圣商恩典[98]爱…

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我若有先知讲道之能，也明白各样的奥秘，各样的知识，而且有全备的信，叫我能够移山，却没有爱，我就算不得什么。【林前13:2】

随着信息、知识的泛滥，人们都在不断寻求扩大自己的资源、能力和权力范围。在互联网时代，知识不仅是力量，也是资源和权力。年青人读书，目的也完全被卷入了能力圈、资源圈的竞争。

尽管我们都不否认爱的重要性，但我们的教育系统、商业生态和整个社会都完全没有增加爱的知识和能力的培训和投入，甚至事实上还在减少。圣经明确的告诉我们，爱才是上帝的本质，智慧和能力都是在爱里才能有方向，产生正价值！

今天，让我们明白，没有爱，知识和能力可能会害人害己。没有爱，就无法与神同在！奉主蒙恩! 阿们!

圣商恩典[97]神…

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天怎样高过地，照样，我的道路高过你们的道路；我的意念高过你们的意念。【赛55:9】

爱德基金会圣经印刷公司的圣经库房，在一个夏季里的连日大雨中，屋顶一些地方突然开始漏水了。如果圣经书籍被水浸泡，损失之大不堪设想！

当总经理焦急地带着员工，拿着防水布，准备把圣经和其他书籍重新包裹的时候，却惊奇地发现，漏雨的地方都在过道处，圣经书籍没有被水淹到，毫发无损。大家不禁赞叹和感恩神的做为，都感叹神的办法是我们人想不到的！

今天，让我们感叹，上帝的道路、上帝的意念、上帝的做为是多么的超越我们的所见所想！哈利路亚！奉主蒙恩! 阿们!

Testimony…

Sammi Cheng, a diva-level super-artist in the Chinese music scene, has sold more than 2,500 million albums worldwide since 1990, becoming one of the most successful female singers in Hong Kong. She is also one of the most popular and highest-paid actresses in the Hong Kong film industry and has appeared in many blockbuster films.

Sammi Cheng held a concert of gospel songs, and Sammi Cheng published a gospel album. However, after filming the last movie “Song of Long Hatred” in 2005, Sammi Cheng suddenly disappeared, which aroused great curiosity in the media, and even once reported negative news such as serious illness and death. This three-year-long “extraordinary period” was the darkest part of her life, but it was a real experience of God’s life process.

In 2010, the reborn Sammi Cheng stood on the stage again with confidence and had a completely different vision of life and the world. With a heart that has been refined and full of enthusiasm for her mission, she generously confesses her faith journey through music, and speaks for God in the style that belongs to Sammi Cheng, conveying the surging love and faith in her heart.

Recently, Sammi Cheng was interviewed by “True Love Blog”, she took off the halo of a star, and confessed God’s great love to the audience and friends, during the interview, she was choked up and cried because of her emotion, and her innocent smile told the world “I am fine now by God!” In front of the camera, she restored her true self, did not shy away from her true age, and revealed that she lost herself by chasing wrong values before believing in the Lord, and even asked God for divination to predict the future, as well as the unknown powerlessness during her illness.

The real life of the “diva”.

Zheng Xiuwen, 38 years old this year, has debuted for 20 years. She entered the singing scene in 1999 when she participated in the third place in the 7th Hong Kong Rookie Singing Competition, Anita Mui was the first place in that year, this competition can be called the pedal of Hong Kong’s king and queen, Sammi Cheng recalled that year, “I participated in the competition only because I was not very good at reading, and I was quite interested in singing, so I tried it, and participated in the competition with a random mentality.” My personality is so desperate, so thorough, and I do everything without hesitation and courageously. ”

‘s strong willpower has made Sammi Cheng brilliant today, and at the same time, it also brought her collisions and injuries for a time. In the torrent of showbiz competition, she chases the worldly and wrong values instilled in society, equating ranking, money, and beauty with Sammi Cheng and her survival value.

“I care a lot about rankings, this represents Sammi Cheng, and it’s over without rankings. My values have always been very wrong, I have been chasing the wrong values of the world, chasing after them, chasing after them, chasing after me, thinking that these things alone are equal to my survival values. There is often a black hole in my heart that I feel that this can be filled. But then I found out that I had to be saved by God’s love to fill it. This is the voice of Sammi Cheng’s heart. To prosper in the entertainment industry, she wants to predict and control the future and often tells fortunes for a while. Sammi Cheng admitted frankly that this is something he is very reluctant to expose.

To achieve an ideal figure, Sammi Cheng only ate two apples for seven consecutive days, and even if he fainted, he had to maintain the eternal glamorous diva in everyone’s eyes. Especially when she took over the filming of “Thin Men and Women” to play the heroine who was fat and thin, to complete the filming task, Zheng Xiuwen also gained weight and lost weight in a short period. The process shattered Sammi Cheng, who was struggling to lose weight, unable to eat every day, and running desperately. When it was over, “I was like a dead worm, slumped on the couch, too tired to do it.” I was weak physically, and even weaker in mind. But I knew that in ten days, I would shoot again, and I would wear a cheongsam again, and I would become a fair lady. ”

In the past, Sammi Cheng was a big owner of many brands and was keen on luxury. “I used to be crazy about buying clothes and going to designer stores. They would treat me very specially, and when they saw me, they would shout ‘Miss Zheng is here…… and then they would push out the hangers, all the latest clothes. I feel contented, I have a halo on my head. I found that I really needed these things to glorify myself and wrap myself. ”

Driven by perfectionism and strong willpower, Zheng Xiuwen was scarred, “The pursuit of perfection has brought me a lot of harm, and I often can’t hear the needs of my heart.” I thought that money and beauty were everything, but I didn’t expect that the process of pursuing it made me feel hurt. I put a lot of wrong values on myself, how can I bear such heavy pressure with such a small heart? I often ignore my feelings, such as sadness, physical needs, and rest. ”

Outbreak of depression

Zheng Xiuwen has lived under a strong appearance of camouflage for a long time, chasing fame and fortune, but also being overwhelmed by the aura of fame, and continuing to confront the huge workload and inexplicable low tide. In 2005, with a heavy sense of powerlessness, she took over the work of the heroine of the movie “Song of Long Hatred”. This eventually became the straw that broke the camel’s back, overwhelming her and causing her to develop depression. After filming the last shot of “Song of Long Hatred”, Zheng Xiuwen was like an oil lamp, and the oil ran out.

During that process, rumors spread from the outside world, either true or false. Many people say that Sammi Cheng is “too deep in the play” and “possessed by the role”. Zheng Xiuwen was noncommittal about this statement, and now she revealed: “I don’t think I can’t jump, but this excuse also makes me breathe a sigh of relief.” I was depressed to the point where I couldn’t do it, and people said that so that I didn’t have to explain that I had depression. ”

As early as the filming of “Thin Men and Women”, Zheng Xiuwen’s mental condition begins to weaken, but she has a strong appearance, Zheng Xiuwen self-dissected: “It’s not that filming “Song of Long Hatred” makes me depressed, but that I make this movie with melancholy. She also revealed: “At that time, there were a lot of advertising contracts, but on the day of filming, I couldn’t work because of a heavy sense of powerlessness, everything was ready, I just couldn’t get out of the room, and at the last moment I had to call the assistant to say that I was sick.” So I kept losing money, and a lot of the chaos was because of depression. ”

Sammi Cheng stopped all work and stayed at home behind closed doors. In order to get rid of the feeling of powerlessness and melancholy, she desperately read to release her emotions, devoted herself to every novel, invested in each protagonist, read until she was about to lose herself, and did not eat or sleep. This process made Sammi Cheng feel a little “withdrawn”, forgetting the melancholy and powerlessness for a while.

But when she faced this feeling of powerlessness, life had become completely meaningless. She didn’t look in the mirror for a month and didn’t take a shower for seven days. “It’s like I’m living in a little wooden box with only one person in it, and you can’t seem to breathe or smell the outside world. And when I wake up in the morning, I feel a lot of despair. In this way, Sammi Cheng “ran to sleep during the day, closed the windows, and made the room black.” In the evening, when the moon comes out, you can get active, go out to eat, and watch TV. ”

At first, Sammi Cheng didn’t realize that it might be depression. She also refuses to admit it, she doesn’t dare to face it, she doesn’t dare to touch it, and it may be depression. Sammi Cheng chose to escape and retreat into the small world to see if the situation would be better.

God saves the lost

God personally searches for the lost, and when Sammi Cheng’s depression is at its worst, she often hears a voice, “Sammi Cheng, I can save you this time.” It’s not the doctor, it’s me, God. You pray!” The voice was strong and long-lasting, lingering in Zheng Xiuwen’s ears. Sammi Cheng remembered that when she was a teenager, she made a decision to pray with her Christian sister and said that she would follow God. Because she was very young at the time, she didn’t take her faith very seriously. “After praying, I forgot about fortune-telling, worship, everything. But I didn’t expect that at the bottom of my life, it was God who came to save me. ”

In his hut, Sammi Cheng began to pray. She hopes to live in fellowship but can’t get along with the crowd, so Sammi Cheng prays for God to open the way. Zheng Xiuwen knelt, sometimes he was lazy and lay down, sometimes he sat down, sometimes he cried very much, sometimes he was very excited, sometimes he would shout ‘You want to save me’, and sometimes he was quieter. “Prayer has a lot of comfort for my emotions and a lot of exile for my emotions. The negative emotions that I had accumulated were slowly healed through prayer, and I slowly saw God’s guidance to me step by step. ”

Eight months later, God placed Sammi Cheng in a special Bible study class and asked her to face her problems seriously. On the first day, I went to the Bible study class, and when I heard the hymn and remembered it, Sammi Cheng’s tears burst into tears. “I took some of the very serious pain in it, and some of the negative emotions that bothered me in it, all of them flowed out with tears. It was a kind of ‘very quiet collapse.'”

Sammi Cheng’s life is a reversal from prayer, and she emphasizes the importance of prayer: “So I think prayer is very important, and you can only know that it is God’s response when you pray. If you don’t pray, how do you know it’s God’s leading?”

In the light of the Holy Spirit, she truly faced herself. “We all like to conform to the values of this world, and most of us don’t dare to live our lives, including me. My name is Sammi Cheng! When I have a lot of things that everyone desires, I find that I have nothing in my heart. ”

Sammi Cheng also realized that fortune-telling, a stupid method, could not predict the future. When she was experiencing depression, these things didn’t help her get up at all. “I have to have a lot of power to save my outlook on life, my values, and turn them around. There was no way to tell fortunes, they wrote something to me, and I burned it completely. I have nothing to worry about in my future, so I’ll leave it to God. I walked every day with the confidence he gave me. He will give me the strength to overcome the difficulties he gave me. ”

To get out of the slump, Sammi Cheng bravely begged God: “Give me the courage to face the crowd again, I hope to do a concert.” You don’t give me success, I beg you to give me the strength to take this step so that I can start again. After three years of depression, Sammi Cheng held a comeback concert, she felt very deeply when she got up that day, and quietly wrote a letter to herself, every word from the bottom of her heart, she read it publicly during the concert, which made the audience sigh, she remembered that at the end she said to herself: “The most important thing is that your courage is back.” Speaking of this, Zheng Xiuwen choked up.

God not only gave Sammi Cheng a new life but also wore away many weaknesses in her personality. She examined that she had been selfish and bad-tempered in the past and that she had pretended to be “straightforward,” and that the Bible had made her understand that love was “not boastful or arrogant,” and she understood: “Selfish people are not happy, but through these three years, God has given me a lot of training, and many of my shortcomings have been worn out.” Now I still have a lot of bad things, but I am willing to obey. I cherish my relationships with people, and that joy is important. I still have a lot of shortcomings, but I’m willing to obey. ”

Righteousness is the gospel

Re-engaged in work, Sammi Cheng has a different mission, “I still like work and the feeling of hard work, but I used to pursue a sense of achievement, but now I have a great sense of mission to publish gospel albums and write certificates.” Very subtly, my life can be inspiring, and the more painful it is, the more it is worth it! Now many people in pain will talk to me, many people are curious about the help of faith, and I use my little story to let people know the power of God, and I love this character very much. ”

“God has given me peace, courage, and ability, so I don’t worry about sales or how I’m going to be defined from day one, and the more I don’t think about that, the more God will be more preserving,” Sammi Cheng said. My motivation is pure, I want to tell my story and people will be helped. Unexpectedly, as soon as the gospel album was released in Hong Kong, sales immediately soared, and she donated all her royalties to help many charities, as she said: “The less you worry, the purer your motives, the greater God’s help.” ”

Using his life to testify to God, Sammi Cheng said that he “has no hesitation”, “I have published a book without hesitation, and I have said that I have to write without hesitation.” I struggled to write this book, and I told my Bible study sisters that I was in pain, that I didn’t want to write, that I didn’t want to open myself, that I had to open up my worst things, and that I couldn’t resist as long as people punched me. I struggled, but I obeyed. How to write, I went through a lot of prayers. When I was writing, I found that I couldn’t stop, and God was writing for me. After writing this book in obedience to God, Sammi Cheng felt a sense of healing, and she found that when she could calmly spread out as history, depression was truly over.

She used to be too busy, but now she cherishes the time she spends with her family, and she has also changed from blindly accepting the role of love to loving communication. Zheng Xiuwen said that she has expectations for love and reflects on the past, “I used to be the one who received love, and in the future, I hope that the love I will talk about is reciprocal, I can be loved and loved.” ”

With a new experience of love, Sammi Cheng embraced and cared for the soul openly. She went to the hospital to preach the gospel, and went to the mountains of Yunnan to be a teacher for a week, lived in the house of the first old woman, and ate coarse tea and light rice, but she said: “The soul is like eating a tonic, and life is abundant.” She plans to go with two friends every year. Once in Mongolia, I helped a child who lost his parents to take a bath, and the water was black when he washed out, seeing the child soaking in the bathtub and being happy like a duckling, Zheng Xiuwen said: “I felt like a mother at that moment!”

Zheng Xiuwen, who is Xi to being surrounded by fancy clothes and material things, now prefers to spend his time preaching the gospel or listening to the difficulties of friends. Now Sammi Cheng is like a caring angel and a good friend to everyone, she encourages the audience and friends: “God’s love is impartial, as long as you trust, you will find it.” If you are not a believer, it is advisable to start with a small prayer. ”

恩典见证 32.郑…

Testimony…

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Deng Tianzhao: The miracle of life of the “King of Gambling”.

His story was made into a movie by the Hong Kong Video and Audio Mission many years ago [God of Gamblers]

He described it like a movie, and he can instantly “change cards” and “win every gamble”

Deng Tianzhao at a gambling gospel dinner

He won more than 80 million Hong Kong dollars “King of Gambling” Deng Tianzhao, lost all his money in half a year, huge debt, miserable, and finally when he was at the lowest point in his life, and planned to commit suicide to end his life, the true god of love found him and immediately saved his 。

Four generations of professional gamblers Four generations have been governed by the curse of gambling

Born in Malaysia at the age of 46, Tang Tien Siu was a professional gambler before he believed in Jesus. “My great-grandfather, grandfather and father were all professional gamblers,” he said. By the age of three, I had fallen in love with money, and at a young age, I loved to hold it close to my nose and smell it. I learned to gamble at the age of seven, and for twenty-eight years, I never left the table. Whether I was studying at university in London, England, or back in Malaysia to help my dad in the construction business, I never forgot to gamble. ”

In 84 years, due to the economic recession in Malaysia, the construction industry also blew a weak wind, and Father Deng proposed that Tianzhao go to the port together. The purpose of their travel is not to see the mountains, rivers, and scenic spots, but to visit different casinos in Australia. According to Mr. Tang, “There are casinos in four or five states in Australia, and we have a lot of fun gambling there every day. At that time, I did a little statistic that my “record” was not good 85 years ago, and I lost more than I won, but from January to November 85, I won as much as 30,000 Australian dollars, which is equivalent to 60,000 ringgit, which is quite an attractive amount!”

“Changing cards” supernatural power actually “wins every gamble”

At the end of November of the same year, in the Australian casino, this professional gambler Deng Tianzhao and a local foreign master who is famous for playing baccarat launched a tense and exciting “decisive battle” in the surrounding commotion. Deng Tianzhao recalled the scene and said: “For a time, the crowd around me became my cheerleaders; they vigorously advocated that I should fight for the Chinese. When I got the first hand, I secretly cried out that it was not good, because I had accumulated 23 years of gambling experience, and I learned from the sixth inspiration that my opponent’s hand was “eight” and mine was “zero”, in other words, as soon as the card was dealt, I was the loser. I kept muttering in my heart, “I have to be nine, I have to be nine.” “Unexpectedly, when I opened the card, mine turned out to be a “nine-point” win. At that moment, I exclaimed, “There are ghosts, there are ghosts!” and then my whole body trembled, and I repeated many times, “No reason; ”

“I didn’t bet on the second game. In the third game, the process was the same as the first game, and I won the next game with “nine points”. At that time, I couldn’t help but shout with joy: “I am developed!” Because I have the transcendent power to change cards, and I will have whatever cards I want, isn’t this equivalent to being invincible?” So Deng Tianzhao pleaded with Shangtian that he must keep this power and not let it leave him.

Won HK$80 million

Sure enough, the transcendent power made Deng Tianzhao win every time he was in the casino. According to him, he never lost his professional gambling record from December ’85 to ’91. During this period, he visited casinos scattered in Australia, Malaysia, Genting, Macau, South Korea, Las Vegas, the United Kingdom, and other places. Since every time he entered and exited Singapore, Mr. Tang, who was superstitious, decided to move his family to that blessed land in 87 years. In eight or nine years, this professional gambler even won the “reputation” of “Asian Pacific Gambling King Champion”.

“In those years, I earned 80 million Hong Kong dollars (equivalent to 18 million Singapore dollars), and my business was also doing well, so it can be said that wealth was rolling in during those days. I am rich and status, and I often put on an invincible appearance and am arrogant. For a while, I didn’t take people, especially the poor, into my eyes, and I looked down on them and discriminated against them. Later, it became even worse, and the six relatives did not recognize me, not only did they not recognize their father and family, but they also had a very distant relationship with his wife, and my wife and daughter were very afraid of me and never dared to harass me. At that time, I thought the most important thing was to make money. The pity is that although I have money, I have no sense of security, because I am often afraid of being kidnapped, so I have to hire underworld bodyguards to protect me; ”

Gambling reversal Every time you gamble, you will lose your luck

In July and August of ’90, Deng Tianzhao encountered a strange incident in the casino: “On that day, a strange old man with a white body and a white suit came to my side and persuaded, “You should stop gambling and stop gambling.” “How could I listen to him when I was in high spirits at that time? In the days to come, of course, money will continue to gamble. Six months later, my luck began to decline, and it seemed that my transcendent powers had been lost. Since the first month of 91 years, the “long-winning gambling king” has become a loser who “will lose every gamble”. Deng Tianzhao said: “In the past six months, I have completely lost all the 80 million yuan I have won! I have sold my real estate, my property, my car, and all my savings and everything I have lost all of a sudden, and I still owe a debt of 3 million S$. At that time, I was at a loss, so I had to go around looking for Xiangshi, a Feng Shui Master, and Psychic Medium for help, but unfortunately, there was no help. At the lowest level, I couldn’t eat for a whole week.

Jump off a building to escape from death

One night, I was sitting alone on the terrace of my apartment when I heard a voice reminding me that I might as well “commit suicide”. Now that you have no money and status, you have nothing to love in life, and after you jump down and die, you don’t need to repay your debts and no longer have to bear the responsibilities of your family. So I jumped from the fifteenth floor, and at the same time, I heard someone in front of me clearly saying, “Pray quickly, or it will be too late! God loves you.” At that moment, I shouted to the heavens, “If there is a god, you will let me see your love!”

“Somehow, at seven o’clock in the morning, I woke up and was still sitting on the terrace and not dead. I don’t know why, but two hours later, my brother-in-law called me from Hong Kong and said he was coming to see me in Singapore, and my bad intentions came again, and I was going to borrow 2 million from him under the pretext of lobbying him to invest so that I could gamble again and make a profit.

Today is your last chance to pray that God loves you

Deng Tianzhao took a group photo with everyone at a gambling gospel dinner

“My sister and brother-in-law asked me to accompany them to church on Sunday morning, and to please them so that they could lend me money, they agreed to go with them. When I got home in the afternoon, my brother-in-law asked me to sit down and listen to him “talk about Jesus”, and everyone knows that gamblers’ time is precious, so it took me four and a half hours to divert enlightenment, but unfortunately, something strange happened. In the middle of the lecture, my brother-in-law suddenly stood up, pointed at me, and said, “This is not the way, you have to pray quickly, or it will be too late! God loves you.” The voice was familiar, and it didn’t look like my brother-in-law’s voice. He admonished me three times, and each time he spoke more forcefully. I remembered what I heard yesterday on the terrace when I was about to kill myself, and I burst into tears, feeling that God loved me.

Then they invited me to a missionary meeting. The pastor on the stage that day shouted as if pointing at me, “Today is the last chance, I hope you can change, God loves you.” When I heard these familiar and affectionate calls, I wept bitterly, and my whole body fell and accepted Jesus as my Savior. ”

A miracle occurs to see the great love of the true God

Later, when we got to the airport to see my brother-in-law back in Hong Kong, he hugged me and told me that a few days ago in my sleep, (at the same time as I was about to jump off the building), the Holy Spirit woke up and moved him to leave for Singapore to visit me, just as I prayed to God – “If you are God, you will let me see your love.” At that moment, I cried and said to God, “I don’t know who you are, but I want to know you.” “I truly saw the greatness of God, who sent many times to persuade me, to love me, to restore me. I was so touched by God’s love that I was baptized as a Christian in June ’91. I was able to make this decision, and the happiest people were, of course, my sister and brother-in-law, who had prayed for me for 25 years, and my wife, who had been praying for a long time in tears and never giving up. Together, they shed tears of joy and watched me, a professional gambler, turn back.

The gambler’s curse dissolves the miraculous change of life

Luke 15:4 “Who among you has a hundred sheep and has lost one, and does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and goes after the lost sheep until he finds it?” Luke 15:17 I say to you, so rejoice in one sinner who repents, and so rejoices in heaven over him than over ninety-nine righteous men who do not need to repent.

Since then, I have not only been insulated from gambling, but I have also often testified in the church, warning those who are addicted to gambling and urging them not to be bound by this sin. For a long time, Deng Tianzhao served full-time in the church and later became a financial consultant to earn some money to support some Christian ministries. ”

From a professional gambler to a believer who testifies to God everywhere, Deng Tianzhao’s life has changed dramatically, once again proving that God is true. Are you or your family addicted to gambling and can’t extricate yourself? There is a true God who loves you, waiting for you to return.

Testimony…

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Demolition and rebuilding: Bless the LORD, my soul, and praise the name of all who is in me, and bless the LORD, my heart, and forget not all his goodness, and he forgives you all your sins and heals you of all your diseases. He redeems your life from death and crowns you with love and mercy. (Psalm 103:1-4).

Thank God, on September 30, 2009, two months after my stroke, I finally returned to Chicago safely from Hong Kong. Because the accident happened so suddenly, I still can’t imagine the danger that happened at that time, because when I fainted and collapsed at the Westin restaurant in Tianhe District, Guangzhou, I was completely unconscious. Now I can only think of this sudden onset, which must have scared the hearts of several of my colleagues who had breakfast with me. With great gratitude, my wife Qiuhong and I repeatedly read an initial admission record from the Department of Neurosurgery of the Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University:

Patient Chen Chi was admitted to the hospital on 2009-08-09 due to convulsions all over his body and impaired consciousness for more than 5 hours. “The diagnosis was:

“Thrombosis of the superior sagittal sinus, multiple intracerebral hemorrhages in the bilateral frontal lobes, subarachnoid hemorrhage in the right frontal lobe, sudden generalized convulsions of the patient for no apparent reason 5 hours before admission, with impaired consciousness at that time”

I didn’t know anything about the stroke, and I never expected it to happen to me, I felt palpitations at the diagnosis of the above-mentioned brain doctor, and after reading it, my hands and feet trembled unexpectedly, and a little cold sweat broke out on my forehead as if I was reading my death certificate.

Fear and helplessness in the face of suffering

Frankly, in the face of such a dilemma, I am not a person who is strong in faith and relies on God for everything. The first few days after a stroke were the most terrifying and helpless moments of my life. I vaguely remember that my eyes were blurry at that time, I didn’t know where I was, I only vaguely felt that there were urinary catheters and drips inserted in my body, and the medical staff walked quickly past the bedside. Then I was horrified to find that the left side of my body couldn’t move. I tried to move my hands and feet with all my strength, but nothing happened. Fear, wandering, and helplessness immediately took over my heart.

What happened to the accident? I had breakfast with a few colleagues before, and we were not talking and laughing as usual. Why am I now half paralyzed, lying in an ICU bed? A series of sinister and frightened thoughts welled up in my mind, and my heart seemed to be dragged down by a heavy hammer and fell into the abyss. Am I going to be bedridden for the rest of my life, will I become a vegetative person? What about my family, my work, and my ministry? Where are my relatives? Suddenly, I heard a very soft but unfamiliar voice: “Mr. Chen, do you still recognize me? I am Echo, a waiter at the Westin Hotel, and I have come to visit you in the hope that you will recover soon; I don’t understand, how can you be so good, how can you suffer such a hardship?” Although I couldn’t make out her face, her tone was deeply sympathetic. In retrospect, it seems that God was going to use this unbeliever to test my reactions and choices in the face of suffering. Thank you, Lord, that during the whole process, even though my heart was dark, I didn’t ask, “Why did you allow this to happen to me all of a sudden?” Who am I to dare to challenge God’s sovereignty by questioning God’s sovereignty?

As Job 11:7-8 says, “Can you fathom God, and how can you fathom the Almighty? What else can you do if His wisdom is higher than heaven? What else can you know deeper than Hades?” I am convinced that the God I know and accept is not the author of suffering and that there is no error in Him, and even though we may not fully understand everything behind it while suffering, we can trust that God has absolute wisdom to control everything, and in His will, can lead us through the valley of the shadow of death.

To be healed, you must first deal with sin

I only received the first six days of treatment at the Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University, and then I was transferred to Hong Kong by the U.S. Consulate for further treatment. After two weeks, my condition did not improve, and I began to feel depressed and disappointed. I was so impatient that the left side of my body was still paralyzed, and I thought that I would have to be supported by at least three people when I sat up, otherwise, my body would fall to the left and right, and I would have to trouble others to urinate and urinate, and I felt very embarrassed and helpless for this. For me, a former workaholic, this is a painful and difficult truth to accept. During that time, I often asked God, “How long am I going to endure this state of dependence on others for everything?” and many nights I tossed and turned, thinking wildly, and could not sleep until dawn. When I did physiotherapy during the day, I felt weak and weak due to lack of sleep, and my mood became more and more depressed. This vicious cycle continued until, one morning in the third week after my transfer, I was praying devotionally when a passage of scripture unfolded before my eyes.

That’s Luke 5:18-25, which tells the story of Jesus healing a paralytic man:

“And a paralytic man was carried on a mattress to carry him in before him, but because of the great number of people he could not find a way to carry him in, he went up to the roof of the house and took him into the middle of the roof with his mat from among the tiles, and was in the presence of him. When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Thy sins have been forgiven of him, and immediately he arose in the presence of them all and took up the mat on which he was lying, and went to his house, to the glory of God.” ”

The Holy Spirit enlightened me through this passage and gave me a deeper understanding of this passage so that I realized that God’s healing is a comprehensive treatment of body, mind, and spirit and that I need to be healed not only physically, but also spiritually. I read and pondered over and over again, and I noticed the order in which the Lord Jesus performed this miracle healing: the paralytic man got up and walked because his sins were forgiven and his heart was cleansed, and then Jesus told him, “Get up, take up your mat and go home.” It turns out that the Lord Jesus wants me to deal with my sins, because only He can forgive my sins, so His primary concern is whether my sins have been dealt with clearly. When the problem of sin is solved, the other problems are solved. Sin cuts us off from a close relationship with God, it often destroys our relationships both externally and internally, and it prevents people from enjoying the peace and joy that God provides.

Thank you to the Lord that He made me understand that “spiritual paralysis” is more terrible and more difficult to cure than all kinds of physical diseases, because it numbs the soul, loses its sensitivity to sin, and eventually loses any ability to resist. Many times, Christians emphasize repentance only to unbelievers, but they avoid mentioning their transgressions, or hide in the depths of their hearts, as if they have developed immunity to sin. This phenomenon can happen to any believer, no matter how long he has been a believer, and how senior he is in the ministry.

During my six-week hospitalization, God gave me a tranquil environment in which I was completely naked and open in His presence, allowing His Word to cut the cancer of sin from my heart like a sharp blade, and allowing His Holy Spirit to do the healing work. Repentance is not easy, but it is the only way for Christians to pursue holiness. Confession of sin is very difficult for me, and there are two obstacles:

(1) self-righteousness, and it is difficult to be humble. This personality has gradually developed since I came to the United States. Even though I have been a Christian for more than 30 years, this old self still haunts me. Especially when my career is smooth and my ministry is somewhat fruitful, I lose my ability to reflect on these two aspects even more.

(2) I find that when I am faced with a variety of big and small choices, I often make trade-offs based on my own wisdom and personal experience, rather than taking God first, asking Him first to see if it is His will, and in turn even walking ahead of Him.

Under the light of the Holy Spirit, I opened the eyes of my heart finally realized my spiritual and behavioral weaknesses, and unreservedly confessed my debt to God and man. In today’s generation, some too many people wear masks to be good people, who are polite and follow the rules on the surface, but in their hearts, they hide unfathomable thoughts and even have all kinds of selfish desires and evil feelings (including myself). Even with friends and loved ones, we often don’t always treat them with sincerity, let alone to the point of putting them in the heart. It can be said that superficial good deeds do not reflect the true state of mind of a person, nor does good behavior bring a person up to the standards set by God. As the Bible says, “For the Lord does not look at men as men: men look at the outward appearance, and the Lord looks at the inwardness.” (1 Samuel 16:7) Only God knows all the thoughts and thoughts of the human heart: “Who can understand the heart of man who is deceitful above all things, and who is wicked to the extreme?” (Jeremiah 17:9).

Many people think that confession of sin is an act of cowardice, but this is a very wrong idea. On the contrary, I deeply realized that confession of sin is a rather courageous expression, and it is the initiative of man to face his true nature: even the dark, filthy, invisible, and ugliest side is revealed in the light of God’s true light, and there is no need to hide it, and it can no longer be concealed. Just as doctors use X-rays, CT scans, or MRIs to examine the root cause of physical ailments, God’s Word and the guidance of the Holy Spirit can help us detect all kinds of spiritual problems, both revealed and hidden.

Mt 1:6 says, “Where do sons honor their fathers and servants fear their masters, but where do I honor me as my father, and where do I fear me as my master?” It turns out that as a child of God and a servant who serves Him, I have neglected my attitude of fear of the Lord. My arrogant and unruly temperament, coupled with decades of worldly social experience, has molded me into a very assertive personality, and I have also established a set of ways of doing things that are not pleasing to God, that is: relying on experience and feeling, rather than praying to God first and seeking His will; emphasizing efficiency and valuing planning more than serving; an arbitrary attitude and not asking for the opinions of others; and doing some so-called big things, which are actually good and great achievements, and have no direct connection to the kingdom of God.

Frankly, when I have achieved a little bit in a worldly environment and think I can be the master of my own house, it is often a time of crisis in my spiritual life. In 2009, the apparent success of my career and ministry lured me into the abyss of self-aggrandizement. In May 2009, I was nominated by USCIS and received the “Most Outstanding Employee” award from all of the federal agencies in Chicago, out of more than 80,000 employees, 300 were selected, but only 10 were honored. In early June, my application for a short-term transfer to the U.S. Consulate in Guangzhou was approved, and these two events were very beneficial for my future career. In ministry, I have been the director general of the Glory God Communication Association in Chicago, where I preach the gospel through audio-visual media, as well as evangelism in restaurants and a column in the New York Clarion Monthly. Two years ago, I also called for the establishment of the “Tianle Choir”, which has more than 30 members, more than half of whom are Christians in the United States, and on the eve of the 2008 Olympic Games, we held sacred music concerts in Beijing, Qingdao, and Shanghai. However, when organizing these creative activities, I didn’t hand over the steering wheel to God, but held on to it myself. Because “obedience” is not in my nature, it naturally leads to an unhealthy ministry mentality, which is not pleasing to God.

Paul said, “Therefore I beseech you, brethren, in the mercy of God, that you offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, and that it is only right for you to serve in this way.” Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is the good, perfect, and pleasing will of God. (Romans 12:1-2) Why is it so difficult for us to follow this catchy verse? I now understand that the fundamental question is whether or not I am willing to surrender the sovereignty of my life to God. To please God is to give up your evil desires and desires, to call on the name of the Lord in everything, and to follow the Holy Spirit’s leading, simply for the sake of His glorified works. Even if it is a trivial service in the eyes of man. God wanted me to learn to Xi to be a “useless servant” after His heart. As the Lord Jesus said to his disciples, “So when you have done all that you have been commanded, just say, ‘We are worthless servants, and what we have done is what we ought to do.'” (Luke 17:10) Therefore, my ministry before Him, if it were not by the grace of God and the leading of the Holy Spirit, would be false, unreliable, unpleasing to God, and of no eternal value, even if it seemed to others. Faith in God is a mutual relationship and action, not an expression of self-emotion or self-will. What is the relationship? It is the relationship between man and God, and what action is the complete obedience and obedience of man to God?

It dawned on me that the blind spots of so many ministries over the past few years had been preventing me from getting a deeper understanding of what God’s good, pure, and pleasing will was. It turns out that I have always served God with confidence and passion, but I have stripped away the most important element of “wholehearted obedience” from the ministry, and as a result, many so-called ministry activities have become empty and meaningless. For God said to Saul through the prophet Samuel, “Is the Lord pleased with burnt offerings and peace offerings as he is pleased with the obedience of his voice? The sin of disobedience is equal to the sin of sorcery, and the sin of stubbornness is the same as the sin of worshipping false gods and idols. (1 Samuel 15:22-23). Jesus Christ Himself is our best example, so Paul says, “He was very much God, and did not consider equality with God to be a precedent, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a slave and becoming a man, and having been made in human form, he humbled himself and became obedient unto death, even on the cross.” (Philippians 2:7-8) God’s concern is not how much time or mind I spend trying to figure out what I think is good and valuable to His kingdom. What He asks of me is a heart that respectfully seeks His will. To paraphrase the preacher Brother Yin Daoxian: “We must first truly realize in our hearts that we are useless, completely useless before we can be useful in the hands of God.” This is the spiritual dialectic, the spiritual mystery, and the spiritual grace, and even the fact that we can truly realize our uselessness is the grace of God. ”

Thank God for allowing me to calm down and reflect on this kind of reflection amid my illness, which is truly a great blessing.

Experience the warmth of God’s faithfulness and love of family and friends

Through this stroke, God made me re-examine my relationship with my family, and I felt strongly the faithful love from God and experienced first-hand how warm, sincere, and unrequited my family’s love for me was.

God’s mercy and love are indeed above all else, but my wife Qiuhong’s unwavering and meticulous care for me during my illness is as deep as the sea. I later learned that after receiving the news that I had had a stroke, my wife, who was in the United States, took the earliest flight to Guangzhou. During the long 14-hour flight, Pastor Li Chaoqiang encouraged her “May the peace of the Lord Jesus be with you” before leaving, which became the greatest comfort and strength in her heart. When she was rushed to Guangzhou Hospital, she did not despair in the face of my delirium. She stood by my bedside day and night, holding my hand praying for me, and reciting Psalm 23 for me over and over again until I recognized her and we hugged and wept. It was then that I heard a phrase that I will remember for the rest of my life: “Mike, rest assured, no matter what the outcome, I will take care of you to the end, this is my promise before God.” ”

In fact, from the time I suffered a stroke to the ongoing recovery process today, my wife has not left me for a moment. Not only that, but God has given her the strength and wisdom to handle all kinds of important decisions and make arrangements for me. During my hospitalization in Hong Kong, she always curled up on the chair in the ward for one night and dragged her tired body to accompany me for acupuncture therapy the next day. At the end of the vacation, to stay and take care of me, she begged her boss to allow her to work in Hong Kong. During this time, my wife also went back to the United States to visit her son, who was alone at home and traveled around to inquire about the best rehabilitation centers in Chicago to pave the way for my future recovery.

My wife’s love for me is so deep and unreserved, and while I am grateful, I feel that I owe too much to my wife. Married for 27 years, in the relationship between husband and wife, I am more and more busy with work and ministry, getting along with each other gradually like gentlemen’s friends, emotionally losing the sweetness of each other at the beginning, not to mention spiritual fellowship, we try not to quarrel, tolerate each other, live in peace, I already feel very good. But as the head of the family, I have always ignored the Bible’s teaching to love my wife. “Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for the church…… Let each one of you love his wife as himself. A wife should honor her husband. (Ephesians 5:25).

I still remember my wife used to say to me: “You like to compose and sing so much, lead poems, and play poems, why don’t you express this enthusiasm to me at home, everything is so rational?” Women’s emotional world is very delicate, and the husband’s sincere concern for his wife and body language with love is often more effective than lengthy truths. According to Biblical principles, without loving and doing our part, we as brothers do not want to earn the respect of our wives, no matter how godly we look, how extensive our ministry is, and how successful our business is, it is a false sign to her, just as Jesus rebuked the Pharisees for hypocrisy. During my illness, I not only confessed my sins before God, but also expressed my guilt to my wife Qiuhong, and slowly learned that Xi Moody Bible College often broadcasts Pastor Gary Chapman’s radio program “The Five Languages of Love”, which is applied to all aspects of daily life, and my wife told me that in fact, the standard of “love language” she asks me to express to her is not high, as long as I sincerely give her a gentle hug (body language), appreciate what she does (with a grateful heart), and enter with a joyful smile ( Always with joy in your heart), sharing prayer (deep spiritual fellowship) is enough.

The ignorance of the past has led me away from the teachings of the Bible, and it is only now that I have realized that our spouses and children are unique and precious gifts from God that need to be cherished and connected with love.

God who hears prayer

Every time I think of the care and love of my brothers and sisters, the more I feel unworthy, and because of this, I experience that God has heard the earnest prayers of many people.

Of course, God did not make me stand up immediately in a supernatural way, but He prepared the best hospital doctor for me, the care of my family, and the power of God to support me, like sending a group of angels to protect me. God has indeed heard and answered the prayers of the churches and brothers and sisters, and God will heal in His good pleasure. Looking back, it turns out that every difficult situation has come to us, and whenever my wife and I feel that things cannot be solved, God has already known and made good arrangements for us, even more than we could have imagined. Here are a few specific examples that demonstrate God’s greatness, faithfulness, love, omniscience, and omnipresence:

→ Taken to the hospital within 3 hours of stroke. God allowed a stroke to happen to me (in fact, I neglected to control my high blood sugar and too much work pressure), but God also arranged for someone to send me to the hospital immediately for emergency treatment, to avoid the danger of many sequelae of “three deviations and five obstacles”.

→ The accident was not in the hotel room. I fainted in the restaurant while having breakfast with my colleagues. If you go back to the room and have a stroke, it’s unimaginable.

→ The incident occurred in Guangzhou, not in Beijing. I originally wanted to apply for a business trip to the Beijing Immigration Bureau, but because I could speak Cantonese, I was later transferred to Guangzhou. Otherwise, the hospital would not have been able to transfer me to Hong Kong by plane shortly after my severe stroke. His wife Qiuhong and her two older sisters are not proficient in Mandarin, which also causes difficulties in communicating with doctors and taking care of them in all aspects.

→ The Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University has MRI (magnetic resonance imaging equipment). The Third Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University is only a 10-minute drive from the Westin Tianhe District in Guangzhou, where I live.

→ the Consulate’s arrangement for transfer to Hong Kong for treatment. God prepared for me several medical staff from the U.S. Consulates in Guangzhou and Hong Kong to negotiate with the Affiliated Hospital of Sun Yat-sen University to transfer to Hong Kong within a week.

→ God prepared for me the best hospital, doctors, physiotherapy, and acupuncture in Hong Kong.

→ care for your family. God’s wife, Qiu Hong, two older sisters in Hong Kong, and my younger brother in Guangzhou, took turns to take care of me so that I could recuperate with peace of mind and speed up the recovery time.

→ Continue rehabilitation. After returning to Chicago, God prepared an ideal rehabilitation center for me at the Chicago Rehabilitation Institute, less than half an hour away from home, and the center staff picked me up.

→ My wife is allowed by the company to work from home full-time so that I can take care of my diet and daily life.

What can I say before God other than to be grateful? I remember one time when I was in a bad mood, my sister comforted me softly by the bedside and said, “Mike, cheer up, don’t you feel God’s work in you strongly? He rescued you from the brink of death, healed you, and took care of you so thoughtfully in all things, He must have sent a team of angels to defend you, you should be full of joy, why are you depressed?” then I thought of Psalm 919-11 says: Therefore, I am convinced of the reality of experiencing the protection of God’s messengers.

Demolition and reconstruction

I learned to draw Xi closer to the Lord because of this severe stroke and once again surrendered myself to His hands by faith. It can even be said that the greatest blessing that illness has brought me is not only the healing of physical ailments, but also the spiritual restoration and restoration. I deeply realized that one of the purposes of suffering was that God loved me and brought me to the throne of His grace through suffering. “Whatever I love, I will rebuke and discipline him, so be zealous and repent. (Revelation 3:19) “For what the Lord loves, he will rebuke, just as a father rebukes his beloved son.” —Proverbs 3:12.

Inside: Tear down the castle of the inner world of the old me

The prophets used the rather horrific words “torn, bruised, destroyed, overturned, afflicted” to show that God sometimes uses drastic means to tear down our inner world. The same is true for me, in the case of music ministry, after the stroke, my left hand is stiff and I still can’t play an instrument, my speech is no longer “articulate”, and my singing is no longer beautiful. These changes are quite a test for me, a musician who writes songs and has been involved in music ministry for more than 20 years, who has been using poetry to hold music evangelism, and published five poetry CDs. I also struggled with this, hoping to find an answer from God that would satisfy me. I asked God, “Is it necessary to tear me down so completely before I need to be transformed?” Of course, God is still silent to this day, but I have found the answer from daily reflection: God wants me to reevaluate and reverse my attitude towards worship and music ministry. I should concentrate on Jesus and His cross and make Him the only object of worship in my heart, rather than using music to show my talents. To be honest, I no longer feel bad about being out of breath, out of tune, and unable to pronounce words when I sing every Sunday because I now understand who I’m singing for and why.

External: Tear down the pursuit of the world

Admittedly, the world was still quite attractive to me before the stroke. On the one hand, I am still young from retirement age, and on the other hand, I have the opportunity to advance, and I have to work in the immigration office decently and help many people. I feel that I have a successful career and can serve, as long as there is no conflict between the two, it can be regarded as God’s special grace and blessing. But invisibly, this kind of thinking and lifestyle of “one leg wants to step on two boats” falls into Satan’s tricks, forgetting that there is no middle way for believers to take at the level of ministry. The word of the Lord is clear: “One cannot serve two masters, either hating one and loving another, or valuing one and despising another, and you cannot serve God and mammon at the same time.” (Matthew 6:24).

Because I was so focused on my work and ministry that I couldn’t do it at the same time, I ended up damaging my body, neglecting my family, and not being able to concentrate on serving God. This win-win mentality of wanting to be a CEO in the world and doing a great job in ministry is certainly not God’s will, because Jesus said, “Lord, our God is the only Lord, and you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength.” (Mark 12:29-30) The tone here is imperative, with no free choice or other vague interpretation.

Reconstruction: Loving people’s lives with God’s love and centeredness

During my stay in Hong Kong, apart from experiencing God’s miraculous healing, what excites me the most is that I am willing to share God’s love with others, like a flame burning in my heart. I was in the same room with Japanese, British, and Australians, and I prayed about their illnesses and told me what God was doing to me. The Japanese patient said that he was Shin (Shinto), but he did not refuse me to pray for Him in the name of Jesus Christ. God’s grace came to two special ladies through me, a peasant woman who had come from Canton to take care of me temporarily. Although she could not read, she had a longing heart and accepted the Lord immediately. Since then we have prayed together, and I taught her to recite the Lord’s Prayer in the Bible and to repair her bad relationship with her mother-in-law and husband. She prayed to the Lord for my healing as well. Seeing God heal me in six weeks, her heart was filled with joy and she was willing to preach the gospel to her family and find a spiritual home when she returned to Guangzhou. Another woman’s husband was trying to give up after seven unsuccessful surgeries to remove her large intestine, but one of the Christian nurses working in the intensive care unit brought her to my ward and asked me to pray for her husband. I said I was willing, but I also told her that there was no point in praying unless she knew who we were praying to.

Thank the Lord that after listening to the gospel message I shared with her, she was willing to accept the Lord Jesus as her personal Savior, and then we prayed to the Lord with tears in our eyes. Although we never had the opportunity to see each other again and wondered if her husband would be healed, may God preserve her faith and continue to follow up with the Christian nurse. What prompted me to rekindle this passion for evangelism was the natural response of my heart being rebuilt by the Lord and experiencing God’s deep love and whole-person healing. Just as a Samaritan woman who met the Lord Jesus and understood the truth, and after experiencing God’s compassion and acceptance, her heart welled up with indescribable joy, and she immediately left a jug of water and went to the city to tell the people the good news that she had met the Messiah.

Today, a Christian who is untouched by evangelism or who is unspeakable about his faith is likely to have not tasted the gift of God. Perhaps such believers still retain castles built with their old selfish desires in their hearts, so that they form too heavy loads and too many walls to obstruct them, but they let themselves be trapped by the siege and unable to break through.

In addition to this, after this disaster, I have found that there is no difference between pitying others and being compassionate. Sympathy for what others are going through is an attempt to share and alleviate the pain and anxiety of others, but it is not a level of empathy. Now, when I am faced with another patient, in addition to sympathizing with his illness, I can also feel what he feels in his heart, understand his situation, and share his suffering more powerfully. Because of this receiving, whenever I meet patients in the Chicago Rehabilitation Center who are doing rehabilitation together, the universal love and compassion of the Lord Jesus deeply motivates me, and I am willing to secretly pray for these patients and also find an opportunity to tell them about God’s wonderful work in me.

Cherish every day of life

Before I had a stroke, I always felt like I had time in my own hands. What can’t be done can be continued tomorrow, otherwise, there is still next month, and there is always enough time to complete it. When I wake up every morning after the stroke and feel my pulse beating and breathing freely, I truly thank God for giving me a new day, where the days are no longer ordinary and at my disposal, but every minute is as precious as a grain of jade. As James 4:14-15 says, “You do not yet know what tomorrow will bring.” What is your life? You are a cloud, which disappears after a short time. But say, ‘If the Lord wills, we can live, and we can do this or that.’ ”

Recognizing the fragility and transience of life has led me to place greater emphasis on the pursuit of a relationship with the living God and the meaning of living in the world. God gives the world the freedom to choose the direction and purpose of his life, but He has special guidance and discipline for His children. God wants every child to build up a holy character and choose a Christian life. The ideal standard of Christian personality is to be like Jesus Christ. So Jesus said to his disciples, “Be perfect, therefore, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.” (Matthew 5:48) We are to practice this perfection with greater love, a more humble spirit, a more perfect character, a more complete intellectual capacity, and more witnesses to the Lord.

The stroke was a grave warning from God, telling me that I was already standing on the edge of the abyss of death and that my life would have been gone long ago if it had not been for His hand holding me tightly and then lifting me up smoothly and putting me back into the world. I kept wondering since God had given me a chance to live again, how could I go back and be as careless as I was before the stroke, staying up all night, eating at irregular intervals, wasting my body without restraint, and wasting my time?” Therefore, glorify God in your bodies. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) Reading this passage in the past has been very confusing, but now we understand that because our bodies are created by God, to treat our bodies correctly is to glorify Him. It is only when we fully affirm that the body, mind, and spirit are inseparable and interdependent that we can cherish and maintain the body and allow it to play out the good purpose of God’s creation. No wonder John would say, “Beloved, may you prosper in all things and be strong in body, just as your soul prosper.” (John 3:1:2).

Conclusion
“Offer a sacrifice of thanksgiving to God and pay your vows to the Most High, and call on me in the day of trouble, and I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me. Whoever offers a sacrifice of thanksgiving is glory. Me.” (Psalm 50:14-15)

Suffering is uncomfortable, but it also deepens my understanding of God’s attributes: the exercise of His power—rescuing me from death according to His will, His faithfulness and love—miraculous healing, His omniscience, Omnipotent – the power to make every proper arrangement and care. In my case, He replaced punishment with healing, curses with blessings, and chastity with refinement. I don’t know how long God will let me live on this earth, but as long as I still have the breath of life, I am willing to witness the wonderful work He has done in me and become an outlet for preaching the gospel and announcing the good news. I deeply understand that “although the outer body is destroyed, the inner body is destroyed.” But it is being renewed day by day” (2 Corinthians 4:16).

May all glory be to the Triune God. Amen.

Chen Chi is from Shunde, Guangdong, and grew up in Hong Kong. Graduated from the Chinese Department of National Taiwan University and received a master’s degree from the Department of Social Work of Illinois. Currently, he is the director of the Citizenship and Naturalization Department of the Chicago Immigration Bureau of the U.S. Department of Justice and is also the director general of the Chicago God of Honor Communication Association.

Testimony…

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In Hollywood, two Chinese directors are very famous, one is Ang Lee, who shined at last year’s Oscars, and the other is John Woo. John Woo’s childhood life also had a great impact on his subsequent film career.

Wu Yusen, born on May 1, 1946, was born in a poor family in Guangzhou. Soon he followed his family to Hunan, and then to Hong Kong as a refugee. He dropped out of school when his father died of illness when he was about to graduate from high school, but he still used his spare time to teach himself history, philosophy, art, etc., and more importantly, he loved movies from a young age. As he recalled his childhood life in an interview with Hong Kong’s “Film Fortnightly”: “Since I was a child, I have loved movies, whether it is Western, Cantonese or Japanese.

At that time, I didn’t have the rich money to buy a ticket to get in. I remember one time, at the Great World Cinema, I took my little brother and sneaked into the balcony of the theater when I entered the theater, unfortunately, the usher found me and rolled me down the stairs with a palm. But this palm did not make me give up my desire to watch this movie, on the contrary, I quickly picked up my brother and followed the crowd downstairs. When I was in middle school, my passion for watching movies never diminished.”

In addition, it is said that the place where he grew up was rampant with gangsters and that he was able to attend secondary school because of the American donation (i.e., the help of the church) sent by Luther. This had a great impact on John Woo’s film career, on the one hand, he wanted to show the masculine and violent aesthetics produced by the conflict between the “good guys” and the “bad guys” in the gang, and on the other hand, he did not forget to exaggerate the benevolent spirit of the “good guys” of the gangsters, and even repeatedly appeared in his works, the church, a symbol of sacred Christianity. He also said, “I am a Christian, influenced by religious ideas of love, sin, and salvation. The ancient chivalrous spirit of chivalry is now gone, and we have to face evil alone.”

John Woo’s early works

John Woo’s film style, in addition to the influence of his childhood life, is also deeply influenced by his mentor Zhang Che, but his film career did not start with Zhang Che.

In 1069, John Woo entered the Cathay Pacific Film Company by chance and soon met Zhang Che as a production assistant. After Cathay Pacific announced its closure in 1970, he was introduced to Shaw Brothers Films by Zhang Che and served as Zhang Che’s assistant director, such as “Water Margin”, “Ma Yongzhen”, “Stinging Horse” and so on. Zhang Che’s film works, after “One-armed Knife” established its position in martial arts films, more and shows the world of friendship and violence between men, “Broken Intestine Sword”, “Revenge”, “Thirteen Taibao”, “Stabbing Horse”, “Crippled”, etc., full of tragic pictures of shirtless battles and intestinal battles, “Casting Names”, which will be released at the end of this year, is also adapted from Zhang Che’s classic movie “Stinging Horse”, and its ending is the tragic picture of Zhang Wenxiang played by Jiang David being disemboweled, although there is no “Thirteen Taibao” The corpse of the five horses is as tragic as that, but it is also extraordinary. Zhang Che’s film style is in line with the mentality left by John Woo’s growth process, and it also had a profound impact on him – nearly 20 years later, John Woo also adapted “Stinging Horse” into “Bloody Street” to pay tribute to his mentor Zhang Che.

Heroic nature

In the early 80s, John Woo quit Golden Harvest and joined New Arts City Shortly after filming “Funny Times” for New Arts City, but his film career did not develop smoothly, and he was even arranged by New Arts City to go to Taiwan to inspect the local film production situation. It wasn’t until the appearance of this “True Colors of Heroes” that John Woo and Chow Yun-fat took their film careers to the next level.

At this time, John Woo was full of pride and ambition for movies, but he didn’t have the time to play well, and Chow Yun-fat, although he was popular in the TV series “Shanghai Tang” ten years ago, but many of his film careers were literary films, such as “Love in a Fallen City” (blog), “The Legend of Yu Dafu”, etc. (there are also action movies, such as “City Patrol Horse”), but the box office is not good, known as “box office poison”. So, such two depressed men, plus Dillon, who was born in Shaw Brothers and also collaborated with John Woo (“Stinging Horse” was the film they collaborated on that year), popular singer Leslie Cheung, etc., jointly performed this movie full of men’s feelings, ambitions and even ups and downs, “The True Colors of Heroes”.

“The True Color of Heroes” broke the local box office record of a Hong Kong film with a box office of 34.65 million, and won the Best Film and Best Actor awards at the 6th Hong Kong Film Awards. The father-son love, brotherly love, friendship love, male and female love, wronged victimization, and revenge of the men touched by it vividly portrays the love in the hearts of men The mentality of the Hong Kong people after it was determined that Hong Kong’s sovereignty would be recovered in the early morning of July 1, 1997: in the context of the return to the motherland, their citizens are powerless to change this reality, but they do not know what will happen after the return; and in “The True Color of Heroes”, they also lamented several times that the times are different from the past……

The Road to Hollywood

John Woo came to Hollywood in 1993 and has been directing for more than ten years, and has also directed many movies such as “The Ultimate Target”, “Broken Arrow”, “The Face of the Heroes” (also known as “Changing Face”), “Mission Impossible 2”, “The Wind Whisperer”, “Fatal Reward” and many other movies and TV movies such as “New Across the Seas” and “Supreme Black Jack”. But I don’t know if it’s because of the lack of adaptation or what, John Woo’s Hollywood film career is not so wishful.

Comparing “Mission Impossible 2”, which John Woo is good at in action movies and has achieved good box office in North America or around the world, compared with the previous “Mission Impossible”, may illustrate this problem. “Mission Impossible” is directed by the famous thriller director Brian De Palma, adapted from a classic action TV series in the 70s, the director is not satisfied with copying the plot of the TV series, which not only changes the leader of the secret service team in the TV series to the behind-the-scenes of the criminal, but also sets up twists and turns of the plot, enigmatic characters, etc., creating the suspense in the film, and making the plot full of tension. The sequel directed by John Woo, except for the change of face at the beginning of the film (or borrowing from the plot in the first part) with a little suspense, basically narrates this action movie in a straight line, so in terms of action, “Mission Impossible 2” is far better than the first part, but it is beyond the reach of the tension of the plot – John Woo made a suspenseful spy movie into a pure action movie. This also exposes a problem of director John Woo himself: the incongruity between the control of the action scenes and the control of the plot. (Similar problems arose with his war film “The Wind Whisperer” and the sci-fi film “Deadly Pay.”) )

“Red Cliff” returns

Today, after more than a decade of twists and turns in Hollywood, John Woo finally decided to “return”, not only serving as the executive producer of the film “Heaven’s Mouth”, but also directing “Red Cliff”, the most expensive film work so far.

John Woo also revealed that if he wanted to start filming a documentary, he will choose a documentary with the theme of Sun Yat-sen, the father of the nation. Recently, Mel Gibson’s “The Passion of the Christ” was a big hit, and John Woo, who is a Christian, said that he had seen it, and he liked it, and said that if he was not a director, he would have become a pastor and help those most in need.

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基督徒–传奇导演吴宇森

在好莱坞，有两位华人导演是非常的有名气的，一个是在去年奥斯卡上大放光彩的李安，另一位，则是吴宇森。吴宇森的童年生活，也同样的对于其往后的电影生涯产生很大的影响。

吴宇森，生于1946年5月1日，出生在广州的一个贫寒的家庭。不久就跟随着家人来到湖南，随后又作为难民来到了香港。中学即将毕业时父亲因病过世，他也因此而缀学，但仍然利用空余时间自学历史、哲学、美术等，更重要的是，他从小就喜欢电影。就如他当年在接受香港《电影双周刊》的采访时回忆起自己的童年生活：“从孩童时起，我已经喜欢电影了，不论西片、粤片、日本片，一概都喜欢看。那时，我并没有富裕的钱买票入场。记得有一次，在大世界戏院，我抱着小弟弟趁入场时混入戏院的楼座，不幸给带位员发现，一掌把我从楼梯上打滚下来。可这一掌并没有令我放弃看这场电影的热望，相反地赶快抱起弟弟，紧跟着人群混入楼下去。到了中学时候，喜欢看电影的热情一直没有降低过”。

另外，据说他从小生活的地方黑帮横行，而他自己能够进入中学就读也是因为路德会送来的美国捐助(也即教会的帮助)，他既要面对周围的暴力世界，又要面对教会信仰的仁爱精神，两者在其内心交织着……这对于吴宇森的电影生涯产生了非常大的影响，一方面，他要展示黑帮中的“好人”与“坏人”之间的冲突所产生的阳刚的暴力美学，另一方面，他不忘渲染黑帮“好人”的仁爱主义精神，甚至一而再的在作品中出现了教堂，这个神圣的基督教的象征。他也说到，“我是基督徒，受爱、罪恶及救赎等宗教观念影响。古代侠士行侠仗义精神现已荡然无存，我们得独自面对邪恶”。

吴宇森的早期作品

吴宇森的电影风格，除了童年生活的影响之外，还深受他的恩师张彻的影响，但他的电影生涯并非是跟随张彻开始。

1069年，吴宇森因为一个偶然的机会而进入国泰电影公司当场记，不久后才认识了张彻，担任制片助理。1970年国泰宣布歇业后，他经张彻的介绍进入邵氏影片公司，并担任张彻的副导演，如《水浒传》、《马永贞》、《刺马》等。张彻的电影作品，在《独臂刀》奠定了其在武侠电影中的地位之后，越来越多的展示男性之间的情谊与暴力的世界，《断肠剑》、《报仇》、《十三太保》、《刺马》、《残缺》等，充斥着赤膊上阵、盘肠大战的惨烈画面，如今年年底将公映的《投名状》，其也是改编自张彻的经典电影《刺马》，其结局则是姜大卫扮演的张汶祥被剖腹剐心的惨烈画面，尽管没有《十三太保》中的被五马分尸那样的惨烈，但也非同一般。而张彻的这种电影风格，正切合了吴宇森的成长过程的耳濡目染后留下的心态，也给予他深远的影响——将近二十年后，吴宇森还将《刺马》改编为《喋血街头》，向他的恩师张彻致敬。

英雄本色

80年代初吴宇森为新艺城拍摄了《滑稽时代》后不久，退出了嘉禾而加入新艺城影片公司，但他的电影事业并没有一帆风顺的发展，甚至一度被新艺城安排到台湾考察当地的电影制作状况。直到这部《英雄本色》的出现，才使得吴宇森，还有周润发，他们的电影事业更上一层楼。

这时的吴宇森，心中对电影充满着豪情壮志，但苦于没有时机好好的发挥；而周润发，也虽然早在十年前的电视剧《上海滩》当中红透半边天，但是，他的电影生涯，不少是文艺片，如《倾城之恋》(blog)、《郁达夫传奇》等(也有动作片，如《巡城马》)，但票房都不好，被誉为是“票房毒药”。于是，这样的两个郁郁不得志的男人，再加上邵氏出身、也曾跟吴宇森合作的狄龙(《刺马》就是他们当年合作的片子)、当红歌星张国荣等，共同演绎了这部充满着男人的情义、豪情壮志甚至是坎坷的电影，《英雄本色》。

《英雄本色》以3465万票房的成绩打破了香港电影的本土票房记录，并获得第六届香港电影金像奖的最佳电影和最佳男主角奖。其所触及的男人的父子情、兄弟情、朋友情、男女情、冤屈受害之情和报仇雪恨之情等，将男人心中的情义刻画的淋漓尽致；而宋子豪(在这部作品中狄龙扮演的宋子豪是第一男主角)的“人在江湖、身不由己”的黑道生涯，更是切合了当时中英两国签订《联合声明》而确定将在1997年7月1日凌晨收回香港主权后的香港人的心态：在回归这个大的时代背景下，他们市民无力改变这种现实，但又不知道回归了会怎么样；而《英雄本色》中，也数次的感慨现在时代已经不同于往日……

好莱坞之路

吴宇森是在1993年到好莱坞发展的，至今已经十多年，也导演了《终极标靶》、《断箭》、《夺面双雄》(也叫《变脸》)、《碟中谍2》、《风语者》、《致命报酬》等多部电影和《新纵横四海》、《至尊黑杰克》等电视电影。但个人觉得，不知道是水土不服还是什么缘故，吴宇森的好莱坞电影生涯，并不是那么的如意。

以吴宇森所擅长的动作类型电影，且在北美或者全球都取得不俗的票房的《碟中谍2》跟之前的《碟中谍》相比较，或许可以说明这个问题。《碟中谍》是由著名惊悚片导演布莱恩·德·帕尔玛执导、改编自七十年代的一出经典动作电视剧的电影，导演并不满足于照搬电视剧的情节，其不但将电视剧当中处于主导地位的这个特工小组的组长改为犯罪者的幕后头脑，而且还设置了一波三折的剧情、如谜一样的人物等，造就了影片中的不断出现的悬念，并使得剧情充满着张力。而由吴宇森执导的续集，除了影片开始的变脸(还是借鉴了第一部中的情节)带着一点的悬疑之外，基本上是以直线型的方式叙述完了这部动作电影，于是，动作方面《碟中谍2》远远的胜于第一部，但在剧情的张力上却望尘莫及——吴宇森将一部悬念十足的特工电影，拍成了纯粹的动作片。这也暴露了吴宇森导演自身的一个问题：动作场面的掌控力与剧情的掌控力之间的不协调。(他的战争片《风语者》、科幻片《致命报酬》等也都出现了类似的问题。)

《赤壁》归来

在好莱坞奔波曲折了十多年后的今天，吴宇森终于决定“归来”，既担任了《天堂口》这部电影的监制，而且，还导演《赤壁》，这部目前而言投资最大的电影作品。

吴宇森还透露，要开拍纪录片的话，会选择以国父孙中山为题材的纪录片。最近，梅尔·吉布森主演的《耶稣受难记》大热门，身为基督徒的吴宇森表示已经看过，他也很喜欢，还说如果不当导演的话，他应该会去当牧师，帮助最需要帮助的人。

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邓天兆:“赌王之王”的大起大落后之生命奇迹改变

他的故事多年前被香港影音使团拍成电影【赌神之神】

他居然真的如电影般描述能瞬间“变牌”而“逢赌必赢”

邓天兆在一次戒赌福音餐会上

他赢过八千万港元的“赌王之王”邓天兆，在半年内把钱输光，巨债缠身，苦不堪言，最后在他人生最低沉并打算自杀结束生命之时，爱的真神寻找到他，即时挽回了他……。

四代职业赌徒 四代被赌博的诅咒辖制

现年四十六岁出生于马来西亚的邓天兆，在未信耶稣之前，是一个职业赌徒。他不讳言：“我的曾祖父、祖父和父亲都是职业赌徒。在三岁的时候，我已经爱上了钱；年纪轻轻便很喜欢把钱拿靠近鼻子去嗅它。七岁开始就学会了赌钱，足足二十八年，我不曾离开过赌桌。无论是在英国伦敦读大学，或回到马来西亚帮爸爸做建筑生意的时候，我总是不忘去赌。”

八四年由于马来西亚经济衰退，建筑行业亦吹淡风；邓父居然提议天兆一起游埠去。他们旅游的目的，并非观赏大山河川，风景名胜；而是前往澳洲不同的赌场流连。据邓天兆说：“澳洲有四五个州上都有赌场，我们天天在那儿赌过不亦乐乎。当时，我曾稍作统计，八五年前我的“战绩”并不理想，输多于赢；但由八五年一月至十一月，我在澳洲所赢的钱，却高达三万元澳币，相等于六万元马币，这是一个相当诱人的大数目啊！”

“变牌”超自然力量 居然“逢赌必赢”

就在同年十一月底澳洲的赌场内，这个职业赌徒邓天兆，跟当地一位玩百家乐出名的外籍高手，在四周起哄声中，展开了一场紧张刺激的“决战”。邓天兆忆述当场的情形说：“一时间，围在我身边的人群，都当了我的拉拉队；他们大力鼓吹，要我为中国人争一口气。当拿到第一局牌之际，我暗叫不妙；因为累积了二十三年赌钱经验的我，从第六灵感得知对手手上的牌是“八点”，而我的则是“零点”；换言之，牌一开出，我就是输家。我心中一直喃喃念着，“我一定要九点，一定要九点。”没想到，把牌推出打开，我的竟然变作“九点”通赢。那一刻，我大声惊叫：“有鬼！有鬼！”接着全身发抖，并多次重复说：“无理由；不可能。”

“第二局我没有下注。到第三局，过程完全跟第一局一样，我以“九点”再下一城，赢了对手。当时，我喜不自禁地喊出来：“我发达了！”因为我竟然有变牌的超然力量，要什么牌就会有什么，这岂不等于是所向无敌？”于是，邓天兆便向上苍恳求，一定要保有这种力量，切不可使之离开他。

赢了八千万港元

果然，超然力量使邓天兆每次在赌场都旗开得胜。据他说，由八五年十二月至九一年的职业赌博纪录中，他从未输过。期间他到过的赌场，分散于澳洲、马来西亚云顶、澳门、韩国、拉斯韦加斯、英国等地。由于每次出入新加坡都很顺利，迷信的邓先生，八七年就决定举家迁移到那块福地长居。八九年这位职业赌徒，竟然还赢了一个“亚洲太平洋赌王冠军”的“美誉”。

邓天兆坦言：“那几年间，我所赢得的钱足有八千万港元(相等于一千八百万新加坡币)；加上我的生意亦做得不错，那段日子可以说是财富滚滚来。有钱有地位的我，常摆出一副不可一世的模样，气焰逼人。一段时间我根本不把人，尤其是穷人放在眼内，我看扁他们，歧视他们。后来甚至变本加厉，六亲不认，不但不认父亲和家人，连带与太太的关系也很疏离；太太和女儿都很怕我，从不敢骚扰我。当时被我视为最重要的就是赚钱。可怜的是，虽然有钱却没有安全感，因为常常怕被人绑票，于是只好请黑社会保镖来保护我；可见我的心中毫无平安。”

赌博大逆转 逢赌必输失运

在九零年七八月间，邓天兆曾在赌场遇上了一宗奇事：“当天，有一位全身发白，穿着白西装的陌生老伯，走到我的身边劝说，“你该停手，不要再赌下去。”那时意气风发的我岂会听他？往后的日子，当然是钱继续赌。不料六个月之后，我的运气开始走下坡，超然力量似乎也失去了。”从九一年正月开始，“长胜赌王”竟变成“逢赌必输”的失败者。邓天兆说：“六个月下来，我把赢回来的八千万完全输光！连带我的地产物业、汽车都卖掉了，一下子，积蓄以至所有的东西都失去了；而且还欠下三百万坡币的债。当时，我一筹莫展，唯有到处找相士、风水先生、灵媒求救；可惜毫无帮助。在最低沉的时候，我整整一个星期不能吃饭。

跳楼寻死逃避

有一天夜半，我独自坐在公寓的露台外面，忽然好像听到有声音提醒我不如去“自杀”；剎那间，我觉得“寻死”果然不失为一个解决问题的好方法。既然得金钱地位都没有了，生无可恋，往下一跳死去之后，便可以不需要还债，也不要再负家庭的责任。于是，我就从十五楼跳下去；与此同时，我很清楚听见前面好像有人对我说话：“快祈祷，否则就会太迟了！神爱你。”那一刻，我大声喝问上天，“如果有神，你就让我看见你的爱！”

“不知怎的，在早上七点，我醒了过来的时候仍坐在露台上，并没有死去。我不明所以，及至两小时后，我的姐夫从香港来电，说要来新加坡见我；当时我的坏意念又来了，我打算以游说他投资为借口，向他借来二百万，好叫我可以再赌一铺，藉以翻本。

今天是你最后的机会 快祈祷神爱你

邓天兆在一次戒赌福音餐会上与众人合影留念

“星期日上午姐姐和姐夫请我陪他们去教会，为了讨好他们以便借钱给我，于是答应同去。下午回家后姐夫竟然要我坐下来听他“讲耶稣”，大家都知道赌徒的时间宝贵，如此这般便花了我四个半小时分流正觉可惜之际，奇怪的事发生了。在讲论的过程中，姐夫突然站起来，指着我说：“这不是办法，你要快快祈祷，否则就会太迟了！神爱你。”那声音似曾相识，也不像姐夫的声音。他先后三次这样告诫我，说话一次比一次有力。我想起昨天在露台，打算轻生时所听到的声音；于是我大哭起来，深感神原来真的是爱我的。

接着，他们又要邀请我参加了一个布道会。当日台上的牧师大声疾呼，好像指着我说：“今天是最后的机会，希望你能改变，神爱你。”当我听到这些熟悉又亲切的呼唤时，我放声痛哭，整个人降伏下来，接受耶稣作我的救主。”

奇迹出现 看见真神的大爱

“后来，当我们到机场送姐夫回港时，他拥着我，并告知日前在睡梦中，(原来就在我打算跳楼的同一时间)，圣灵苏醒并感动他，要立刻起程到新加坡去看望我；正如我向神祈求的─“如果你是神，你要让我看见你的爱。”那一刻，我哭着跟神说，“我虽然不知道你是谁，但我要认识你。”我实在看见神的伟大，他多次派遣人来劝止我，爱我、挽回我。神的爱大大感动了我，最终，我在九一年六月受浸成为基督徒。我能够作出这个决定，最开心的当然是为我祈祷了二十五年的家姐和姐夫，以及我那位流泪祷告多时、对我不离不弃的太太。他们一起流出喜乐的眼泪，看着我这个职业赌徒回头了。

赌徒咒诅化解 生命奇迹改变

《路15: 4》“你们中间谁有一百只羊失去一只，不把这九十九只撇在旷野，去找那失去的羊，直到找着呢？《路15: 17》我告诉你们：一个罪人悔改，在天上也要这样为他欢喜，较比为九十九个不用悔改的义人欢喜更大。

“就这样，我们邓家几代赌徒的咒诅给神化解了！自此以后，我不但与赌绝缘，而且还经常在教会做见证，告诫沉迷赌博的人，劝他们不要被这个罪恶捆绑。邓天兆有一段很长的时间，就在教会里全时间服事；后来，也当上财经顾问的工作，为的是赚点钱来支持一些基督教事工。”

从一个职业赌徒变成一个到处为神作见证的信徒，邓天兆生命的大改变，再次证明上帝是真的。你或你的家人可有沉溺在赌海之中无法自拔？这里有一位爱你们真神，等着你们回转。