God’s love that I was baptized as a Christian in June ’91. I was able to make this decision, and the happiest people were, of course, my sister and brother-in-law, who had prayed for me for 25 years, and my wife, who had been praying for a long time in tears and never giving up. Together, they shed tears of joy and watched me, a professional gambler, turn back.

The gambler’s curse dissolves the miraculous change of life

Luke 15:4 “Who among you has a hundred sheep and has lost one, and does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and goes after the lost sheep until he finds it?” Luke 15:17 I say to you, so rejoice in one sinner who repents, and so rejoices in heaven over him than over ninety-nine righteous men who do not need to repent.

Since then, I have not only been insulated from gambling, but I have also often testified in the church, warning those who are addicted to gambling and urging them not to be bound by this sin. For a long time, Deng Tianzhao served full-time in the church and later became a financial consultant to earn some money to support some Christian ministries. ”

From a professional gambler to a believer who testifies to God everywhere, Deng Tianzhao’s life has changed dramatically, once again proving that God is true. Are you or your family addicted to gambling and can’t extricate yourself? There is a true God who loves you, waiting for you to return.

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Demolition and rebuilding: Bless the LORD, my soul, and praise the name of all who is in me, and bless the LORD, my heart, and forget not all his goodness, and he forgives you all your sins and heals you of all your diseases. He redeems your life from death and crowns you with love and mercy. (Psalm 103:1-4).

Thank God, on September 30, 2009, two months after my stroke, I finally returned to Chicago safely from Hong Kong. Because the accident happened so suddenly, I still can’t imagine the danger that happened at that time, because when I fainted and collapsed at the Westin restaurant in Tianhe District, Guangzhou, I was completely unconscious. Now I can only think of this sudden onset, which must have scared the hearts of several of my colleagues who had breakfast with me. With great gratitude, my wife Qiuhong and I repeatedly read an initial admission record from the Department of Neurosurgery of the Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University:

Patient Chen Chi was admitted to the hospital on 2009-08-09 due to convulsions all over his body and impaired consciousness for more than 5 hours. “The diagnosis was:

“Thrombosis of the superior sagittal sinus, multiple intracerebral hemorrhages in the bilateral frontal lobes, subarachnoid hemorrhage in the right frontal lobe, sudden generalized convulsions of the patient for no apparent reason 5 hours before admission, with impaired consciousness at that time”

I didn’t know anything about the stroke, and I never expected it to happen to me, I felt palpitations at the diagnosis of the above-mentioned brain doctor, and after reading it, my hands and feet trembled unexpectedly, and a little cold sweat broke out on my forehead as if I was reading my death certificate.

Fear and helplessness in the face of suffering

Frankly, in the face of such a dilemma, I am not a person who is strong in faith and relies on God for everything. The first few days after a stroke were the most terrifying and helpless moments of my life. I vaguely remember that my eyes were blurry at that time, I didn’t know where I was, I only vaguely felt that there were urinary catheters and drips inserted in my body, and the medical staff walked quickly past the bedside. Then I was horrified to find that the left side of my body couldn’t move. I tried to move my hands and feet with all my strength, but nothing happened. Fear, wandering, and helplessness immediately took over my heart.

What happened to the accident? I had breakfast with a few colleagues before, and we were not talking and laughing as usual. Why am I now half paralyzed, lying in an ICU bed? A series of sinister and frightened thoughts welled up in my mind, and my heart seemed to be dragged down by a heavy hammer and fell into the abyss. Am I going to be bedridden for the rest of my life, will I become a vegetative person? What about my family, my work, and my ministry? Where are my relatives? Suddenly, I heard a very soft but unfamiliar voice: “Mr. Chen, do you still recognize me? I am Echo, a waiter at the Westin Hotel, and I have come to visit you in the hope that you will recover soon; I don’t understand, how can you be so good, how can you suffer such a hardship?” Although I couldn’t make out her face, her tone was deeply sympathetic. In retrospect, it seems that God was going to use this unbeliever to test my reactions and choices in the face of suffering. Thank you, Lord, that during the whole process, even though my heart was dark, I didn’t ask, “Why did you allow this to happen to me all of a sudden?” Who am I to dare to challenge God’s sovereignty by questioning God’s sovereignty?

As Job 11:7-8 says, “Can you fathom God, and how can you fathom the Almighty? What else can you do if His wisdom is higher than heaven? What else can you know deeper than Hades?” I am convinced that the God I know and accept is not the author of suffering and that there is no error in Him, and even though we may not fully understand everything behind it while suffering, we can trust that God has absolute wisdom to control everything, and in His will, can lead us through the valley of the shadow of death.

To be healed, you must first deal with sin

I only received the first six days of treatment at the Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University, and then I was transferred to Hong Kong by the U.S. Consulate for further treatment. After two weeks, my condition did not improve, and I began to feel depressed and disappointed. I was so impatient that the left side of my body was still paralyzed, and I thought that I would have to be supported by at least three people when I sat up, otherwise, my body would fall to the left and right, and I would have to trouble others to urinate and urinate, and I felt very embarrassed and helpless for this. For me, a former workaholic, this is a painful and difficult truth to accept. During that time, I often asked God, “How long am I going to endure this state of dependence on others for everything?” and many nights I tossed and turned, thinking wildly, and could not sleep until dawn. When I did physiotherapy during the day, I felt weak and weak due to lack of sleep, and my mood became more and more depressed. This vicious cycle continued until, one morning in the third week after my transfer, I was praying devotionally when a passage of scripture unfolded before my eyes.

That’s Luke 5:18-25, which tells the story of Jesus healing a paralytic man:

“And a paralytic man was carried on a mattress to carry him in before him, but because of the great number of people he could not find a way to carry him in, he went up to the roof of the house and took him into the middle of the roof with his mat from among the tiles, and was in the presence of him. When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Thy sins have been forgiven of him, and immediately he arose in the presence of them all and took up the mat on which he was lying, and went to his house, to the glory of God.” ”

The Holy Spirit enlightened me through this passage and gave me a deeper understanding of this passage so that I realized that God’s healing is a comprehensive treatment of body, mind, and spirit and that I need to be healed not only physically, but also spiritually. I read and pondered over and over again, and I noticed the order in which the Lord Jesus performed this miracle healing: the paralytic man got up and walked because his sins were forgiven and his heart was cleansed, and then Jesus told him, “Get up, take up your mat and go home.” It turns out that the Lord Jesus wants me to deal with my sins, because only He can forgive my sins, so His primary concern is whether my sins have been dealt with clearly. When the problem of sin is solved, the other problems are solved. Sin cuts us off from a close relationship with God, it often destroys our relationships both externally and internally, and it prevents people from enjoying the peace and joy that God provides.

Thank you to the Lord that He made me understand that “spiritual paralysis” is more terrible and more difficult to cure than all kinds of physical diseases, because it numbs the soul, loses its sensitivity to sin, and eventually loses any ability to resist. Many times, Christians emphasize repentance only to unbelievers, but they avoid mentioning their transgressions, or hide in the depths of their hearts, as if they have developed immunity to sin. This phenomenon can happen to any believer, no matter how long he has been a believer, and how senior he is in the ministry.

During my six-week hospitalization, God gave me a tranquil environment in which I was completely naked and open in His presence, allowing His Word to cut the cancer of sin from my heart like a sharp blade, and allowing His Holy Spirit to do the healing work. Repentance is not easy, but it is the only way for Christians to pursue holiness. Confession of sin is very difficult for me, and there are two obstacles:

(1) self-righteousness, and it is difficult to be humble. This personality has gradually developed since I came to the United States. Even though I have been a Christian for more than 30 years, this old self still haunts me. Especially when my career is smooth and my ministry is somewhat fruitful, I lose my ability to reflect on these two aspects even more.

(2) I find that when I am faced with a variety of big and small choices, I often make trade-offs based on my own wisdom and personal experience, rather than taking God first, asking Him first to see if it is His will, and in turn even walking ahead of Him.

Under the light of the Holy Spirit, I opened the eyes of my heart finally realized my spiritual and behavioral weaknesses, and unreservedly confessed my debt to God and man. In today’s generation, some too many people wear masks to be good people, who are polite and follow the rules on the surface, but in their hearts, they hide unfathomable thoughts and even have all kinds of selfish desires and evil feelings (including myself). Even with friends and loved ones, we often don’t always treat them with sincerity, let alone to the point of putting them in the heart. It can be said that superficial good deeds do not reflect the true state of mind of a person, nor does good behavior bring a person up to the standards set by God. As the Bible says, “For the Lord does not look at men as men: men look at the outward appearance, and the Lord looks at the inwardness.” (1 Samuel 16:7) Only God knows all the thoughts and thoughts of the human heart: “Who can understand the heart of man who is deceitful above all things, and who is wicked to the extreme?” (Jeremiah 17:9).

Many people think that confession of sin is an act of cowardice, but this is a very wrong idea. On the contrary, I deeply realized that confession of sin is a rather courageous expression, and it is the initiative of man to face his true nature: even the dark, filthy, invisible, and ugliest side is revealed in the light of God’s true light, and there is no need to hide it, and it can no longer be concealed. Just as doctors use X-rays, CT scans, or MRIs to examine the root cause of physical ailments, God’s Word and the guidance of the Holy Spirit can help us detect all kinds of spiritual problems, both revealed and hidden.

Mt 1:6 says, “Where do sons honor their fathers and servants fear their masters, but where do I honor me as my father, and where do I fear me as my master?” It turns out that as a child of God and a servant who serves Him, I have neglected my attitude of fear of the Lord. My arrogant and unruly temperament, coupled with decades of worldly social experience, has molded me into a very assertive personality, and I have also established a set of ways of doing things that are not pleasing to God, that is: relying on experience and feeling, rather than praying to God first and seeking His will; emphasizing efficiency and valuing planning more than serving; an arbitrary attitude and not asking for the opinions of others; and doing some so-called big things, which are actually good and great achievements, and have no direct connection to the kingdom of God.

Frankly, when I have achieved a little bit in a worldly environment and think I can be the master of my own house, it is often a time of crisis in my spiritual life. In 2009, the apparent success of my career and ministry lured me into the abyss of self-aggrandizement. In May 2009, I was nominated by USCIS and received the “Most Outstanding Employee” award from all of the federal agencies in Chicago, out of more than 80,000 employees, 300 were selected, but only 10 were honored. In early June, my application for a short-term transfer to the U.S. Consulate in Guangzhou was approved, and these two events were very beneficial for my future career. In ministry, I have been the director general of the Glory God Communication Association in Chicago, where I preach the gospel through audio-visual media, as well as evangelism in restaurants and a column in the New York Clarion Monthly. Two years ago, I also called for the establishment of the “Tianle Choir”, which has more than 30 members, more than half of whom are Christians in the United States, and on the eve of the 2008 Olympic Games, we held sacred music concerts in Beijing, Qingdao, and Shanghai. However, when organizing these creative activities, I didn’t hand over the steering wheel to God, but held on to it myself. Because “obedience” is not in my nature, it naturally leads to an unhealthy ministry mentality, which is not pleasing to God.

Paul said, “Therefore I beseech you, brethren, in the mercy of God, that you offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, and that it is only right for you to serve in this way.” Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is the good, perfect, and pleasing will of God. (Romans 12:1-2) Why is it so difficult for us to follow this catchy verse? I now understand that the fundamental question is whether or not I am willing to surrender the sovereignty of my life to God. To please God is to give up your evil desires and desires, to call on the name of the Lord in everything, and to follow the Holy Spirit’s leading, simply for the sake of His glorified works. Even if it is a trivial service in the eyes of man. God wanted me to learn to Xi to be a “useless servant” after His heart. As the Lord Jesus said to his disciples, “So when you have done all that you have been commanded, just say, ‘We are worthless servants, and what we have done is what we ought to do.'” (Luke 17:10) Therefore, my ministry before Him, if it were not by the grace of God and the leading of the Holy Spirit, would be false, unreliable, unpleasing to God, and of no eternal value, even if it seemed to others. Faith in God is a mutual relationship and action, not an expression of self-emotion or self-will. What is the relationship? It is the relationship between man and God, and what action is the complete obedience and obedience of man to God?

It dawned on me that the blind spots of so many ministries over the past few years had been preventing me from getting a deeper understanding of what God’s good, pure, and pleasing will was. It turns out that I have always served God with confidence and passion, but I have stripped away the most important element of “wholehearted obedience” from the ministry, and as a result, many so-called ministry activities have become empty and meaningless. For God said to Saul through the prophet Samuel, “Is the Lord pleased with burnt offerings and peace offerings as he is pleased with the obedience of his voice? The sin of disobedience is equal to the sin of sorcery, and the sin of stubbornness is the same as the sin of worshipping false gods and idols. (1 Samuel 15:22-23). Jesus Christ Himself is our best example, so Paul says, “He was very much God, and did not consider equality with God to be a precedent, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a slave and becoming a man, and having been made in human form, he humbled himself and became obedient unto death, even on the cross.” (Philippians 2:7-8) God’s concern is not how much time or mind I spend trying to figure out what I think is good and valuable to His kingdom. What He asks of me is a heart that respectfully seeks His will. To paraphrase the preacher Brother Yin Daoxian: “We must first truly realize in our hearts that we are useless, completely useless before we can be useful in the hands of God.” This is the spiritual dialectic, the spiritual mystery, and the spiritual grace, and even the fact that we can truly realize our uselessness is the grace of God. ”

Thank God for allowing me to calm down and reflect on this kind of reflection amid my illness, which is truly a great blessing.

Experience the warmth of God’s faithfulness and love of family and friends

Through this stroke, God made me re-examine my relationship with my family, and I felt strongly the faithful love from God and experienced first-hand how warm, sincere, and unrequited my family’s love for me was.

God’s mercy and love are indeed above all else, but my wife Qiuhong’s unwavering and meticulous care for me during my illness is as deep as the sea. I later learned that after receiving the news that I had had a stroke, my wife, who was in the United States, took the earliest flight to Guangzhou. During the long 14-hour flight, Pastor Li Chaoqiang encouraged her “May the peace of the Lord Jesus be with you” before leaving, which became the greatest comfort and strength in her heart. When she was rushed to Guangzhou Hospital, she did not despair in the face of my delirium. She stood by my bedside day and night, holding my hand praying for me, and reciting Psalm 23 for me over and over again until I recognized her and we hugged and wept. It was then that I heard a phrase that I will remember for the rest of my life: “Mike, rest assured, no matter what the outcome, I will take care of you to the end, this is my promise before God.” ”

In fact, from the time I suffered a stroke to the ongoing recovery process today, my wife has not left me for a moment. Not only that, but God has given her the strength and wisdom to handle all kinds of important decisions and make arrangements for me. During my hospitalization in Hong Kong, she always curled up on the chair in the ward for one night and dragged her tired body to accompany me for acupuncture therapy the next day. At the end of the vacation, to stay and take care of me, she begged her boss to allow her to work in Hong Kong. During this time, my wife also went back to the United States to visit her son, who was alone at home and traveled around to inquire about the best rehabilitation centers in Chicago to pave the way for my future recovery.

My wife’s love for me is so deep and unreserved, and while I am grateful, I feel that I owe too much to my wife. Married for 27 years, in the relationship between husband and wife, I am more and more busy with work and ministry, getting along with each other gradually like gentlemen’s friends, emotionally losing the sweetness of each other at the beginning, not to mention spiritual fellowship, we try not to quarrel, tolerate each other, live in peace, I already feel very good. But as the head of the family, I have always ignored the Bible’s teaching to love my wife. “Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for the church…… Let each one of you love his wife as himself. A wife should honor her husband. (Ephesians 5:25).

I still remember my wife used to say to me: “You like to compose and sing so much, lead poems, and play poems, why don’t you express this enthusiasm to me at home, everything is so rational?” Women’s emotional world is very delicate, and the husband’s sincere concern for his wife and body language with love is often more effective than lengthy truths. According to Biblical principles, without loving and doing our part, we as brothers do not want to earn the respect of our wives, no matter how godly we look, how extensive our ministry is, and how successful our business is, it is a false sign to her, just as Jesus rebuked the Pharisees for hypocrisy. During my illness, I not only confessed my sins before God, but also expressed my guilt to my wife Qiuhong, and slowly learned that Xi Moody Bible College often broadcasts Pastor Gary Chapman’s radio program “The Five Languages of Love”, which is applied to all aspects of daily life, and my wife told me that in fact, the standard of “love language” she asks me to express to her is not high, as long as I sincerely give her a gentle hug (body language), appreciate what she does (with a grateful heart), and enter with a joyful smile ( Always with joy in your heart), sharing prayer (deep spiritual fellowship) is enough.

The ignorance of the past has led me away from the teachings of the Bible, and it is only now that I have realized that our spouses and children are unique and precious gifts from God that need to be cherished and connected with love.

God who hears prayer

Every time I think of the care and love of my brothers and sisters, the more I feel unworthy, and because of this, I experience that God has heard the earnest prayers of many people.

Of course, God did not make me stand up immediately in a supernatural way, but He prepared the best hospital doctor for me, the care of my family, and the power of God to support me, like sending a group of angels to protect me. God has indeed heard and answered the prayers of the churches and brothers and sisters, and God will heal in His good pleasure. Looking back, it turns out that every difficult situation has come to us, and whenever my wife and I feel that things cannot be solved, God has already known and made good arrangements for us, even more than we could have imagined. Here are a few specific examples that demonstrate God’s greatness, faithfulness, love, omniscience, and omnipresence:

→ Taken to the hospital within 3 hours of stroke. God allowed a stroke to happen to me (in fact, I neglected to control my high blood sugar and too much work pressure), but God also arranged for someone to send me to the hospital immediately for emergency treatment, to avoid the danger of many sequelae of “three deviations and five obstacles”.

→ The accident was not in the hotel room. I fainted in the restaurant while having breakfast with my colleagues. If you go back to the room and have a stroke, it’s unimaginable.

→ The incident occurred in Guangzhou, not in Beijing. I originally wanted to apply for a business trip to the Beijing Immigration Bureau, but because I could speak Cantonese, I was later transferred to Guangzhou. Otherwise, the hospital would not have been able to transfer me to Hong Kong by plane shortly after my severe stroke. His wife Qiuhong and her two older sisters are not proficient in Mandarin, which also causes difficulties in communicating with doctors and taking care of them in all aspects.

→ The Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University has MRI (magnetic resonance imaging equipment). The Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University is only a 10-minute drive from the Westin Tianhe District in Guangzhou, where I live.

→ the Consulate’s arrangement for transfer to Hong Kong for treatment. God prepared for me several medical staff from the U.S. Consulates in Guangzhou and Hong Kong to negotiate with the Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University to transfer to Hong Kong within a week.

→ God prepared for me the best hospital, doctors, physiotherapy, and acupuncture in Hong Kong.

→ care for your family. God’s wife, Qiu Hong, two older sisters in Hong Kong, and my younger brother in Guangzhou, took turns to take care of me so that I could recuperate with peace of mind and speed up the recovery time.

→ Continue rehabilitation. After returning to Chicago, God prepared an ideal rehabilitation center for me at the Chicago Rehabilitation Institute, less than half an hour away from home, and the center staff picked me up.

→ My wife is allowed by the company to work from home full-time so that I can take care of my diet and daily life.

What can I say before God other than to be grateful? I remember one time when I was in a bad mood, my sister comforted me softly by the bedside and said, “Mike, cheer up, don’t you feel God’s work in you strongly? He rescued you from the brink of death, healed you, and took care of you so thoughtfully in all things, He must have sent a team of angels to defend you, you should be full of joy, why are you depressed?” then I thought of Psalm 919-11 says: Therefore, I am convinced of the reality of experiencing the protection of God’s messengers.

Demolition and reconstruction

I learned to draw Xi closer to the Lord because of this severe stroke and once again surrendered myself to His hands by faith. It can even be said that the greatest blessing that illness has brought me is not only the healing of physical ailments, but also the spiritual restoration and restoration. I deeply realized that one of the purposes of suffering was that God loved me and brought me to the throne of His grace through suffering. “Whatever I love, I will rebuke and discipline him, so be zealous and repent. (Revelation 3:19) “For what the Lord loves, he will rebuke, just as a father rebukes his beloved son.” —Proverbs 3:12.

Inside: Tear down the castle of the inner world of the old me

The prophets used the rather horrific words “torn, bruised, destroyed, overturned, afflicted” to show that God sometimes uses drastic means to tear down our inner world. The same is true for me, in the case of music ministry, after the stroke, my left hand is stiff and I still can’t play an instrument, my speech is no longer “articulate”, and my singing is no longer beautiful. These changes are quite a test for me, a musician who writes songs and has been involved in music ministry for more than 20 years, who has been using poetry to hold music evangelism, and published five poetry CDs. I also struggled with this, hoping to find an answer from God that would satisfy me. I asked God, “Is it necessary to tear me down so completely before I need to be transformed?” Of course, God is still silent to this day, but I have found the answer from daily reflection: God wants me to reevaluate and reverse my attitude towards worship and music ministry. I should concentrate on Jesus and His cross and make Him the only object of worship in my heart, rather than using music to show my talents. To be honest, I no longer feel bad about being out of breath, out of tune, and unable to pronounce words when I sing every Sunday because I now understand who I’m singing for and why.

External: Tear down the pursuit of the world

Admittedly, the world was still quite attractive to me before the stroke. On the one hand, I am still young from retirement age, and on the other hand, I have the opportunity to advance, and I have to work in the immigration office decently and help many people. I feel that I have a successful career and can serve, as long as there is no conflict between the two, it can be regarded as God’s special grace and blessing. But invisibly, this kind of thinking and lifestyle of “one leg wants to step on two boats” falls into Satan’s tricks, forgetting that there is no middle way for believers to take at the level of ministry. The word of the Lord is clear: “One cannot serve two masters, either hating one and loving another, or valuing one and despising another, and you cannot serve God and mammon at the same time.” (Matthew 6:24).

Because I was so focused on my work and ministry that I couldn’t do it at the same time, I ended up damaging my body, neglecting my family, and not being able to concentrate on serving God. This win-win mentality of wanting to be a CEO in the world and doing a great job in ministry is certainly not God’s will, because Jesus said, “Lord, our God is the only Lord, and you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength.” (Mark 12:29-30) The tone here is imperative, with no free choice or other vague interpretation.

Reconstruction: Loving people’s lives with God’s love and centeredness

During my stay in Hong Kong, apart from experiencing God’s miraculous healing, what excites me the most is that I am willing to share God’s love with others, like a flame burning in my heart. I was in the same room with Japanese, British, and Australians, and I prayed about their illnesses and told me what God was doing to me. The Japanese patient said that he was Shin (Shinto), but he did not refuse me to pray for Him in the name of Jesus Christ. God’s grace came to two special ladies through me, a peasant woman who had come from Canton to take care of me temporarily. Although she could not read, she had a longing heart and accepted the Lord immediately. Since then we have prayed together, and I taught her to recite the Lord’s Prayer in the Bible and to repair her bad relationship with her mother-in-law and husband. She prayed to the Lord for my healing as well. Seeing God heal me in six weeks, her heart was filled with joy and she was willing to preach the gospel to her family and find a spiritual home when she returned to Guangzhou. Another woman’s husband was trying to give up after seven unsuccessful surgeries to remove her large intestine, but one of the Christian nurses working in the intensive care unit brought her to my ward and asked me to pray for her husband. I said I was willing, but I also told her that there was no point in praying unless she knew who we were praying to.

Thank the Lord that after listening to the gospel message I shared with her, she was willing to accept the Lord Jesus as her personal Savior, and then we prayed to the Lord with tears in our eyes. Although we never had the opportunity to see each other again and wondered if her husband would be healed, may God preserve her faith and continue to follow up with the Christian nurse. What prompted me to rekindle this passion for evangelism was the natural response of my heart being rebuilt by the Lord and experiencing God’s deep love and whole-person healing. Just as a Samaritan woman who met the Lord Jesus and understood the truth, and after experiencing God’s compassion and acceptance, her heart welled up with indescribable joy, and she immediately left a jug of water and went to the city to tell the people the good news that she had met the Messiah.

Today, a Christian who is untouched by evangelism or who is unspeakable about his faith is likely to have not tasted the gift of God. Perhaps such believers still retain castles built with their old selfish desires in their hearts, so that they form too heavy loads and too many walls to obstruct them, but they let themselves be trapped by the siege and unable to break through.

In addition to this, after this disaster, I have found that there is no difference between pitying others and being compassionate. Sympathy for what others are going through is an attempt to share and alleviate the pain and anxiety of others, but it is not a level of empathy. Now, when I am faced with another patient, in addition to sympathizing with his illness, I can also feel what he feels in his heart, understand his situation, and share his suffering more powerfully. Because of this receiving, whenever I meet patients in the Chicago Rehabilitation Center who are doing rehabilitation together, the universal love and compassion of the Lord Jesus deeply motivates me, and I am willing to secretly pray for these patients and also find an opportunity to tell them about God’s wonderful work in me.

Cherish every day of life

Before I had a stroke, I always felt like I had time in my own hands. What can’t be done can be continued tomorrow, otherwise, there is still next month, and there is always enough time to complete it. When I wake up every morning after the stroke and feel my pulse beating and breathing freely, I truly thank God for giving me a new day, where the days are no longer ordinary and at my disposal, but every minute is as precious as a grain of jade. As James 4:14-15 says, “You do not yet know what tomorrow will bring.” What is your life? You are a cloud, which disappears after a short time. But say, ‘If the Lord wills, we can live, and we can do this or that.’ ”

Recognizing the fragility and transience of life has led me to place greater emphasis on the pursuit of a relationship with the living God and the meaning of living in the world. God gives the world the freedom to choose the direction and purpose of his life, but He has special guidance and discipline for His children. God wants every child to build up a holy character and choose a Christian life. The ideal standard of Christian personality is to be like Jesus Christ. So Jesus said to his disciples, “Be perfect, therefore, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.” (Matthew 5:48) We are to practice this perfection with greater love, a more humble spirit, a more perfect character, a more complete intellectual capacity, and more witnesses to the Lord.

The stroke was a grave warning from God, telling me that I was already standing on the edge of the abyss of death and that my life would have been gone long ago if it had not been for His hand holding me tightly and then lifting me up smoothly and putting me back into the world. I kept wondering since God had given me a chance to live again, how could I go back and be as careless as I was before the stroke, staying up all night, eating at irregular intervals, wasting my body without restraint, and wasting my time?” Therefore, glorify God in your bodies. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) Reading this passage in the past has been very confusing, but now we understand that because our bodies are created by God, to treat our bodies correctly is to glorify Him. It is only when we fully affirm that the body, mind, and spirit are inseparable and interdependent that we can cherish and maintain the body and allow it to play out the good purpose of God’s creation. No wonder John would say, “Beloved, may you prosper in all things and be strong in body, just as your soul prosper.” (John 3:1:2).

Conclusion
“Offer a sacrifice of thanksgiving to God and pay your vows to the Most High, and call on me in the day of trouble, and I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me. Whoever offers a sacrifice of thanksgiving is glory. Me.” (Psalm 50:14-15)

Suffering is uncomfortable, but it also deepens my understanding of God’s attributes: the exercise of His power—rescuing me from death according to His will, His faithfulness and love—miraculous healing, His omniscience, Omnipotent – the power to make every proper arrangement and care. In my case, He replaced punishment with healing, curses with blessings, and chastity with refinement. I don’t know how long God will let me live on this earth, but as long as I still have the breath of life, I am willing to witness the wonderful work He has done in me and become an outlet for preaching the gospel and announcing the good news. I deeply understand that “although the outer body is destroyed, the inner body is destroyed.” But it is being renewed day by day” (2 Corinthians 4:16).

May all glory be to the Triune God. Amen.

Chen Chi is from Shunde, Guangdong, and grew up in Hong Kong. Graduated from the Chinese Department of National Taiwan University and received a master’s degree from the Department of Social Work of Illinois. Currently, he is the director of the Citizenship and Naturalization Department of the Chicago Immigration Bureau of the U.S. Department of Justice and is also the director general of the Chicago God of Honor Communication Association.

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In Hollywood, two Chinese directors are very famous, one is Ang Lee, who shined at last year’s Oscars, and the other is John Woo. John Woo’s childhood life also had a great impact on his subsequent film career.

Wu Yusen, born on May 1, 1946, was born in a poor family in Guangzhou. Soon he followed his family to Hunan, and then to Hong Kong as a refugee. He dropped out of school when his father died of illness when he was about to graduate from high school, but he still used his spare time to teach himself history, philosophy, art, etc., and more importantly, he loved movies from a young age. As he recalled his childhood life in an interview with Hong Kong’s “Film Fortnightly”: “Since I was a child, I have loved movies, whether it is Western, Cantonese or Japanese.

At that time, I didn’t have the rich money to buy a ticket to get in. I remember one time, at the Great World Cinema, I took my little brother and sneaked into the balcony of the theater when I entered the theater, unfortunately, the usher found me and rolled me down the stairs with a palm. But this palm did not make me give up my desire to watch this movie, on the contrary, I quickly picked up my brother and followed the crowd downstairs. When I was in middle school, my passion for watching movies never diminished.”

In addition, it is said that the place where he grew up was rampant with gangsters and that he was able to attend secondary school because of the American donation (i.e., the help of the church) sent by Luther. This had a great impact on John Woo’s film career, on the one hand, he wanted to show the masculine and violent aesthetics produced by the conflict between the “good guys” and the “bad guys” in the gang, and on the other hand, he did not forget to exaggerate the benevolent spirit of the “good guys” of the gangsters, and even repeatedly appeared in his works, the church, a symbol of sacred Christianity. He also said, “I am a Christian, influenced by religious ideas of love, sin, and salvation. The ancient chivalrous spirit of chivalry is now gone, and we have to face evil alone.”

John Woo’s early works

John Woo’s film style, in addition to the influence of his childhood life, is also deeply influenced by his mentor Zhang Che, but his film career did not start with Zhang Che.

In 1069, John Woo entered the Cathay Pacific Film Company by chance and soon met Zhang Che as a production assistant. After Cathay Pacific announced its closure in 1970, he was introduced to Shaw Brothers Films by Zhang Che and served as Zhang Che’s assistant director, such as “Water Margin”, “Ma Yongzhen”, “Stinging Horse” and so on. Zhang Che’s film works, after “One-armed Knife” established its position in martial arts films, more and shows the world of friendship and violence between men, “Broken Intestine Sword”, “Revenge”, “Thirteen Taibao”, “Stabbing Horse”, “Crippled”, etc., full of tragic pictures of shirtless battles and intestinal battles, “Casting Names”, which will be released at the end of this year, is also adapted from Zhang Che’s classic movie “Stinging Horse”, and its ending is the tragic picture of Zhang Wenxiang played by Jiang David being disemboweled, although there is no “Thirteen Taibao” The corpse of the five horses is as tragic as that, but it is also extraordinary. Zhang Che’s film style is in line with the mentality left by John Woo’s growth process, and it also had a profound impact on him – nearly 20 years later, John Woo also adapted “Stinging Horse” into “Bloody Street” to pay tribute to his mentor Zhang Che.

Heroic nature

In the early 80s, John Woo quit Golden Harvest and joined New Arts City Shortly after filming “Funny Times” for New Arts City, but his film career did not develop smoothly, and he was even arranged by New Arts City to go to Taiwan to inspect the local film production situation. It wasn’t until the appearance of this “True Colors of Heroes” that John Woo and Chow Yun-fat took their film careers to the next level.

At this time, John Woo was full of pride and ambition for movies, but he didn’t have the time to play well, and Chow Yun-fat, although he was popular in the TV series “Shanghai Tang” ten years ago, but many of his film careers were literary films, such as “Love in a Fallen City” (blog), “The Legend of Yu Dafu”, etc. (there are also action movies, such as “City Patrol Horse”), but the box office is not good, known as “box office poison”. So, such two depressed men, plus Dillon, who was born in Shaw Brothers and also collaborated with John Woo (“Stinging Horse” was the film they collaborated on that year), popular singer Leslie Cheung, etc., jointly performed this movie full of men’s feelings, ambitions and even ups and downs, “The True Colors of Heroes”.

“The True Color of Heroes” broke the local box office record of a Hong Kong film with a box office of 34.65 million, and won the Best Film and Best Actor awards at the 6th Hong Kong Film Awards. The father-son love, brotherly love, friendship love, male and female love, wronged victimization, and revenge of the men touched by it vividly portrays the love in the hearts of men The mentality of the Hong Kong people after it was determined that Hong Kong’s sovereignty would be recovered in the early morning of July 1, 1997: in the context of the return to the motherland, their citizens are powerless to change this reality, but they do not know what will happen after the return; and in “The True Color of Heroes”, they also lamented several times that the times are different from the past……

The Road to Hollywood

John Woo came to Hollywood in 1993 and has been directing for more than ten years, and has also directed many movies such as “The Ultimate Target”, “Broken Arrow”, “The Face of the Heroes” (also known as “Changing Face”), “Mission Impossible 2”, “The Wind Whisperer”, “Fatal Reward” and many other movies and TV movies such as “New Across the Seas” and “Supreme Black Jack”. But I don’t know if it’s because of the lack of adaptation or what, John Woo’s Hollywood film career is not so wishful.

Comparing “Mission Impossible 2”, which John Woo is good at in action movies and has achieved good box office in North America or around the world, compared with the previous “Mission Impossible”, may illustrate this problem. “Mission Impossible” is directed by the famous thriller director Brian De Palma, adapted from a classic action TV series in the 70s, the director is not satisfied with copying the plot of the TV series, which not only changes the leader of the secret service team in the TV series to the behind-the-scenes of the criminal, but also sets up twists and turns of the plot, enigmatic characters, etc., creating the suspense in the film, and making the plot full of tension. The sequel directed by John Woo, except for the change of face at the beginning of the film (or borrowing from the plot in the first part) with a little suspense, basically narrates this action movie in a straight line, so in terms of action, “Mission Impossible 2” is far better than the first part, but it is beyond the reach of the tension of the plot – John Woo made a suspenseful spy movie into a pure action movie. This also exposes a problem of director John Woo himself: the incongruity between the control of the action scenes and the control of the plot. (Similar problems arose with his war film “The Wind Whisperer” and the sci-fi film “Deadly Pay.”) )

“Red Cliff” returns

Today, after more than a decade of twists and turns in Hollywood, John Woo finally decided to “return”, not only serving as the executive producer of the film “Heaven’s Mouth”, but also directing “Red Cliff”, the most expensive film work so far.

John Woo also revealed that if he wanted to start filming a documentary, he will choose a documentary with the theme of Sun Yat-sen, the father of the nation. Recently, Mel Gibson’s “The Passion of the Christ” was a big hit, and John Woo, who is a Christian, said that he had seen it, and he liked it, and said that if he was not a director, he would have become a pastor and help those most in need.

恩典见证 30.经…

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拆毁与重建: 我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华!凡在我里面的,也要称颂祂的圣名!我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华!不可忘记他的一切恩惠!他赦免你的一切罪孽,医治你的一切疾病。他救赎你的命脱离死亡,以仁爱和慈悲为你的冠冕。(诗103:1-4)

感谢神,中风后的两个月,于2009年9月30日,我终于从香港平安返回芝加哥。由于出事的时候太过突然,我至今仍无法想象当时发生的险境,因为当我在广州天河区威斯汀酒店餐厅晕厥倒下的时候,自己是完全没有知觉的。现在只能联想到这突如其来的发病,肯定会把几位与我共进早餐的同事都吓得不知所措了。怀着极其感恩的心情,我和妻子秋红反复阅读了中山大学附属第三医院神经外科一份最初的入院记录﹕

“患者陈炽,因全身抽搐,意识障碍5小时余,于2009-08-09入院。”诊断结果是﹕

“上矢状窦血栓形成;双侧额叶多发性脑出血、右额蛛网膜下腔出血;患者入院,前5小时无明显诱因突发出现全身抽搐,当时患者伴有意识障碍”

我对于中风毫不了解,也万万没想到会发生在我身上,对上述脑科医生的诊断,真的感觉心有余悸,读完后手脚不期然地震抖了起来,额上也冒出了一点冷汗,仿佛我在阅读自己的死亡证书。

面临苦难时的恐惧与无助

坦白地说,在遇到这样的困局时,在心底里我并非是一个信心坚定、凡事依靠神的人。中风后被送入医院的头几天,正是我生命中最恐惧、最无助的时刻。依稀记得当时眼前一片模糊,不知身在何方,只隐约感觉到身上插有尿管和点滴,医护人员从床边疾步而过。然后我惊恐地发现自己左半边身体竟然动弹不得。我用尽全身力量试图挪动手脚,却毫无反应。恐惧、仿徨、无助立时占据了我的心。

究竟发生了什么意外?之前我还与几位同僚共进早餐,大家不是如常地谈笑自若吗?为何现在我会半身瘫痪,躺在ICU(重症监护病房)的病床上?一连串凶险惊惶的思虑自脑中涌溢,我的心仿佛被一个沉重的铁锤拖住往深渊里坠落。难道我一辈子就这样卧床不起,我会不会变成植物人?我的家庭、工作和事奉该怎么办?我的亲人在哪里?模糊间,我听见一个极柔婉却陌生的声音:“陈先生,你还认得我吗?我就是威斯汀酒店的服务员Echo,我特意来探望你,希望你及早痊愈;我真不明白,你人这么好,怎么会遭遇到这样的苦难呢?”虽然我看不清她的脸孔,但她的语气显然带有很深的同情。现在回想起来,神似乎要借着这个不信者,来测试我面对苦难时候的反应和抉择。感谢主,在整个过程中,即便内心一片黑暗,我也没有问过:“神你为什么容许中风这件事突然发生在我身上?”我是谁,竟敢质疑上帝至高的意念,向祂的主权发出挑战呢?

正如伯11: 7-8所说﹕“你考察就能测透神吗?你岂能尽情测透全能者吗?祂的智慧高于天,你还能做什么?深于阴间,你还能知道什么?”我确信我所认识和接受的神不是苦难的制造者;在祂没有错误,纵然在经历苦难时我们未必全然了解这背后的一切,但我们可以相信神有绝对的智慧掌管任何事,在祂的旨意下,也能带我们行过死荫的幽谷。

得医治,首先要对付罪

我在中山大学附属第三医院只接受了头六天的治疗,然后由美国领事馆安排转送到香港继续诊治。两个星期后,病情没有好转,我开始产生沮丧失望的情绪。我那时对左半边身体仍然瘫痪而深感不耐烦,我想坐起来就要至少有三个人搀扶,否则身体便向左右两边倾倒;大小便也要麻烦别人,为此,我感到十分尴尬无助。对于曾是工作狂的我而言,这是何等痛苦且难以接受的事实。那段时间,我经常问神:“像这种凡事都要依赖别人的状态,我还要忍受到几时呢?”很多个夜晚我辗转反侧,胡思乱想,直到黎明才能入睡片刻。等到白天做理疗时,又因为缺乏睡眠而感觉体弱无力,情绪越发低落。如此恶性循环直至转院后第三周的某个早晨,我灵修祷告时,刚好一段经文在我眼前展开。

那是路5: 18-25,其中记载了耶稣医治一个瘫子的故事﹕

“有人用褥子抬着一个瘫子,要抬进去放在耶稣面前,却因人多,寻不出法子抬进去,就上了房顶,从瓦间把他连褥子缒到当中,正在耶稣面前。耶稣见他们的信心,就对瘫子说:你的罪赦了那人当众人面前立刻起来,拿着他所躺卧的褥子回家去,归荣耀与神。”

圣灵藉这段经文开导我,使我对这经文有了更深一步的了解,让我明白到神的医治乃是包括身、心、灵全面性的治疗,而我不但身体需要医治,在灵性方面也需要彻底的医治。我反复阅读,思想,切切地留意到主耶稣行这个神迹医治的先后次序:瘫子起来行走是罪先得赦免,内心被洁净;然后耶稣才吩咐他说“你起来,拿你的褥子回家去吧”。原来,主耶稣首先要我对付自己的罪,因为只有祂才能赦罪,所以祂最关心的就是我的罪是否巳经被对付清楚。罪的问题得到解决,其他问题就迎刃而解了。罪切断了我们与神建立密切关系的管道;罪经常破坏着我们对外对内的人际关系;罪也使人无法享受到神所赐的平安喜乐。

感谢主,祂让我明白“灵性的瘫痪”比身体的各类疾病更可怕,更难根治,因为它会使人的灵魂麻木不仁,对罪失去了敏锐的反应,而最终失去任何抵抗的能力。很多时候,基督徒只对不信主的人强调认罪悔改,但对自己的过犯则避而不提,或藏在内心的深处,好像以为对罪已经产生了免疫能力,这是何等危险的属灵破口。这种现象可以发生在任何一个信徒身上,不论他信主的时间多长,事奉的岗位和辈份多高。

住院六个星期,神赐我宁静的环境,在祂面前,我完全赤裸敞开,让祂自己的话语如利刃般割除心中罪的毒瘤;也让祂的圣灵作冶疗修复的工作。认罪悔改是一件极不容易的事,但也是基督徒追求圣洁的唯一途径。其实认罪对我来说很困难,其中有两方面的拦阻:(1)自义,难以谦卑。这种性格自我来美国后逐渐形成。虽然我已经信主超过30年,但这个老我还是苦苦地缠绕着我。特别是当事业平顺、事奉稍有果效的时候,我就更加失去了对这两方面的反思能力。

(2)我发觉当我面临各种大小抉择的时候,我很多时候是凭着自己的聪明智慧、个人经验作取舍,而没有以神为首,先求问祂,看是否是出于祂的旨意;反过来甚至是走在祂的前头。

在圣灵的光照下,我打开了心灵的眼睛,终于认识到自己种种在灵性、生活行为上的软弱;并且毫不保留地承认对神对人的亏欠。现今的世代,有太多带着面具做好人的人,表面上客客气气,做事循规蹈矩,但内心却隐藏着深不可测的思念,甚至存着各种私欲和邪情(包括我自己在内)。即便是与朋友和亲人之间的关系,我们往往也未必会付诸真诚来对待;更遑论达到推心置腹的程度。可以这样说,表面的好行为绝对不能反映出人真确的心灵状态;好行为也不能使人达到神所定的标准。诚如圣经说﹕“因为,耶和华不像人看人﹕人是看外貌,耶和华是看内心。”(撒上16:7)只有神才识透人心中一切的心思意念:“人心比万物都诡诈,坏到极处,谁能识透呢?”(耶17:9)

许多人以为认罪是懦弱的行为,其实这是十分错误的想法。相反的,我深深体会到认罪是一种相当勇敢的表现,是人主动地面对自己的本相:即便是阴暗、污秽不堪、见不得人、最丑陋的一面,在神真光的照耀下,每一寸的心灵角落都披露无遗,没有必要再隐藏,也不能再遮掩。正如医生使用X光、CT或MRI来检查身体疾病的根源,神的道,圣灵的引导能帮助我们察验出灵里各样的问题,包括了已显露的和隐而未现的罪。

玛1:6说:“儿子尊敬父亲,仆人敬畏主人;我既为父亲,尊敬我的在哪里呢?我既为主人,敬畏我的在哪里呢?你们却说:我们在何事上藐视你的名呢?”当我念到这段经文的时候,感到有如一箭穿心,令我颤栗。原来作为神的儿女和事奉祂的仆人,我一直忽视了对主敬畏的态度。我桀傲不驯的性情,加上几十年的俗世社会经验,把我塑造成一个很独断的个性,也建立了一套不讨神喜悦的处事作风,那就是﹕凭经验,凭感觉,而不是先祷告神,寻求他的旨意;讲求效率,重视策画多于服事人;独断独行的态度,不大征求别人的意见;做一些所谓大格局,其实是属于好大喜功,对神国度没有直接关连的事。

坦白说,当我在属世的环境中稍有成就,自己认为可以当家作主时,往往就是我在属灵生命上产生危机的时刻。2009年,我的事业和事奉表面上的成功,恰恰诱我坠入自我膨胀的深渊。2009年5月,我被移民局提名并获得全芝加哥联邦z /-府各机构“最优异职员”奖,八万多职员中,有300人入选,但只有十人获此殊荣。6月初,我到广州美国领事馆短期调派的申请又获批准;这两件事显然对我日后的仕途大有好处。事奉方面,我一直担任芝加哥“荣神传播协会”总干事,以影音传媒传福音;又同时参与餐馆传福音工作,还在纽约《号角月报》写专栏。前两年,我还号召成立“天乐合唱团”,全团30多人,一半以上是美国的基督徒;2008奥运前夕,我们在北京,青岛,上海举行圣乐演唱会。然而在组织这些创意活动的时候,我并没有把驾驶盘交给神,反而自己紧紧握住不放手。因为“顺服”原非我的性情,自然就会产生不健康的事奉心态,而这绝对不是神所喜悦的。

保罗说﹕“所以弟兄们,我以神的慈悲劝你们,将身体献上,当作活祭,是圣洁的,是神所喜悦的,你们如此事奉乃是理所当然的。不要效法这个世界,只要心意更新而变化,叫你们察验何为神的善良、纯全、可喜悦的旨意。”(罗12:1-2)为什么这一节我们琅琅上口的经文,遵行起来却那么难呢?我现在总算明白,最根本的问题在于我是否愿意把生命的主权交给神。讨神喜悦的事奉是舍去自己的邪情私欲,凡事求告主名,随着圣灵的带领,单纯地为了使祂得荣耀的作为。那怕是在人看来微不足道的服事。神要我学习做一个合祂心意的“无用的仆人”。像主耶稣对门徒说的,“这样,你们做完了一切所吩咐的,只当说:我们是无用的仆人,所做的本是我们应分做的。” (路17:10) 所以,我在祂面前的事奉,如果不是出于神的恩典,不是出于圣灵的带领,纵使别人看来再辉煌的成绩,也是虚假的、靠不住的、不讨神喜悦的、没有永恒价值的,不过是草木禾秸的工程。对神的信心是一种相互的关系和行动,而不是一种自我感情、自我意志的表现。是什么关系?就是人与神的关系;什么行动?就是人对神的完全顺服遵行。

我猛然醒悟意识到这几年许许多多事奉的盲点,一直阻挠了我更深地察验何为神的善良、纯全、可喜悦的旨意。原来我一直以来都是凭着自信和激情事奉神,却把“全心顺服”最关键的事奉原素抽离,结果许多所谓的事奉活动都变得空洞而没有意义。诚如神藉先知撒母耳对扫罗说:“耶和华喜悦燔祭和平安祭,岂如喜悦人听从祂的话呢?听命胜于献祭;顺从胜于公羊的脂油。悖逆的罪与行邪术的罪相等;顽梗的罪与拜虚神和偶像的罪相同。”(撒上15: 22-23)。耶稣基督自己就是我们最好的榜样,所以保罗说﹕“他本有神的形像,不以自己与神同等为强夺的,反倒虚己,取了奴仆的形像,成为人的样式;既有人的样子,就自己卑微,存心顺服,以至于死,且死在十字架上。”(腓2:7-8)神所关注的并非是我花上了多少时间、心思去筹算个人以为是好的,对祂国度有价值的事情。祂要求我的乃是一颗尊敬寻求祂旨意的心。套用传道人尹道先弟兄的话﹕“我们必须先从心里真正认识到自己的无用,完完全全的无用,才有可能在神的手中成为有用。这就是属灵的辩证法、属灵的奥秘,也是属灵的恩典,甚至连我们能够真正认识到自己的无用,都是神的恩典。”

感谢神让我在病中静下心来作出这样的反思,这确实是莫大的福份。

经历神的信实慈爱和亲友之爱的温馨

借着这次中风事故,神让我重新检讨与家人的关系,并强烈感受到从神而来的信实慈爱,亲身体会到家人对我的关爱是何等温馨、真挚、不求回报。

诚然,神的怜悯慈爱高于一切,但是妻子秋红在我患病期间,对我的不离不弃、无微不至的关照,真是情深似海。事后我才得知,接到我中风的消息后,身在美国的妻子搭最早的航班赶往广州。在漫长的14个小时飞行途中,李朝强牧师给她临行前的鼓励“愿主耶稣的平安与你同在”成为她心中最大的安慰和力量。当赶到广州医院,面对神智不清的我,她心中没有绝望。她日夜地守在病床边,一边握着我的手为我祷告,一边反复为我诵读诗篇23篇,直到我认出是她时,我们相拥而泣。也就在那时,我听到一句令我毕生铭记于心的话﹕“迈克,放心吧,无论任何结果,我会照顾你到底,这是我在神面前的承诺。”

事实上,从我中风到如今持续的康复过程,妻子没有一刻离开过我。不仅如此,神还加添给她力量和智慧去处理各种重要决定,替我作出各方面的妥善安排。我在港住院期间,为便于照顾,她总是蜷缩在病房的板椅上凑合一晚,第二天还要拖着疲累的身体陪我做针灸理疗。假期用完,为了能留下来照顾我,她又恳求上司容许她在香港上班,由于中美时差,每天服侍我熟睡后,她还要上班直至深夜。而这期间,妻子还回了一趟美国,看望独自在家的儿子,并四处奔走打听芝加哥最好的康复中心,为我日后的康复铺路。

妻子为我付出的爱是那般深厚且毫无保留,感激之余,我的内心更觉对妻子亏欠太多。结婚27年,在夫妻关系上,我越来越忙于工作事奉,彼此相处渐渐有如君子之交,感情上失去了起初相濡以沫的甜蜜,更谈不上灵性上的相交,我们尽量不争吵,相互忍让,和平相处,自己已经感觉很不错。但作为一家之主,我却一直漠视圣经的教导要爱妻子。“你们作丈夫的,要爱你们的妻子,正如基督爱教会为教会舍己.你们各人都当爱妻子,如同爱自己一样。妻子也当敬重他的丈夫。”(弗5:25)

还记得妻子以前经常对我说﹕“你那么喜欢作曲唱歌,领诗弹奏,为什么你在家却没有对我表达出这份热情,事事都是那般理性?”其实女性的情感世界非常细腻,丈夫对妻子的真挚关心和带有爱意的肢体语言,往往比冗长的大道理更有效力。根据圣经的原则,没有爱的付出,没有做好自己的本份,我们作弟兄的休想赢取妻子的敬重,即使我们外貌如何敬虔,服事范围如何广泛,事业如何成功,对她来说,这都是虚假的表现,就如耶稣斥责法利赛人的假冒为善一样。患病期间,我不仅在神面前认自己的罪,也对妻子秋红说出了内心的愧疚,并且慢慢学习慕迪圣经学院经常播出Gary Chapman牧师的电台节目“爱的五种语言”,应用在日常生活各个层面,妻子告诉我其实她要求我对她表达“爱的语言”的标准并不高,只要我真心诚意地经常给她轻轻的拥抱 (肢体语言),欣赏她所作的事(有感谢的心),入门带着喜乐的微笑(心中常带有喜乐),彼此分享祷告(灵性的深交),这就够了。

过去的愚昧使我偏离了圣经的教导,到如今我才醒悟到我们的配偶和儿女都是神所赐独特又宝贵的礼物,需要加以珍惜,以爱相系;否则到那一天,家庭关系疏落有如陌路人,不是同床异梦就是各行己路,那是何等可怜又可悲的光景。

垂听祷告的神

每逢想到弟兄姊妹对我的关怀、爱心,就越觉得自己的不配,也因此确实经历到神垂听了众人恳切的祈求。

固然,神没有以超自然的方式马上叫我站起来,但祂为我预备了最好的医院医生,家人的悉心照料,一切都有神的大能在托住,像差派了一群天使在旁保护。神确实听了、也应允了众教会和弟兄姊妹的祷告,并且神要凭着自己的美意施行医治。回头再看,原来每一个困难的境况临到,每当我和妻子觉得事情无法解决时,神其实早已经知道,而且为我们作出妥善安排,甚至是超过我们所想所求。我列举了以下几项具体的例子,印证出神的伟大、信实、慈爱、无所不知和无所不在﹕

→ 中风后三小时内送院。神容许中风发生在我身上(其实是我自己忽略控制高血糖和太大的工作压力所导致中风),但神也安排有人把我马上送院急救,免除了许多“三偏五障”后遗症的危险。

→ 出事不在酒店房间。我与同事吃早饭时晕厥在餐厅。如果回到房间才中风就不堪设想。

→事发在广州不是在北京。我原先想申请到北京移民局公干,但因为我也会说广东话,所以后来被转派到广州。不然,医院不可能在我严重中风后短期间让我坐飞机转送到香港。妻子秋红和二位姐姐因不谙普通话也会引起与医生沟通和各方面照顾上的困难。

→ 中山大学附属医院有MRI(磁共振成像设备)。中山大学附属第三医院离开我住的广州天河区威斯汀酒店祇有十分钟车程。

→领事馆的安排转送香港治疗。神为我预备好几位美国在广州和香港领事馆的医护人员尽力与中山大学附属医院协商于一周内转送香港。

→ 神为我预备香港最好的医院、医生、物理治疗、针灸。

→家人的照应。神借着妻子秋红、两位在香港的姐姐,和在广州的弟弟,轮流的照顾,使我得以安心静养,加速了康复的时间。

→ 继续复健。回芝加哥后,神更为我预备很理想的复健中心在(芝加哥康复研究所),离家不到半小时,还有中心人员接送。

→ 妻子获公司的准许可以全时间在家里上班,这样给我在饮食、日常生活上的照应。

在神面前,除了感恩以外,我还能说些什么呢!记得有一次我心情不好时,姐姐在床边轻声地安慰我说﹕“Mike,你要好好振作起来,难道你还没有强烈感受到神在你身上的作为吗?祂把你从死亡的边缘救出来,医治你,在各样事情上又那么周到地照顾你,祂肯定是派了一队的天使来保卫你,你应该充满喜乐才对,为什么又闷闷不乐?”后来才想到诗篇91:9-11所说﹕因此,我确信经历到神使者的保护是一件何等真实的事。

拆毁与重建

我因着这次严重中风而学习靠近主,并且凭着信心再次把自己交在祂的手中。甚至可以这样说,病痛带给我最大的福分,不仅是身体疾病得到医治,更是在灵性上获得了重建和修复。我深切领会到受苦的目的之一,乃是神疼爱我,借着苦难把我领到祂的施恩宝座前。“凡我所疼爱的,我就责备管教他,所以你要发热心,也要悔改。”(启示录3:19)“因为耶和华所爱的,祂必责备,正如父亲责备所喜爱的儿子。”(箴言3:12)

内在:拆毁旧我内心世界的城堡

先知们用相当骇人的字眼“撕裂、打伤、毁坏、倾覆、苦害”来表明,神有时会使用激烈的方式来拆毁我们的内心世界。在我身上也是如此,以音乐事工为例,中风后我的左手因僵硬至今无法弹奏乐器,讲话不再“口齿伶俐”,唱歌不再动听。这些改变对我这个经常创作歌曲,参与音乐事工20多年,一直以来用诗歌开音乐布道会,又出版了五张诗歌光盘的音乐人来说,是相当大的考验。我也曾为此挣扎不已,希望从神找到一个能满足自己的答案。我求问神:“有必要把我拆毁得这么彻底才进行改造吗?”当然,神至今仍保持缄默,但我已从日日反思中找到答案:神要我重新评估并扭转我对敬拜和音乐事奉的态度。我应该专心把目光投注在耶稣和祂的十字架上,让祂成为我心中唯一敬拜的对象,而不是用音乐来表现个人才艺。老实说,我现在每周日唱诗敬拜时,已经不会再为唱得喘不过气,走音、咬字不准而感到很难受,因为我现在明白我是为谁而唱,为何而唱。

外在:拆毁对世俗的追求

不可否认,在中风以前,世界对我仍然有相当程度的吸引力。一方面我离退休年龄尚早,另一方面,我还有晋升机会;兼且在移民局上班既体面,又能帮助许多人。自我感觉事业有成,又可以事奉,只要两者没有抵触,也算是神特别的恩典与祝福。但无形中,这种“一条腿想踏两条船”的思想与生活形态正中了撒但的诡计,忘记了在事奉的层面上,信徒是没有中间路线可以走的。主的话很清楚:“一个人不能事奉两个主,不是恶这个爱那个,就是重这个轻那个,你们不能又事奉神,又事奉玛门。”(太6:24)

我因为把全部时间精力都放在工作和事奉上,又无法同时兼顾,结果损害了身体,忽略了家庭,又不能专心服事神。这种想在世俗当CEO,又在事奉上干一番大事业的双赢心态肯定不是神的心意,因为耶稣说:“主,我们神是独一的主,你要尽心、尽性、尽意、尽力爱主─你的神。”(可12:29-30)这里的语气是命令式,没有自由选择或其他含糊的解释。

重建:以神为中心、以神的爱去爱人的生命

在香港住院期间,除了经历神奇妙的医治以外,最令我兴奋的是自已心里燃起一股愿意把神的爱与人分享的热情,仿佛一把火焰在心中焚烧不止。与我同住一间病房的有日本人、英国人、澳洲人,我都为他们的病祷告,诉说神在我身上的作为。那位日本病人说他是信(神道教),但他也不拒绝我奉耶稣基督的名为他祷告。神的恩典又借着我特别临到两位女士,一位是从广州来暂时照顾我的农家妇人。她虽然不认字,却有一颗渴慕的心,当下就接受了主。自此我们便一起祷告,我教她背诵圣经主祷文,为她与婆婆、丈夫的不良关系求主修复。她也为我的康复向主祈求。目睹神在六周内医治了我,她的心便充满了喜乐,愿意回广州后把福音传给家人和找一个属灵的家。另外一位女士的丈夫因七次开刀切除大肠手术不成功,医生想放弃,当中一位在加护病房工作的基督徒护士,把她带到我的病房,盼望我为她丈夫祷告。我说我很愿意,但也告诉她这样的祷告没有什么意义,除非她知道我们所祷告的对象是谁。感谢主,听完了我跟她分享的福音信息后,她愿意接受主耶稣作为她个人的救主,然后我们一起留着眼泪向主祷告。虽然我们再没有见面的机会,不晓得她丈夫是否得医治,但愿神保守她的信心,藉那位基督徒护士继续做跟进工作。促使我重燃这种传福音的热诚,乃是因为我的心灵被主重新建造,深深经历神的大爱和全人医治后的自然反应。就像撒马利亚妇人遇见了主耶稣,明白了真道;又经历被神所体恤和接讷后,心中涌出难以形容的喜乐,马上留下水罐子往城里去对众人说她遇到了弥赛亚的好消息。今天,一个对传福音毫无感动,或对自己的信仰难以启齿的基督徒,很可能是还没有尝过天恩的滋味。也许这样的信徒内心还仍然保留着一座座用旧我私欲所筑构的城堡,以至形成太重的负荷,太多面墙的拦阻,反而让自己被围城所困,无法突破。

除此以外,在经历了这场灾难后,我发现可怜别人跟体恤别人绝对不同。同情别人的遭遇是试图分担减轻别人痛苦不安的情绪,却并非感同身受的心灵高度。如今,当我面对另一个病患,除了同情他所患的疾病外,还能体会他心中的感受,明白他的处境,更有力地分担他的苦楚。因着这样的领受,每当我在芝加哥康复中心遇见一起做复健的病友,主耶稣普及的爱,怜悯的心肠就深深的激励着我,我愿意暗中为这些病友代祷,也找机会把神在我身上奇妙的作为告诉他们。

珍惜每一天的生命

中风之前我总觉得时间掌握在自已手中。做不完的事明天可以继续,不然还有下个月,总有足够的时间来完成。中风以后每天早晨醒来,感觉自己脉搏跳动,呼吸自如时,我真心感谢神赐给我新的一天,日子不再是普普通通,任由自己支配,乃是把每分每秒都视为一粒粒玉石那般宝贵。诚如雅4:14-15说:“其实明天如何,你们还不知道。你们的生命是什么呢?你们原来是一片云雾,出现少时就不见了。你们只当说:主若愿意,我们就可以活着,也可以做这事,或做那事。”

认识到生命的脆弱和短暂促使我更看重追求与永生上帝建立的关系,以及活在世上的意义。神给予世人自由选择自已的生命方向和目标,但对祂的儿女却有特别的带领和操练。神希望每一个儿女,都能建造圣洁的性情,选择基督化的人生。基督徒人格的理想标准就是像耶稣基督。因此耶稣对门徒说:“所以,你们要完全,像你们的天父完全一样。”(太5:48)我们要操练这种完全,要有更大的爱心、更谦卑的精神、更完美的品格、更全备的智慧能力为主作更多的见证。

中风是神给了我一个严重的警告,告诉我其实我早已经站立在死亡深渊的边缘,而就在滑脚坠落的一刻,如果不是祂的手紧紧把我托住,然后平稳地扶起放回世上,我的生命早已经消失如云雾。我不断思索,神既然给我再活一次的机会,我怎能再走回头路,像中风前那样放任轻狂,经常熬夜,食无定时,毫不节制地糟蹋自已的身体又滥用时间?“岂不知你们的身子就是圣灵的殿么?这圣灵是从神而来,住在你们里头的;并且你们不是自己的人;因为你们是重价买来的。所以,要在你们的身子上荣耀神。”(哥林多前书6:19-20)以往读这段经文甚为不解,现在明白因为我们的身体是上帝所造,正确地对待自己的身体就是荣耀祂。惟有当我们完全肯定人的身、心、灵是不可分割、互相依赖的整体时,我们才会好好爱惜保养身体,让身体发挥上帝创造它的美意。难怪约翰会说,“亲爱的兄弟啊,愿你凡事兴盛,身体健壮,正如你的灵魂兴盛一样。”(约三1:2)

结语

“你们要以感谢为祭献与神又要向至高者还你的愿,并要在患难之日求告我;我必搭救你,你也要荣耀我;凡以感谢献上为祭的便是荣耀我。”(诗50:14-15)

苦难真不好受,但也确实加深我对神属性切身的体会:祂权能的施展──按祂的旨意把我从死亡中救回,祂的信实慈爱──奇妙的医治,祂无所不知、无所不能──各样妥善的安排和照顾的大能。在我的身上,祂以医治代替了惩罚,以祝福代替了咒诅,以熬炼代替了责打。我不知道神让我在世上还活多久,但只要我还有生命气息,我愿意见证祂在我身上所作奇妙的大功,成为传福音报喜讯的出口,深深明白“外体虽然毁坏,内心却一天新似一天”(林后4:16)

愿一切荣耀都归于三位一体的真神。阿们。

陈炽 广东顺德人,香港长大。台大中文系毕业,后获伊州社会工作系硕士。现任美国联邦司法部芝加哥移民局公民入籍部门主管,同时也是芝加哥荣神传播协会总干事。

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基督徒–传奇导演吴宇森

在好莱坞,有两位华人导演是非常的有名气的,一个是在去年奥斯卡上大放光彩的李安,另一位,则是吴宇森。吴宇森的童年生活,也同样的对于其往后的电影生涯产生很大的影响。

吴宇森,生于1946年5月1日,出生在广州的一个贫寒的家庭。不久就跟随着家人来到湖南,随后又作为难民来到了香港。中学即将毕业时父亲因病过世,他也因此而缀学,但仍然利用空余时间自学历史、哲学、美术等,更重要的是,他从小就喜欢电影。就如他当年在接受香港《电影双周刊》的采访时回忆起自己的童年生活:“从孩童时起,我已经喜欢电影了,不论西片、粤片、日本片,一概都喜欢看。那时,我并没有富裕的钱买票入场。记得有一次,在大世界戏院,我抱着小弟弟趁入场时混入戏院的楼座,不幸给带位员发现,一掌把我从楼梯上打滚下来。可这一掌并没有令我放弃看这场电影的热望,相反地赶快抱起弟弟,紧跟着人群混入楼下去。到了中学时候,喜欢看电影的热情一直没有降低过”。

另外,据说他从小生活的地方黑帮横行,而他自己能够进入中学就读也是因为路德会送来的美国捐助(也即教会的帮助),他既要面对周围的暴力世界,又要面对教会信仰的仁爱精神,两者在其内心交织着……这对于吴宇森的电影生涯产生了非常大的影响,一方面,他要展示黑帮中的“好人”与“坏人”之间的冲突所产生的阳刚的暴力美学,另一方面,他不忘渲染黑帮“好人”的仁爱主义精神,甚至一而再的在作品中出现了教堂,这个神圣的基督教的象征。他也说到,“我是基督徒,受爱、罪恶及救赎等宗教观念影响。古代侠士行侠仗义精神现已荡然无存,我们得独自面对邪恶”。

吴宇森的早期作品

吴宇森的电影风格,除了童年生活的影响之外,还深受他的恩师张彻的影响,但他的电影生涯并非是跟随张彻开始。

1069年,吴宇森因为一个偶然的机会而进入国泰电影公司当场记,不久后才认识了张彻,担任制片助理。1970年国泰宣布歇业后,他经张彻的介绍进入邵氏影片公司,并担任张彻的副导演,如《水浒传》、《马永贞》、《刺马》等。张彻的电影作品,在《独臂刀》奠定了其在武侠电影中的地位之后,越来越多的展示男性之间的情谊与暴力的世界,《断肠剑》、《报仇》、《十三太保》、《刺马》、《残缺》等,充斥着赤膊上阵、盘肠大战的惨烈画面,如今年年底将公映的《投名状》,其也是改编自张彻的经典电影《刺马》,其结局则是姜大卫扮演的张汶祥被剖腹剐心的惨烈画面,尽管没有《十三太保》中的被五马分尸那样的惨烈,但也非同一般。而张彻的这种电影风格,正切合了吴宇森的成长过程的耳濡目染后留下的心态,也给予他深远的影响——将近二十年后,吴宇森还将《刺马》改编为《喋血街头》,向他的恩师张彻致敬。

英雄本色

80年代初吴宇森为新艺城拍摄了《滑稽时代》后不久,退出了嘉禾而加入新艺城影片公司,但他的电影事业并没有一帆风顺的发展,甚至一度被新艺城安排到台湾考察当地的电影制作状况。直到这部《英雄本色》的出现,才使得吴宇森,还有周润发,他们的电影事业更上一层楼。

这时的吴宇森,心中对电影充满着豪情壮志,但苦于没有时机好好的发挥;而周润发,也虽然早在十年前的电视剧《上海滩》当中红透半边天,但是,他的电影生涯,不少是文艺片,如《倾城之恋》(blog)、《郁达夫传奇》等(也有动作片,如《巡城马》),但票房都不好,被誉为是“票房毒药”。于是,这样的两个郁郁不得志的男人,再加上邵氏出身、也曾跟吴宇森合作的狄龙(《刺马》就是他们当年合作的片子)、当红歌星张国荣等,共同演绎了这部充满着男人的情义、豪情壮志甚至是坎坷的电影,《英雄本色》。

《英雄本色》以3465万票房的成绩打破了香港电影的本土票房记录,并获得第六届香港电影金像奖的最佳电影和最佳男主角奖。其所触及的男人的父子情、兄弟情、朋友情、男女情、冤屈受害之情和报仇雪恨之情等,将男人心中的情义刻画的淋漓尽致;而宋子豪(在这部作品中狄龙扮演的宋子豪是第一男主角)的“人在江湖、身不由己”的黑道生涯,更是切合了当时中英两国签订《联合声明》而确定将在1997年7月1日凌晨收回香港主权后的香港人的心态:在回归这个大的时代背景下,他们市民无力改变这种现实,但又不知道回归了会怎么样;而《英雄本色》中,也数次的感慨现在时代已经不同于往日……

好莱坞之路

吴宇森是在1993年到好莱坞发展的,至今已经十多年,也导演了《终极标靶》、《断箭》、《夺面双雄》(也叫《变脸》)、《碟中谍2》、《风语者》、《致命报酬》等多部电影和《新纵横四海》、《至尊黑杰克》等电视电影。但个人觉得,不知道是水土不服还是什么缘故,吴宇森的好莱坞电影生涯,并不是那么的如意。

以吴宇森所擅长的动作类型电影,且在北美或者全球都取得不俗的票房的《碟中谍2》跟之前的《碟中谍》相比较,或许可以说明这个问题。《碟中谍》是由著名惊悚片导演布莱恩·德·帕尔玛执导、改编自七十年代的一出经典动作电视剧的电影,导演并不满足于照搬电视剧的情节,其不但将电视剧当中处于主导地位的这个特工小组的组长改为犯罪者的幕后头脑,而且还设置了一波三折的剧情、如谜一样的人物等,造就了影片中的不断出现的悬念,并使得剧情充满着张力。而由吴宇森执导的续集,除了影片开始的变脸(还是借鉴了第一部中的情节)带着一点的悬疑之外,基本上是以直线型的方式叙述完了这部动作电影,于是,动作方面《碟中谍2》远远的胜于第一部,但在剧情的张力上却望尘莫及——吴宇森将一部悬念十足的特工电影,拍成了纯粹的动作片。这也暴露了吴宇森导演自身的一个问题:动作场面的掌控力与剧情的掌控力之间的不协调。(他的战争片《风语者》、科幻片《致命报酬》等也都出现了类似的问题。)

《赤壁》归来

在好莱坞奔波曲折了十多年后的今天,吴宇森终于决定“归来”,既担任了《天堂口》这部电影的监制,而且,还导演《赤壁》,这部目前而言投资最大的电影作品。

吴宇森还透露,要开拍纪录片的话,会选择以国父孙中山为题材的纪录片。最近,梅尔·吉布森主演的《耶稣受难记》大热门,身为基督徒的吴宇森表示已经看过,他也很喜欢,还说如果不当导演的话,他应该会去当牧师,帮助最需要帮助的人。

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邓天兆:“赌王之王”的大起大落后之生命奇迹改变

他的故事多年前被香港影音使团拍成电影【赌神之神】

他居然真的如电影般描述能瞬间“变牌”而“逢赌必赢”

邓天兆在一次戒赌福音餐会上

他赢过八千万港元的“赌王之王”邓天兆,在半年内把钱输光,巨债缠身,苦不堪言,最后在他人生最低沉并打算自杀结束生命之时,爱的真神寻找到他,即时挽回了他……。

四代职业赌徒 四代被赌博的诅咒辖制

现年四十六岁出生于马来西亚的邓天兆,在未信耶稣之前,是一个职业赌徒。他不讳言:“我的曾祖父、祖父和父亲都是职业赌徒。在三岁的时候,我已经爱上了钱;年纪轻轻便很喜欢把钱拿靠近鼻子去嗅它。七岁开始就学会了赌钱,足足二十八年,我不曾离开过赌桌。无论是在英国伦敦读大学,或回到马来西亚帮爸爸做建筑生意的时候,我总是不忘去赌。”

八四年由于马来西亚经济衰退,建筑行业亦吹淡风;邓父居然提议天兆一起游埠去。他们旅游的目的,并非观赏大山河川,风景名胜;而是前往澳洲不同的赌场流连。据邓天兆说:“澳洲有四五个州上都有赌场,我们天天在那儿赌过不亦乐乎。当时,我曾稍作统计,八五年前我的“战绩”并不理想,输多于赢;但由八五年一月至十一月,我在澳洲所赢的钱,却高达三万元澳币,相等于六万元马币,这是一个相当诱人的大数目啊!”

“变牌”超自然力量 居然“逢赌必赢”

就在同年十一月底澳洲的赌场内,这个职业赌徒邓天兆,跟当地一位玩百家乐出名的外籍高手,在四周起哄声中,展开了一场紧张刺激的“决战”。邓天兆忆述当场的情形说:“一时间,围在我身边的人群,都当了我的拉拉队;他们大力鼓吹,要我为中国人争一口气。当拿到第一局牌之际,我暗叫不妙;因为累积了二十三年赌钱经验的我,从第六灵感得知对手手上的牌是“八点”,而我的则是“零点”;换言之,牌一开出,我就是输家。我心中一直喃喃念着,“我一定要九点,一定要九点。”没想到,把牌推出打开,我的竟然变作“九点”通赢。那一刻,我大声惊叫:“有鬼!有鬼!”接着全身发抖,并多次重复说:“无理由;不可能。”

“第二局我没有下注。到第三局,过程完全跟第一局一样,我以“九点”再下一城,赢了对手。当时,我喜不自禁地喊出来:“我发达了!”因为我竟然有变牌的超然力量,要什么牌就会有什么,这岂不等于是所向无敌?”于是,邓天兆便向上苍恳求,一定要保有这种力量,切不可使之离开他。

赢了八千万港元

果然,超然力量使邓天兆每次在赌场都旗开得胜。据他说,由八五年十二月至九一年的职业赌博纪录中,他从未输过。期间他到过的赌场,分散于澳洲、马来西亚云顶、澳门、韩国、拉斯韦加斯、英国等地。由于每次出入新加坡都很顺利,迷信的邓先生,八七年就决定举家迁移到那块福地长居。八九年这位职业赌徒,竟然还赢了一个“亚洲太平洋赌王冠军”的“美誉”。

邓天兆坦言:“那几年间,我所赢得的钱足有八千万港元(相等于一千八百万新加坡币);加上我的生意亦做得不错,那段日子可以说是财富滚滚来。有钱有地位的我,常摆出一副不可一世的模样,气焰逼人。一段时间我根本不把人,尤其是穷人放在眼内,我看扁他们,歧视他们。后来甚至变本加厉,六亲不认,不但不认父亲和家人,连带与太太的关系也很疏离;太太和女儿都很怕我,从不敢骚扰我。当时被我视为最重要的就是赚钱。可怜的是,虽然有钱却没有安全感,因为常常怕被人绑票,于是只好请黑社会保镖来保护我;可见我的心中毫无平安。”

赌博大逆转 逢赌必输失运

在九零年七八月间,邓天兆曾在赌场遇上了一宗奇事:“当天,有一位全身发白,穿着白西装的陌生老伯,走到我的身边劝说,“你该停手,不要再赌下去。”那时意气风发的我岂会听他?往后的日子,当然是钱继续赌。不料六个月之后,我的运气开始走下坡,超然力量似乎也失去了。”从九一年正月开始,“长胜赌王”竟变成“逢赌必输”的失败者。邓天兆说:“六个月下来,我把赢回来的八千万完全输光!连带我的地产物业、汽车都卖掉了,一下子,积蓄以至所有的东西都失去了;而且还欠下三百万坡币的债。当时,我一筹莫展,唯有到处找相士、风水先生、灵媒求救;可惜毫无帮助。在最低沉的时候,我整整一个星期不能吃饭。

跳楼寻死逃避

有一天夜半,我独自坐在公寓的露台外面,忽然好像听到有声音提醒我不如去“自杀”;剎那间,我觉得“寻死”果然不失为一个解决问题的好方法。既然得金钱地位都没有了,生无可恋,往下一跳死去之后,便可以不需要还债,也不要再负家庭的责任。于是,我就从十五楼跳下去;与此同时,我很清楚听见前面好像有人对我说话:“快祈祷,否则就会太迟了!神爱你。”那一刻,我大声喝问上天,“如果有神,你就让我看见你的爱!”

“不知怎的,在早上七点,我醒了过来的时候仍坐在露台上,并没有死去。我不明所以,及至两小时后,我的姐夫从香港来电,说要来新加坡见我;当时我的坏意念又来了,我打算以游说他投资为借口,向他借来二百万,好叫我可以再赌一铺,藉以翻本。

今天是你最后的机会 快祈祷神爱你

邓天兆在一次戒赌福音餐会上与众人合影留念

“星期日上午姐姐和姐夫请我陪他们去教会,为了讨好他们以便借钱给我,于是答应同去。下午回家后姐夫竟然要我坐下来听他“讲耶稣”,大家都知道赌徒的时间宝贵,如此这般便花了我四个半小时分流正觉可惜之际,奇怪的事发生了。在讲论的过程中,姐夫突然站起来,指着我说:“这不是办法,你要快快祈祷,否则就会太迟了!神爱你。”那声音似曾相识,也不像姐夫的声音。他先后三次这样告诫我,说话一次比一次有力。我想起昨天在露台,打算轻生时所听到的声音;于是我大哭起来,深感神原来真的是爱我的。

接着,他们又要邀请我参加了一个布道会。当日台上的牧师大声疾呼,好像指着我说:“今天是最后的机会,希望你能改变,神爱你。”当我听到这些熟悉又亲切的呼唤时,我放声痛哭,整个人降伏下来,接受耶稣作我的救主。”

奇迹出现 看见真神的大爱

“后来,当我们到机场送姐夫回港时,他拥着我,并告知日前在睡梦中,(原来就在我打算跳楼的同一时间),圣灵苏醒并感动他,要立刻起程到新加坡去看望我;正如我向神祈求的─“如果你是神,你要让我看见你的爱。”那一刻,我哭着跟神说,“我虽然不知道你是谁,但我要认识你。”我实在看见神的伟大,他多次派遣人来劝止我,爱我、挽回我。神的爱大大感动了我,最终,我在九一年六月受浸成为基督徒。我能够作出这个决定,最开心的当然是为我祈祷了二十五年的家姐和姐夫,以及我那位流泪祷告多时、对我不离不弃的太太。他们一起流出喜乐的眼泪,看着我这个职业赌徒回头了。

赌徒咒诅化解 生命奇迹改变

路15: 4“你们中间谁有一百只羊失去一只,不把这九十九只撇在旷野,去找那失去的羊,直到找着呢?路15: 17我告诉你们:一个罪人悔改,在天上也要这样为他欢喜,较比为九十九个不用悔改的义人欢喜更大。

“就这样,我们邓家几代赌徒的咒诅给神化解了!自此以后,我不但与赌绝缘,而且还经常在教会做见证,告诫沉迷赌博的人,劝他们不要被这个罪恶捆绑。邓天兆有一段很长的时间,就在教会里全时间服事;后来,也当上财经顾问的工作,为的是赚点钱来支持一些基督教事工。”

从一个职业赌徒变成一个到处为神作见证的信徒,邓天兆生命的大改变,再次证明上帝是真的。你或你的家人可有沉溺在赌海之中无法自拔?这里有一位爱你们真神,等着你们回转。

宏观趋势

变革时代的启示,并总结了自工业革命以来科技创新的规律。从城市建设到工业革命,再到人工智能技术的发展,都展现了一种纵向整合的复杂系统模式。在新一轮科技变革中,小企业正成为主力军。然而,这些小企业在与大企业合作方面仍面临困难。

一、变革时代的启示:寻找历史韵脚

我们正处于一场深刻的变革之中,其影响深远,使未来的规律和成功法则与过去截然不同。换言之,若未掌握适当的方法,即便付出积极的努力,也可能难以取得理想的成果。

然而,若能预见未来,当他人尚无法洞察时,你便能率先认清局势,从而占据先发优势。许多成功者在事后回顾过往,感慨自己当年的实力,实际上多数成功者皆凭借运气,并果断地迈出了关键的一步,即早期介入。

我们坚信这个时代充满着巨大的机遇。当新的机会、趋势和规则逐渐呈现时,若能尽早把握,你便能成为第一批。

例如互联网的第一批包括BAT、百度、阿里、腾讯等公司,无线互联网的第一批则有字节、拼多多、滴滴等公司,他们的成就令人瞩目。

如今,我们每个人都可能成为智能革命的第一批。

1.变革时代下,躺赢时代已结束

我们过去在面对问题时总是寻找先例。在这种情况下,大家可能会陷入另一种迷茫境地:若没有可遵循的先例,我们如何找到前进的道路?难道真的只能如摸着石头过河一般探索前行吗?

幸好我们还有一条出路,那就是借鉴马克·吐温的名言:历史不会重复,但会押韵。我们可以回顾历史,寻找其中的韵脚,从而揭示当今的规律。

历史转折多次出现,每次转折到来时,若将视野拓展得更宽广,观察整个历史周期和完整的转折,便能发现过往转折前后的蛛丝马迹。据此,我们可以推断当前的转折将带来何种影响,指导我们未来的道路。

过去40年里,中国经历了持续稳定的快速发展,然而,任何一个经济体都无法长期维持超高速增长。随着我国经济规模的不断扩大,其发展态势逐渐趋于平稳。

经济发展的一般规律是波动起伏,有缓有急,同时伴有局部好坏之分。换言之,即使在经济发展的高速时期,部分地区的发展仍不尽如人意;而在经济状况欠佳的时期,仍有诸多积极因素值得关注。

这意味着过去大家都受益,未来能否成功取决于自己的选择。

① 达里奥“金融周期理论”的缺陷

鉴于有些人对未来30年可能陷入停滞的担忧,一种与经济周期理论相吻合的观点应运而生,即达里奥金融周期理论。

达里奥金融周期理论是指一个国家在发展到兴盛之后,如果出现衰败和大萧条,从零开始逐渐恢复到下一个繁荣的过程,时间会非常长。

实际上,在1929年大萧条之后,美国经历了经济的大繁荣阶段,从1945年二战结束到70年代初,经济高速发展长达近30年。这一发展历程与达里奥的理论存在矛盾。

1920年,经过第一次世界大战的洗礼,各国纷纷签署了和平协议,实现了握手言和。在这个时期,科技的发展为社会的进步带来曙光,众多先进科技,如收音机、电视机、电冰箱、洗衣机等陆续进入人们的生活。

由于一战的结束、科技的进步以及和平的到来,人们对未来充满了期待。因此20年代并非灰暗的时期,而是被誉为咆哮的20年代。

直至1928年,美国股市的资本利率达到5%,这引发了人们对股市投资热情的空前高涨。然而,由于过度预期,最终导致了1929年的大萧条。

大萧条并非由于经济不景气,而是经济好,预期更高。

② Carlota Perez卡洛塔·佩雷斯的“科技周期理论”

谈论创新经济学,不得不提及Carlota Perez卡洛塔·佩雷斯。她提出了科技周期理论,认为科技创新为社会带来实际收益需经历两大周期和4个小阶段,其中大周期分为导入期和展开期。

暂且不论小阶段,我们先了解导入期。导入期意味着科技已确立并在某一行业得到应用,带来广泛利益,但尚未普及至其他行业。此时,其他行业预期过高,泡沫破灭后,进而陷入低谷。

美国经济学家Diago Comin指出,经济体强弱的衡量标准并非引入先进科技的速度,而是使用先进科技的深度。

结合科技周期理论,我们可以洞悉经济危机的根源,尤其是1929年的经济危机。要推动社会发展,科技必须转化为实际产品,实现量产并让广大民众使用。

只有足够的深度,科技才能真正推动社会发展。

2.不同的科技,相似的拐点

当前我们面临的挑战与1929年存在相似之处。新一轮科技浪潮即将席卷各行各业,在这个过程中,我们需要保持警觉,避免过于热情,而是要扎实地将新技术引入各个领域。

我们强调科技深度的关键性。以人工智能领域为例,尽管新技术不断涌现,但我们仍需关注历史,尤其是工业革命时期的经验。在研究历史时,我们需要关注历史发展的深层结构,而非表面现象。

历史发展的深层结构是指科技推动社会发展的基本规律。在每一轮科技革命中,都会出现转折点。在这个转折点上,我们需要保持耐心,回顾上一轮科技革命的历程,特别是详细划分科技革命阶段。

当前,我们正在经历数字革命,这是虚拟产品的革命。虚拟产品革命正处于转折点,我们可以将完整的历史系统作为参照,更好地把握未来发展趋势。

我们有幸参与数字革命带来的巨大机遇,同时也有一个完整的历史参照系。通过借鉴历史发展的深层结构,我们有望在科技领域取得更为稳健的发展。

二、历史韵脚:工业革命的发展核心

1.工业革命之父:阿克莱特还是瓦特?

追溯工业革命的起源,瓦特因其改良的蒸汽机而被誉为工业革命之父。他的创新使得大规模生产成为可能。

需要注意的是,瓦特生产的蒸汽机数量仅为500台,而且完全是手工制造,没有实现规模化和工业化生产。这与我们通常认为的第一工业革命的核心倡导机械化、大规模生产有所背离。

瓦特的产品主要是蒸汽机,其生产方式并未实现规模化、工业化生产。本质上瓦特只生产了一个技术产品,蒸汽机的贡献主要集中在火车和轮船两个领域。然而,它在整个自动化生产流程中仅是一个环节。

全球范围内存在另一种观点,认为工业革命之父应归属于阿克莱特。相较之下,瓦特的知名度较高,阿克莱特同样对蒸汽机进行了改良。然而,与瓦特在原有蒸汽机上实现巨大效率提升不同,阿克莱特的改良旨在使其适用于自身工厂。

阿克莱特被誉为现代工厂之父,他推动的规模化生产正是工业革命的本质。阿克莱特采用复杂的机械设备将纺织流程全部自动化,形成了连续化、系统化、自动化的生产,这才是工业革命的精髓。

因此,我们可以说工业革命之父并非瓦特,而是阿克莱特。

2.莱特的启示:经验固化进生产流程

近年来,人工智能的发展引发了一系列恐慌和担忧,许多人担心人工智能会取代人类,导致广泛失业。回顾历史,纺织机械自动化是否真的导致了纺织工人大规模失业?

虽然历史上有纺织工人失业的情况,但是这并非普遍现象。当时拥有丰富经验和技能的高端纺织工人确实失业,同时也产生了大量的低端就业机会,使得就业人口大幅增长。

在纺织业发展初期,大部分工作都是手工完成,因此需要大量熟练工人。然而随着纺织机械的出现,情况发生了改变。纺织机械的自动化使得没有专业技能的人也能操作机器完成纺织工作。

工业革命的精髓在于将专家经验融入自动化系统,使没有经验的人也能操作系统,从而制作出比有经验的人更好的产品。

从历史角度来看,工业革命时期的纺织机械自动化并未导致大规模失业,反而创造了更多低端就业机会。同样地,今天的人工智能技术也将为我们的未来带来更多可能性和机会。

3.革命起源于英国,美国却是后来居上

英国作为工业革命的发源地,原本占据优势,然而并未掌握工业革命成功的关键因素。美国逐渐取而代之,成为工业重心的转移地。

① 美国盗火者塞缪尔·斯莱特

工业革命初期,英国的纺织技术相当于当今的芯片技术,因此英国限制纺织人才、机械和知识出口。

一位名叫塞缪尔·斯莱特的英国人,在14岁时到纺织厂做学徒,在14岁到21岁的7年时间里掌握了纺织业的所有秘密和技能,并将知识全部记录在脑海中,最终移民到美国。

最终斯莱特接管了一家运营不畅的美国纺织企业,不仅成功实现盈利,还组建了自己的工厂。

② 美国制造系统:Lowell模式

斯莱特将英国纺织经验传授到美国之后,波士顿的一位投资人Lowell发现建立纺织厂有利可图,便开始进行纵向整合,不仅仅是纺纱,还织布,甚至制作成衣。

在纵向整合时,用工复杂度增加,男女老少都可以工作。因此,他与波士顿的其他投资人在一片荒地上打造了崭新的城市,并以他的名字lowell命名。

这座城市的建设充分体现了纵向整合的纺织业复杂系统,实现了一体化生产。为了容纳工人,Lowell甚至在城市中设立了商店和娱乐设施。此外,他秉承了斯莱特的做法,关注员工的成长,设有周日文化课程,甚至聘请大学生为童工授课。

Lowell成功地找到了工业革命的秘诀整合式生产。在高效产出产品的同时,确保工厂的连续生产,从而保证利润。他并非出于善心改善员工环境,而是意识到这对企业有利。这种模式为我们今天提供了借鉴意义。

③ 福特打开了规模化制造大门

将工业革命的核心本质发挥到淋漓尽致的人不是阿克莱特,而是亨利·福特。

阿克莱特生产的纺织产品相对简单,汽车产品更加复杂,而福特使用流水线大幅提升了生产效率。

1913年福特年产轿车3万辆,于是他们部署了流水线,结果年产轿车248000辆,产量提升数倍,这就是流水线的威力。

值得注意的是,福特让我们看到了工业革命的三个核心:规模化生产、市场覆盖和消费。

实现规模化生产,通过流水线实现。规模化市场覆盖包括火车和轮船。规模化消费意味着尽量使产品价格更加便宜。

1916年福特t型车售价360美金,当时福特员工日薪约5美元,相当于72天的工资就可以购买一辆车。

最终福特在20年间销售了1600万辆T型车,这个纪录几十年后才被打破,实属难得。找到规律,按规律办事非常重要。

今天我们仍需向福特学习,不断探索和进步,以实现更大的发展。

三、历史韵脚再度出现:人工智能技术

在瓦特之前出现了蒸汽机,称为Newcomen蒸汽机,两者的应用领域高度相似,主要用于矿业、纺织、制造业、农业、军事等领域。目前GPT的应用领域与传统人工智能的应用领域非常相似,性能极大提升,但是领域没有扩张。因此很多人认为人工智能似乎只能实现效率提升。

蒸汽机确实提升了效率,但之后被运用到各个行业中,尤其是运输业。有了蒸汽轮船和蒸汽火车,世界的政治、经济、文化版图都发生了深刻的变革。更不用说有了自动化的纺织厂、枪炮厂、印刷厂,尤其到了福特以后,复杂产品都可以被制造。

蒸汽机出现了应用井喷,核心在于替代了人的经验。GPT之后是否会出现应用井喷?我的结论是一定会。

在人工智能时代,如果仅关注节能增效,就像蒸汽机时代只关注替代原有蒸汽机一样,会错失巨大机会。

1.开创全新应用模式与产业机遇

在人工智能技术尚未出现之前,美景的拍摄和后期制作需要团队协同完成。然而如今借助人工智能技术,仅需一人即可完成,其效率提升堪比蒸汽机革命。

正如蒸汽机技术不断完善并广泛应用于各个领域一样,人工智能技术的变革也是不容忽视的事实。

与过去的制作用具相比,现今的AI和GPT技术具有巨大优势。这不仅意味着效率的提升,更体现了能力和效率的全面增强。

这将开启一个充满机遇的新时代,引领多个产业进行革新,并催生众多新兴产业。我们坚信本轮人工智能的推动将孕育出新一代企业,如同当年的BAT、头条等。

随着人工智能的广泛应用,我们需要关注其深度发展以避免潜在危机。话说回来,即使2029年可能出现类似1929年的危机,但是不要忘记1945年之后是连续30年的大繁荣。

我们正面临未来30年的黄金发展期,这也是巨大的丰收期。

2.前瞻者才能抓住未来机遇

工业革命的巨大影响力不仅体现在福特等产业巨头的崛起,还孕育了洛克菲勒等商业巨头的诞生。

1863年,洛克菲勒开始涉足石油精炼业务,初期主要目标是生产煤油。随着他敏锐地察觉到汽车市场的潜在需求,果断调整了业务重心,将注意力转向汽油生产。这一决策凸显了他对未来产业发展趋势的深刻洞察。

芯片行业的巨头英伟达也经历了类似的转型历程。

起初,英伟达专注于图形加速技术,主要服务于电脑游戏玩家。然而随着人工智能技术的飞速发展,英伟达迅速把握住机遇,转型成为人工智能芯片领域的领军企业。

我们应该更加理性地看待游戏的影响。尽管游戏在某些人眼中可能被视为不良嗜好,但许多杰出的成就都是在游戏中得以磨练和启发。学习不佳不应简单地归咎于游戏,而是因为在学习不佳的情况下过度沉迷于游戏而受到批评。对于学习优秀的学生,游戏往往被视而不见。

以斯坦福大学研究生伊恩布克为例,他在玩游戏的过程中接触到了GPU技术,并利用校园资源构建了一个小型计算网络。这一经历引起了英伟达CEO黄仁勋的关注,他随后邀请伊恩布克开发CUDA软件系统,用于操纵GPU进行各种AI计算任务。

英伟达在校园中大力推广CUDA系统,使学生们在完成各种计算任务时能够充分利用GPU资源。这些学生在毕业后进入工作岗位时也会继续使用CUDA系统,从而形成了英伟达强大的护城河。

英伟达的真正竞争优势在于其完备的软件系统和生态。即使其他厂商在人工智能芯片性能上实现了领先,如果没有这套系统和生态,他们也很难超越英伟达。

3.科技行业的发展规律和未来趋势

回顾历史,我们会发现每10年就有一代企业在中国兴起。

科技发展的规律:3年看到成功模式,10年见证未来赢家。

科技企业的兴衰周期往往与时代潮流息息相关。2000年前后是互联网企业,例如bat;2010年前后是无线互联网企业,例如美团、字节和拼多多;2022年,将会出现一批新的人工智能企业。

历史经验表明,新兴企业在崛起初期可能会经历3年乃至5年的艰苦岁月,但一旦获得市场认可,便有望在5年甚至6年内锁定胜局。从那时起,这些企业将如同滚雪球般不断壮大。

如今,我们正处于见证下一轮智能革命赢家的时刻。预计在未来三年内,将有一批智能企业诞生,如同昔日的BAT。届时,新崛起的企业将有望在10年内超越现有巨头,创造新辉煌。

近期,拼多多的市值已超越阿里,但它尚未完全掌握无线互联网的精髓,未来仍有可能被阿里反超。然而,大趋势不可阻挡,无线互联网超越互联网已成为必然趋势。同样,字节跳动在某种程度上已超越腾讯。

我们有理由相信未来的智能企业将在2033年或2035年超越BAT、字节跳动、拼多多和美团。

4.成为人工智能时代的乔布斯

当年有程序员因技术问题当众为难乔布斯,但乔布斯回答说,你需要从用户体验出发倒推用什么技术,不能从技术出发思考如何才能卖出去。

瓦特作为提问者,他的思路是如何将蒸汽机做得更好,但不知道用来做什么。阿克莱特相当于乔布斯,思考的问题是如何实现纺织流程自动化。

你可能无法成为瓦特,但可以成为阿克莱特,甚至是乔布斯,他们才是真正的科技推动者。

乔布斯之所以伟大,是因为他理解了最前沿科技的能力极限。创业时要勇于挑战从未尝试过的事情,需要预先判断技术是否能实现,以便调整策略。

例如硅谷曾有一位被誉为女版乔布斯的伊丽莎白·霍姆斯,她试图打造一滴血检测200多个指标的设备,最终因技术不支持而失败。

CEO不必是研发科技的工程师或者科学家,但必须熟悉科技性能和能力边界,成为早期使用者。乔布斯并非智能手机的第一个发明者,但他让智能手机变得如此便捷,进而实现了普及。

企业家争取市场认可的第一,而非产品开发的第一。如果你是最早使用最先进科技的人,了解使用过程中的辛酸甘苦,并知道如何改进,使得每个人都可以顺畅地使用,那么你就是下一个乔布斯。

5.科技衍生全球产业链重构和线上社会

科技往往会产生涟漪效应,它不仅会直接产生产品和应用,还会带来社会的改变。其中两个涟漪效应非常显著,一个是全球产业链的重构,另一个是线上社会的建立。

① 全球产业链重构

第一,美国制造业外迁

影响全球产业链发展的重要因素是美国的制造业外迁。制造业外迁的逻辑是什么?

我们统计了从1981年至2020年美国不同规模企业的研发费用数据,从中可以观察到一个有趣的现象:1981年大约70%的研发费用来自大企业,这一规律逐渐被打破,目前大中小企业基本各占1/3。

恰逢美国在1980年推出拜杜法案,使更多专利进入市场。在这个过程中,大企业通常仅派出律师谈判技术转让,这使得小企业有机会获取科研成果,进而发展壮大。

当时美国出现了一股新思潮,经济学家认为企业CEO的单一考核指标应该是股东回报,这促使华尔街对企业的新评判标准发生变化。越来越多的企业为了使资产负债表更美观,满足华尔街的要求,开始甩掉制造业包袱,将制造业务外包。

大型企业将制造业务外包通常分为两个阶段:一是将工厂迁移国外,二是断绝与国内的商业从属关系,使其成为真正的轻资产公司。同时,如果大企业拥有研发能力,就可以实现控制,如果没有研发能力,就会失去控制。

许多大型企业纷纷将工厂迁移至制造成本更低廉的地区,如东南亚或者中国。由于原创性研发主要由小型企业承担,大型企业在搬迁过程中逐渐失去对工厂的控制,因此他们甚至要求这些地区的企业代为加工,将生产能力转让给当地企业。

新一轮科技变革使小企业成为科技创新的主力军。尽管他们与大企业难以合作,但与中国企业对接后,发生了良好的化学反应。

在跨国企业不断迁移制造业务的过程中,我国学会了开放性接受先进科技,培养了开放性复杂产品制造能力。

中国的开放性、大规模复杂产品制造能力是全球唯一。

第二,中国制造业的柔性生产能力

当前,创新企业的主要聚集地已转向外部,特别是小型科技企业。这些企业在与欧美大型企业对接制造业务时,面临诸多困难。

以一个实例为例,一位嘉宾研发了一款名为螳螂的摄像头系统,该系统具备先进的人脸识别和车牌识别功能。然而,在美国他找不到合适的合作伙伴来实现产品的研发和量产。这位嘉宾后来选择来到中国,在昆山成立公司,并成功地将该产品投入实际应用。

目前,虹桥机场已安装了这款摄像头系统。这个案例展示了中国的柔性生产能力。尽管这种能力可能是在与美国企业合作过程中意外培养出来的,但它为众多无法与美国大型企业成功合作的小型科技企业提供了出路。这使得中国在短时间内迅速崛起成为全球科技制造领域的领先者。

许多前沿产品在中国得以成功开发并实现商业化,例如盲人眼镜帮助盲人恢复视力,平衡仪帮助半规管损伤的人恢复正常生活等。虽然这些产品在美国可能难以实现开发和量产,但是在我国可以迅速实现商业化。

另一个重要因素是我国恢复高考和改革开放政策,这些政策为我们培养了大量人才,使我们有能力完成任务。

当前,尤其是人工智能和远程协同能力的快速发展使得混合现实等技术得以实现。这些技术结合虚拟现实和增强现实,使得远程工作变得更加顺畅。

这意味着产业生态将进一步发展,地理密度不再需要过于集中。我们追求的是产业密度即全球范围内的产业协同,因此我国的产业生态将迈向下一波全球化进程。

② 线上社会迁移

如今,许多中国企业在国际市场崭露头角,例如原神游戏已在全球80多个国家上线,受到广泛欢迎。原神不仅传播了中国文化,同时也弘扬了许多其他国家的文化。

另一个例子是TEMU,据说由于商品价格优势,许多美国一元店也受到了影响。

我们认为,上述现象的出现源于人们的消费行为已逐渐转向线上。

在数字化时代,我们的各种行为均可被数字化记录、跟踪分析,并受到线上互动的影响。因此,我们可以在线上了解全世界人民的行为和需求,并从中国向全世界销售产品。

例如,一家名为Shein的公司通过快速收集用户反馈,实现产品的加减量,以此将业务拓展至全球。

这标志着线上社会的转折点,我们将不再退回线下。

我们一直强调线上社会的特征是物理世界坍塌,社会规则永存。我们将越来越多地受心理距离影响,而不是受地理距离影响。例如在春节期间,人们聚在一起,孩子们更愿意与远程朋友聊天,而非与身边的亲人交流。

四、中国产业生态的变革与全球化趋势

1. 全产业链协同调优实现极致性能

成功的科技企业不仅仅局限于创造全新产品,更重要的是最大化提升现有技术的性能。

以特斯拉为例,其成功关键在于对电池技术的极致优化。通过对电池性能进行深度剖析和拆解,特斯拉实现了5项关键指标的综合提升,显著提高了能效。这一创新使得电动车业务模式得以实现,成为特斯拉真正的成功秘诀。

因此,真正的科技企业家或者科技企业应致力于性能调优。

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在欧洲投资多年的华人申林路先生指出,疫情期间,尽管我国处于封闭状态,但全行业的迭代速度仍然得到显著加快。这主要得益于我国所具备的全产业链协同效应,其中每个企业都在积极为整个产业链的优化贡献力量。复杂协作能力是我国真正的优势,体现了极致性能调优的优秀表现。

与其他国家相比,中国在生产新车型时展现出更高的效率。美国人或欧洲人生产新车型需要三年的设计周期,而中国人仅用三个月就能从构思到交车。这得益于我国全产业链上下协作调优的能力,这是我国真正的优势所在。

2.中国真正的优势:量产化

我们经常提及的中国优势,概括为三个字:量产化。

一位美国著名投资人彼得·蒂尔曾撰写了一本书《从0到1》,许多科技企业家将其视为圭臬。书中主张,原创性研究新产品,制造出原型才是关键,而原型的复制并无意义,可以交给中国OEM厂商或者外包商完成。

以我国为例,诸多创新产品如蛇片、平衡仪和盲人用品之所以选择在天津量产,是因为天津具备丰富的技术知识,对电子产品乃至开放性支持量产能力有着深厚基础。

天津是中国改革开放的缩影,无论产品多么复杂,中国都能实现量产。例如,每一代苹果产品都需要几百名工程师,花费几个月时间才能实现量产。

因此,我们提到从0到1和从1到100万,这两个1不同。从0到1,的1是原型,prototype,从1到100万的1是可量产的原型。这两个1之间隔着几百个工程师和几个月的工作量,以及大量对产业链和供应链的了解和经验,是遍布各环节的性能调优。

这是中国的真正优势,而非代工。

遗憾的是,中国人并不认为这是优势,甚至将其视为来料加工和代工。而国外也未能充分认识到这一优势。因此,我们发起了一场寻找能代表量产化英文单词的活动,以期让更多人了解中国的真正优势。

3. 从内卷到外卷,成为全球化新物种

中国在各个领域的内卷现象培育出了全产业链的极致优化能力,这无疑是我们所具备的一大优势。

我们不能仅满足于内卷状态,内卷是为了提升内部实力和提高效率。我们应该积极寻求海外市场,发挥效率优势。

虽然国内企业间的竞争可能异常激烈,但是在海外市场上我们往往能够找到相对的竞争优势。因此我们应该停止内卷,利用我们在内卷中取得的成果,积极拓展海外市场。

我们应认识到美国制造业回迁不仅仅是制造业的迁移,而是需要中国的供应链支持和制造业支持。我们不能简单地将制造业从中国迁至美国,而应实现中国制造业的全球化重新布局。

某些环节可以放在美国,以更贴近用户需求;另一些环节则可以继续留在国内,利用我们的优势。

所谓的制造业回迁应该是一个重构过程,而重构的主导者应该是中国人。当前产业链核心在中国,重构的主要目标是更好地满足用户需求,而非简单地迁出中国。

4.学习日本出海经验

关于中国企业迁移问题,我们需要重点学习日本以下三个方面。

① 影子日本:不是外迁,而是外溢

日本的产业链布局是全球化,从80年代开始,日本建厂大步全球化,与美国将制造业迁出相比,日本本国的生产没有消失,而是通过本国生产和全球生产共同发展形成更大的产业链和更强的竞争力。

中国也需要走过这一步,中国制造不应该仅限于中国,而应该在全球范围内。中国人需要根据全球最优布局,重新改变全球产业链,形成最优输出,这只有中国人才能完成。

日本是外溢而非外迁,本国制造不能扔掉。中国所有企业必须牢记全球化不是从中国搬到外国,没有中国的根基,优势就丧失,本土需要继续做强。

日本用了30年时间,在海外的GDP几乎等于国内GDP,被称为影子日本。

中国内卷了很多年,实力强大了,一旦出海,是否有可能用30年做一个影子中国?

如果有中国的支持,那么中国的经济一定会好起来。当时我们能将全球经济连成一体,使体量增大,对整体竞争力的提升将有巨大帮助,我们不可能在全球被别人打败。

② 借鉴经验:先进入发达经济体

全球经济体大致分为三类:发达经济体周边,例如墨西哥和新兴经济体。中国出海的步骤是先去新兴经济体和发展中国家,因为市场门槛低,所以容易进入。

门槛低是有原因的,由于市场经济不完善,进去容易,但是容易被关门打狗。小米在印度的遭遇不会是孤例。

日本首先布局发达经济体,等欧美布局完毕后才会来中国和其他新兴经济体。

顺序非常重要,虽然发达国家门槛较高,但是大家遵循相同的法律和标准,风险相对较低,可以进行预测。

企业经营不怕困难,只怕不可预测的风险。我们要学习日本的产品和服务先进于欧美,产生示范效应,就可以从欧美扩散到其他国家,反向示范效应不存在。

③ 经济转型期下的品牌战略与领导力

第一,通过提高性价比来打造成功品牌

有人认为未来几年中国经济的增速必然会降低,不会再高速增长,机会减少。我认为仍然有机会。

在这方面我们需要学习日本。日本过去30年增速较低,但是已经塑造了一批性价比超高的品牌,例如无印良品。既然已经具备优质的制造能力,就没有必要让知名品牌垄断我们的利润。

即使增长放缓,企业家仍然可以找到机会通过追求极致性价比,用具有优势的价格给用户最高体验,用极致性价比形成他人对我们品牌的信任。

通过磨炼形成的品牌出海,我们可以占领全球市场,成为全球新物种。

出海品牌不是简单地使用国内适用的产品进入海外市场,而是要做好面向海外市场的前置研发。

例如,制造剪草机的中国企业在向美国市场提供产品时,需要理解美国消费者的需求。因为在剪草后将草收集起来让垃圾车运走,而不是抛洒回草地,所以收集型比抛洒型更适用。

出海时需要针对对方需求进行前置研发,为当地用户开发产品,这样你才能取得成功。

第二,中国企业要学会领军,要有领导力

中国已经具备产业链优势,但是要成为最大赢家,仍然缺乏领导力。

领导力是指明整个产业链未来的方向,然后大家才能共同朝那个方向发展。

雷军和乔布斯都制作手机并上台演讲。雷军的演讲称为高端之路,告诉大家我的产品很棒。乔布斯则讲述他了解未来的发展方向,请相信我与他共同前进,实现共赢。

乔布斯讨论的是未来的方向,即如何协作以及如何一起塑造未来。他的演讲重点不是放在苹果的具体产品或者技术上,而是放在大家可以协作产生价值的未来方向。

这就是区别。

中国已经到了一个时点,许多科技前沿布局都很早,各个环节都有了一定的长板。但是我们几乎没有看到在全球能够领军的企业。例如电动车产业,虽然产业生态在中国,美国只有一个拿得出手的企业特斯拉,但它在领军全球。

领军的优势在于能够带走行业大部分利润。苹果厉害,它已经带走了整个手机产业的一半以上利润。这种情况未来在电动车产业发生的概率很大。

我们认为我国的竞争将进入下一个阶段,需要学会领军,指明方向,协同合作。

五、人工智能带来的机遇与挑战

回顾过去,人工智能仍然是最大的机会。我们反复强调,这个时代的核心就是人工智能。如今的人工智能正如蒸汽机一样,掀起数字革命,带来无数新机会。

1.人工智能发展的新方向

面对人工智能,有些人认为这是机会,有些人不这么看待。以AI下棋战胜人类为例,有三种看法。

第一种情况是围棋界alphago战胜李世石。有些中国棋手认为围棋不值得下,因为永远无法战胜AI。

第二种是国际象棋冠军卡斯帕罗夫被AI深蓝打败。虽然卡斯帕罗夫承认AI赢了自己,但是没有让他佩服。因此他开创了一种更出色的国际象棋玩法,即人机协同国际象棋比赛。这种人机协同的方式不仅赢了棋,还创造了国际象棋的新高度和美。

第三种是从韩国棋院的角度出发,每个人都可以请alpha担任教练。韩国棋院将训练教练改为人工智能,不仅可以随时陪伴你,还能永远高水平地教你。

通过这些你是否能够得到启示?

首先,我们需要学会与人工智能协同,千万不要与他竞争,把他当成工作伙伴。

其次,利用人工智能推出智能服务化产品。今天围棋教练的服务被批量复制,未来还好会有更多这样的智能服务出现。

以前能够实现规模化的只有产品和服务,而且越高端的产品越不能实现规模化,专家级服务越稀缺。未来AI将这两者结合,实现大规模提供、高端、个性化的持续服务。

目前大家讨论最多的仍然是AI大模型之争或者AI性能优化。

工业革命的经验已经给出了回答,蒸汽机出现后最大的机会不是围绕蒸汽机,而是让蒸汽机应用到产业中,例如阿克莱特式和乔布斯式。

AI大模型可以看作是蒸汽机,你会明白大量AI公司将倒闭,并非业务不成立,而是业务将来很危险,只是需要进行技术性能调优,将来可能被平台替代。

如今许多基于人工智能创业企业只有两种选择,要么破产,要么被收购。

未来的方向是服务规模化,提供智能服务,例如私人助理服务。每个人都想要有秘书,但现实中肯定不能实现。

拥有人工智能后,你的秘书可以无限复制,保证每个人都有秘书,即使只是秘书,也能帮助你完成秘书工作。

2. 人工智能的进化及应用前景

① 人工智能的四个进化阶段

人工智能未来有4个阶段:性能调优、降本增效、简单服务和复杂服务。具体来看:

第一,性能调优。性能调优是指通过优化算法和技术来提高人工智能的性能。

第二点是降本增效。通过应用人工智能技术降低成本并提高效率。

第三,简单服务。即一次就能为你解决问题的服务。例如,律师、审计师、会计师甚至心理咨询师,他们提供的都是单次服务,这种服务很容易被AI学会和标准化。

第四,复杂服务。复杂服务指的是能够持续伴随你、了解你并且为你提供长期个性化建议的服务。

② 智能服务应用前景

第一,健康服务

现代医学在技术上已经相当发达,理论上应该能够显著延长健康人的寿命。然而现代医学主要关注的是治疗疾病和挽救生命,对于未生病的人群,医学的作用相对有限。

因此,尽管经过多年的发展,我们对病人的理解已经相当深入,但对于健康人的生活方式、营养需求和预防措施等方面,我们所知甚少。

虽然我们拥有众多心血管专家和糖尿病专家,但是在健康管理方面却缺乏专业人士。随着人工智能和智能可穿戴设备的普及,我们有望开始构建专注于健康管理的专家系统。

例如天津海银落地的舌片平衡仪项目就是一个很好的例子。该项目能够接入未来的健康平台,通过人工智能分析,为每个人提供个性化的指导,帮助老年人预防摔倒的风险。这只是一个开始,未来我们有望借助这些先进技术,更好地管理和维护人们的健康。

第二,教育服务

现代教育体系的本质起源于工业革命时代。工业革命对于大规模、标准化协同工作有着迫切需求,因此需要培养具备特定技能和知识的专业人才。

这种需求促使高校将学科、系别和专业细分,每个专业都致力于标准化培养合格人才,如同工业生产中的螺丝钉。

目前许多学校对GPT持有抵触态度,其中一个重要原因是GPT掌握的知识超过了大部分教师,这可能会对教师的权威性造成冲击。然而,我们应当认识到,教育不仅仅是传授知识,更重要的是培养学生的思考和解决问题的能力。

随着人工智能的发展,它已经成为未来世界的必备工具。

使用GPT的人都知道Prompt技巧对于得到满意答案至关重要。因此,我们真正需要学习的是如何提出高质量的问题,从而让人工智能为我们提供有价值的答案。

未来的教育不应仅仅教会学生自行解答问题,而应该教会他们如何提问,并善于利用人工智能。虽然我们不需要培养时速百公里的驾驶员,但我们需要他们掌握驾驶技能。

第三,混合现实(MR)的技术

混合现实(MR)相较于虚拟现实VR有显著提升,不仅局限于虚拟环境中进行游戏,还能与现实世界互动,这将开启一系列全新的应用领域。

以教育为例,通过混合现实头显,用户可以在实际场景中进行互动学习。这种技术相当于为用户配备了一位随身的老师,能够随时与其进行互动并解答问题。

混合现实技术的后续发展将带来两个巨大机遇。首先,人工智能AI与自动驾驶技术的结合有望实现更智能化的交通出行。其次,机械臂与智能机器人的结合也将为未来机器人技术带来更多可能性。

3.未来人工智能带给生活的变化

随着AI技术的不断发展,人工智能将更加深入地渗透到我们的日常生活中。

未来,人们将不再感到孤单,而是会被高度智能化的人工智能帅哥美女所包围,这些帅哥美女将能够进行真实互动,为人们带来更加丰富和多彩的生活体验。就像游戏《完蛋,我被姐姐们包围了》所讲述的那样,一个男生被各种美女追着跑。

未来的人工智能依靠数据优势对你了如指掌,肯定会特别让你开心。早晚有一天,你的人工智能好友数量会超过你的人类好友数量,因为那些人工智能好友更全心全意地帮助你。

写在最后

我们经常提到科技推动世界的三个步骤,即行为改变、习惯改变和观念改变,这对每个人都是相同的。

首先,我们需要改变行为。从现在开始主动接受新科技和使用人工智能。请尽快使用尚未使用的设备。

其次,习惯改变。学会与机器配合,做好人机协同,培养人的机器智商。让每个人学会做AI时代的苏格拉底,通过不断地询问人工智能找到答案。

最后,观念改变。未来随着AI技术的深入融入我们生活,人类社交和生活的观念也会发生变化。

这种变化体现在三个方面:

第一,未来理念共同体是人类社交生活的中心。过去,大家会与邻居成为朋友,由于地理距离限制,只能认识这些人。未来,人们会与志同道合的人成为好友,因为心理距离更加重要。

第二,未来每个人都必须学会接纳焦虑。因为没有地理限制,人们不再简单从属某个组织,所以必须学会面对个人焦虑。

斯坦福大学进行了一项研究,发现只有你认为焦虑会损害你的健康,焦虑才会损害你的健康。

正如现代医学需要重新认识焦虑,我们每个人都要学会正确认识焦虑,这是正常的情绪反应。学会拥抱焦虑,焦虑状态很正常,享受焦虑能让你更优秀。

第三,未来每个人都要学会协作。

同样一桌美食,协作能让地狱变成天堂。

以前有一个长勺寓言,地狱就是桌上摆满了美食,周边饥肠辘辘的人,每个人都拿着很长的勺子,却吃不到勺子里的食物。天堂中一切都一样,只是人们互相喂食。

在智能服务时代,每个人都能更好地发挥自己的专长。中年人不必为了养生成为喝枸杞茶的半吊子健康专家,AI会为你提供长寿服务。

你需要将自己的长处发挥到极致,并且让AI将其转化为智能服务提供给其他人。这样未来世界会非常丰富多彩,每个人都需要找到自己最擅长和最热爱的部分。

在未来世界,人与人的联系会更加紧密。智能革命后,人与人之间大量提供服务。虽然背后由人工智能提供,但是前面仍有人与你互动。

历史韵脚再次出现,工业革命让许多人掌握了机械化工作技能。智能服务革命后,更多人掌握了高端服务能力,每个人都能成为高端服务的一部分。随着人工智能的不断进步,服务水平将继续提升。

未来不仅有GDP增长,还能让每个人发挥自己的优势去服务他人,提供者获得成就感,接受者获得便利,构建新时代。