Sammi Cheng, a diva-level super-artist in the Chinese music scene, has sold more than 2,500 million albums worldwide since 1990, becoming one of the most successful female singers in Hong Kong. She is also one of the most popular and highest-paid actresses in the Hong Kong film industry and has appeared in many blockbuster films.

Sammi Cheng held a concert of gospel songs, and Sammi Cheng published a gospel album. However, after filming the last movie “Song of Long Hatred” in 2005, Sammi Cheng suddenly disappeared, which aroused great curiosity in the media, and even once reported negative news such as serious illness and death. This three-year-long “extraordinary period” was the darkest part of her life, but it was a real experience of God’s life process.

In 2010, the reborn Sammi Cheng stood on the stage again with confidence and had a completely different vision of life and the world. With a heart that has been refined and full of enthusiasm for her mission, she generously confesses her faith journey through music, and speaks for God in the style that belongs to Sammi Cheng, conveying the surging love and faith in her heart.

Recently, Sammi Cheng was interviewed by “True Love Blog”, she took off the halo of a star, and confessed God’s great love to the audience and friends, during the interview, she was choked up and cried because of her emotion, and her innocent smile told the world “I am fine now by God!” In front of the camera, she restored her true self, did not shy away from her true age, and revealed that she lost herself by chasing wrong values before believing in the Lord, and even asked God for divination to predict the future, as well as the unknown powerlessness during her illness.

The real life of the “diva”.

Zheng Xiuwen, 38 years old this year, has debuted for 20 years. She entered the singing scene in 1999 when she participated in the third place in the 7th Hong Kong Rookie Singing Competition, Anita Mui was the first place in that year, this competition can be called the pedal of Hong Kong’s king and queen, Sammi Cheng recalled that year, “I participated in the competition only because I was not very good at reading, and I was quite interested in singing, so I tried it, and participated in the competition with a random mentality.” My personality is so desperate, so thorough, and I do everything without hesitation and courageously. ”

‘s strong willpower has made Sammi Cheng brilliant today, and at the same time, it also brought her collisions and injuries for a time. In the torrent of showbiz competition, she chases the worldly and wrong values instilled in society, equating ranking, money, and beauty with Sammi Cheng and her survival value.

“I care a lot about rankings, this represents Sammi Cheng, and it’s over without rankings. My values have always been very wrong, I have been chasing the wrong values of the world, chasing after them, chasing after them, chasing after me, thinking that these things alone are equal to my survival values. There is often a black hole in my heart that I feel that this can be filled. But then I found out that I had to be saved by God’s love to fill it. This is the voice of Sammi Cheng’s heart. To prosper in the entertainment industry, she wants to predict and control the future and often tells fortunes for a while. Sammi Cheng admitted frankly that this is something he is very reluctant to expose.

To achieve an ideal figure, Sammi Cheng only ate two apples for seven consecutive days, and even if he fainted, he had to maintain the eternal glamorous diva in everyone’s eyes. Especially when she took over the filming of “Thin Men and Women” to play the heroine who was fat and thin, to complete the filming task, Zheng Xiuwen also gained weight and lost weight in a short period. The process shattered Sammi Cheng, who was struggling to lose weight, unable to eat every day, and running desperately. When it was over, “I was like a dead worm, slumped on the couch, too tired to do it.” I was weak physically, and even weaker in mind. But I knew that in ten days, I would shoot again, and I would wear a cheongsam again, and I would become a fair lady. ”

In the past, Sammi Cheng was a big owner of many brands and was keen on luxury. “I used to be crazy about buying clothes and going to designer stores. They would treat me very specially, and when they saw me, they would shout ‘Miss Zheng is here…… and then they would push out the hangers, all the latest clothes. I feel contented, I have a halo on my head. I found that I really needed these things to glorify myself and wrap myself. ”

Driven by perfectionism and strong willpower, Zheng Xiuwen was scarred, “The pursuit of perfection has brought me a lot of harm, and I often can’t hear the needs of my heart.” I thought that money and beauty were everything, but I didn’t expect that the process of pursuing it made me feel hurt. I put a lot of wrong values on myself, how can I bear such heavy pressure with such a small heart? I often ignore my feelings, such as sadness, physical needs, and rest. ”

Outbreak of depression

Zheng Xiuwen has lived under a strong appearance of camouflage for a long time, chasing fame and fortune, but also being overwhelmed by the aura of fame, and continuing to confront the huge workload and inexplicable low tide. In 2005, with a heavy sense of powerlessness, she took over the work of the heroine of the movie “Song of Long Hatred”. This eventually became the straw that broke the camel’s back, overwhelming her and causing her to develop depression. After filming the last shot of “Song of Long Hatred”, Zheng Xiuwen was like an oil lamp, and the oil ran out.

During that process, rumors spread from the outside world, either true or false. Many people say that Sammi Cheng is “too deep in the play” and “possessed by the role”. Zheng Xiuwen was noncommittal about this statement, and now she revealed: “I don’t think I can’t jump, but this excuse also makes me breathe a sigh of relief.” I was depressed to the point where I couldn’t do it, and people said that so that I didn’t have to explain that I had depression. ”

As early as the filming of “Thin Men and Women”, Zheng Xiuwen’s mental condition begins to weaken, but she has a strong appearance, Zheng Xiuwen self-dissected: “It’s not that filming “Song of Long Hatred” makes me depressed, but that I make this movie with melancholy. She also revealed: “At that time, there were a lot of advertising contracts, but on the day of filming, I couldn’t work because of a heavy sense of powerlessness, everything was ready, I just couldn’t get out of the room, and at the last moment I had to call the assistant to say that I was sick.” So I kept losing money, and a lot of the chaos was because of depression. ”

Sammi Cheng stopped all work and stayed at home behind closed doors. In order to get rid of the feeling of powerlessness and melancholy, she desperately read to release her emotions, devoted herself to every novel, invested in each protagonist, read until she was about to lose herself, and did not eat or sleep. This process made Sammi Cheng feel a little “withdrawn”, forgetting the melancholy and powerlessness for a while.

But when she faced this feeling of powerlessness, life had become completely meaningless. She didn’t look in the mirror for a month and didn’t take a shower for seven days. “It’s like I’m living in a little wooden box with only one person in it, and you can’t seem to breathe or smell the outside world. And when I wake up in the morning, I feel a lot of despair. In this way, Sammi Cheng “ran to sleep during the day, closed the windows, and made the room black.” In the evening, when the moon comes out, you can get active, go out to eat, and watch TV. ”

At first, Sammi Cheng didn’t realize that it might be depression. She also refuses to admit it, she doesn’t dare to face it, she doesn’t dare to touch it, and it may be depression. Sammi Cheng chose to escape and retreat into the small world to see if the situation would be better.

God saves the lost

God personally searches for the lost, and when Sammi Cheng’s depression is at its worst, she often hears a voice, “Sammi Cheng, I can save you this time.” It’s not the doctor, it’s me, God. You pray!” The voice was strong and long-lasting, lingering in Zheng Xiuwen’s ears. Sammi Cheng remembered that when she was a teenager, she made a decision to pray with her Christian sister and said that she would follow God. Because she was very young at the time, she didn’t take her faith very seriously. “After praying, I forgot about fortune-telling, worship, everything. But I didn’t expect that at the bottom of my life, it was God who came to save me. ”

In his hut, Sammi Cheng began to pray. She hopes to live in fellowship but can’t get along with the crowd, so Sammi Cheng prays for God to open the way. Zheng Xiuwen knelt, sometimes he was lazy and lay down, sometimes he sat down, sometimes he cried very much, sometimes he was very excited, sometimes he would shout ‘You want to save me’, and sometimes he was quieter. “Prayer has a lot of comfort for my emotions and a lot of exile for my emotions. The negative emotions that I had accumulated were slowly healed through prayer, and I slowly saw God’s guidance to me step by step. ”

Eight months later, God placed Sammi Cheng in a special Bible study class and asked her to face her problems seriously. On the first day, I went to the Bible study class, and when I heard the hymn and remembered it, Sammi Cheng’s tears burst into tears. “I took some of the very serious pain in it, and some of the negative emotions that bothered me in it, all of them flowed out with tears. It was a kind of ‘very quiet collapse.'”

Sammi Cheng’s life is a reversal from prayer, and she emphasizes the importance of prayer: “So I think prayer is very important, and you can only know that it is God’s response when you pray. If you don’t pray, how do you know it’s God’s leading?”

In the light of the Holy Spirit, she truly faced herself. “We all like to conform to the values of this world, and most of us don’t dare to live our lives, including me. My name is Sammi Cheng! When I have a lot of things that everyone desires, I find that I have nothing in my heart. ”

Sammi Cheng also realized that fortune-telling, a stupid method, could not predict the future. When she was experiencing depression, these things didn’t help her get up at all. “I have to have a lot of power to save my outlook on life, my values, and turn them around. There was no way to tell fortunes, they wrote something to me, and I burned it completely. I have nothing to worry about in my future, so I’ll leave it to God. I walked every day with the confidence he gave me. He will give me the strength to overcome the difficulties he gave me. ”

To get out of the slump, Sammi Cheng bravely begged God: “Give me the courage to face the crowd again, I hope to do a concert.” You don’t give me success, I beg you to give me the strength to take this step so that I can start again. After three years of depression, Sammi Cheng held a comeback concert, she felt very deeply when she got up that day, and quietly wrote a letter to herself, every word from the bottom of her heart, she read it publicly during the concert, which made the audience sigh, she remembered that at the end she said to herself: “The most important thing is that your courage is back.” Speaking of this, Zheng Xiuwen choked up.

God not only gave Sammi Cheng a new life but also wore away many weaknesses in her personality. She examined that she had been selfish and bad-tempered in the past and that she had pretended to be “straightforward,” and that the Bible had made her understand that love was “not boastful or arrogant,” and she understood: “Selfish people are not happy, but through these three years, God has given me a lot of training, and many of my shortcomings have been worn out.” Now I still have a lot of bad things, but I am willing to obey. I cherish my relationships with people, and that joy is important. I still have a lot of shortcomings, but I’m willing to obey. ”

Righteousness is the gospel

Re-engaged in work, Sammi Cheng has a different mission, “I still like work and the feeling of hard work, but I used to pursue a sense of achievement, but now I have a great sense of mission to publish gospel albums and write certificates.” Very subtly, my life can be inspiring, and the more painful it is, the more it is worth it! Now many people in pain will talk to me, many people are curious about the help of faith, and I use my little story to let people know the power of God, and I love this character very much. ”

“God has given me peace, courage, and ability, so I don’t worry about sales or how I’m going to be defined from day one, and the more I don’t think about that, the more God will be more preserving,” Sammi Cheng said. My motivation is pure, I want to tell my story and people will be helped. Unexpectedly, as soon as the gospel album was released in Hong Kong, sales immediately soared, and she donated all her royalties to help many charities, as she said: “The less you worry, the purer your motives, the greater God’s help.” ”

Using his life to testify to God, Sammi Cheng said that he “has no hesitation”, “I have published a book without hesitation, and I have said that I have to write without hesitation.” I struggled to write this book, and I told my Bible study sisters that I was in pain, that I didn’t want to write, that I didn’t want to open myself, that I had to open up my worst things, and that I couldn’t resist as long as people punched me. I struggled, but I obeyed. How to write, I went through a lot of prayers. When I was writing, I found that I couldn’t stop, and God was writing for me. After writing this book in obedience to God, Sammi Cheng felt a sense of healing, and she found that when she could calmly spread out as history, depression was truly over.

She used to be too busy, but now she cherishes the time she spends with her family, and she has also changed from blindly accepting the role of love to loving communication. Zheng Xiuwen said that she has expectations for love and reflects on the past, “I used to be the one who received love, and in the future, I hope that the love I will talk about is reciprocal, I can be loved and loved.” ”

With a new experience of love, Sammi Cheng embraced and cared for the soul openly. She went to the hospital to preach the gospel, and went to the mountains of Yunnan to be a teacher for a week, lived in the house of the first old woman, and ate coarse tea and light rice, but she said: “The soul is like eating a tonic, and life is abundant.” She plans to go with two friends every year. Once in Mongolia, I helped a child who lost his parents to take a bath, and the water was black when he washed out, seeing the child soaking in the bathtub and being happy like a duckling, Zheng Xiuwen said: “I felt like a mother at that moment!”

Zheng Xiuwen, who is Xi to being surrounded by fancy clothes and material things, now prefers to spend his time preaching the gospel or listening to the difficulties of friends. Now Sammi Cheng is like a caring angel and a good friend to everyone, she encourages the audience and friends: “God’s love is impartial, as long as you trust, you will find it.” If you are not a believer, it is advisable to start with a small prayer. ”