Testimony…
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I’ve been believing in God for a few years, and I don’t know much about God because I don’t pursue the truth. When things come to them, they can do whatever they want, rarely rely on God, look up to God, have no status of God in their hearts, and even misunderstand and complain about God when they come to some hardships and trials. However, seeing God’s love and salvation for me, truly experiencing the power of God’s Word, and understanding God’s good intentions to save me, I have the confidence to believe in God’s path of truth.
Diagnosed with “menopause”, unacceptable
After giving birth, I didn’t recuperate, I fell into confinement disease, I got severe arthritis, the pain was unbearable, and I couldn’t cure it by seeking medical advice everywhere. One day in June 2012, I heard from a relative that there was an herb that could cure arthritis, so I immediately took that herb, but after 3 months, I didn’t have my period, I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that I was not pregnant. I went to the pharmacy and bought menstrual medicine, but it didn’t work for more than a month. Then I went to the Chinese medicine hospital to prescribe Chinese medicine for more than a month, but it still didn’t work. The condition gradually worsened, my memory began to decline, I lost everything I wanted, I felt very swollen all over my body, sometimes my neck was swollen as if it was about to explode, I had no strength at all, I was not comfortable standing or sitting, so I had to sleep in bed and have no appetite for eating. At that time, I was in a bad mood every day, very irritable and depressed, my skin slowly became gray, and my face was wrinkled. Once, my relatives were surprised when they met me: “I haven’t seen you for a few days, why are you so old all of a sudden, and you look like you are forty or fifty years old?”
In the first month of 2013, I went to the Women’s and Children’s Hospital for a check-up, and the doctor diagnosed me with “menopause”. The doctor asked me, “What medicine have you taken?” I told him the truth, and the doctor said, “I have seen more than a dozen patients like you, all of whom have been sick by eating this herb, and some of them are younger than you, but I have prescribed her medicine for 6 months and has not been cured, this disease is not easy to cure!” When I heard the news, I was so frightened that my hands and feet became weak, and I walked in a trance, and I felt like the sky was about to fall, and my mind was blank. I’m only in my 30s, how can I get this disease? Can I be cured?
When I got home, I locked myself in my room, didn’t bother to talk to my family, couldn’t eat, and lay in bed all day with tears on my face, really unwilling to accept this reality. I kept thinking in my heart: Could it be that the equipment in that hospital was broken down and the examination was not accurate? I went to the People’s Hospital again to see a specialist, but the results of the examination were still the same, and I was completely desperate.
Helpless, I found support in God’s Word.
From then on, I lived in agony every day, and I washed my face with tears all day long, thinking: Why am I so unlucky? How could such a thing happen to me? Now that I am getting older than my mother-in-law, how can I go out to meet people in the future? I want to die. Then I suddenly thought of God, yes, why don’t I rely on God? Thinking of this, I felt as if I had grasped a life-saving straw, and I immediately came to God and prayed, “God! I am so miserable, I have only reached menopause in my 30s, how should I face life in the future?” O God, please save me. ”
Then I saw God’s Word: “Almighty God is the Almighty Doctor! To live in sickness is to be sick, to live in spirit is not to be sick, and as long as you have a breath, God will not let you die.” God’s Word is so sweet! Myths are the cure! Humiliate the devil and Satan! Touch the myth to rely on, God’s Word will save the heart quickly! There is no peace in all things. “When a person is sick or not, God’s will is in it, and when a person is sick, he does not understand God’s will, and he does not know how to carry it out, and he thinks that it is caused by his ignorance, but does he not know that God’s goodwill is in it? “God’s Word, with its authoritative power, has given me some faith and a lot of confidence in my heart. Reflecting on my performance during this time, although “menopause” is not a terminal disease, I have been tormented by it to the point that life is worse than death, my heart is negative and hopeless, and I even misunderstand and blame God, thinking that it is bad luck to have this disease. I always think that I got menopause because I took the wrong medicine, and I live in self-blame every day, but I don’t come to God to seek to touch God’s heart, resulting in depression every day, isn’t this foolish?
Then I saw a passage from God’s Words: “The myth of eating and drinking has worked, the spiritual life can be normal, no matter what the trials you encounter, or what circumstances come you, or when you are physically sick, or when your brothers and sisters are alienated from you, or when your family is in trouble, you can eat and drink normally, pray normally, and live the church life normally if you reach this point, it means that you are on the right track.” This passage gave me a way to practice, and I understood that no matter what happens, I should seek to understand God’s mind and maintain a normal relationship with God. Even if you are sick, you should not be subject to it, you should focus on living before God, do your duty, read God’s word when you should read God’s word, pray when you should pray, meet when you should meet, and I have to submit to God’s arrangement.
After understanding God’s heart, I felt strong in my heart, and I began to practice and enter, as long as there is something in the church that I need help to do, I will try to do what I can, and whenever I have time, I will read God’s Word and seek and pray to God for everything. Before I knew it, the feeling of exhaustion eased a lot, and I felt more energetic, and I thought to myself: it seems that my illness has been saved. Therefore, I am more active in doing my part.
God’s Word reveals that I am deeply remorseful in my dealings.
More than 20 days passed, and one day, I suddenly felt soreness and weakness all over my body, I was slumped in bed, and I unconsciously felt a little negative in my heart, thinking: During this time, I have actively my duty, and I have never shirked anything in the church, and I have felt better and better, and there is hope for seeing a better doctor, but why is it not working today? Do I have to find a big hospital to see, if there will always be a place that can cure my disease? But after thinking about it, the expert doctors in both hospitals said that this disease cannot be cured, and I have never heard of a famous doctor who can cure “menopause”. At this time, I completely lost faith in God, living in sickness, and the more I thought about it, the more desperate I became, especially when I looked at the withered grass outside the window that was swaying from side to side by the wind, and then looked at my old face, and suddenly felt so desolate and miserable. Helpless, I knelt on the bed and prayed to God: “God, when will my illness get better, I can’t go out and do my duty, God! ”
After praying, I saw God’s Word: “I have found that no matter what comes to me or what I treat, I always protect my interests, I care about my flesh, I always look for reasons and excuses for myself, and I have no truth at all, but I defend my flesh, plan for my future, ask God for grace, and think of any good.” Why do we demand too much from God? This proves that human nature is greedy, that there is no reason at all in front of God, and that everything man does, whether it is prayer, fellowship, or preaching, in short, what man seeks, what he wants, what he desires, what he desires, what he asks for from God, what he asks for from God, what he hopes to receive from God. If you believe in Him, if you believe in Him, if you believe in Him, then you will not dare to make demands on Him, and you will not be qualified to make demands on Him, whether it is unreasonable or reasonable.
If you have true faith, believing that He is God, you have no choice but to worship, only obedience. “God’s Word was like a sharp sword, which completely exposed the meanness in my heart. Looking back on the past 20 days, I have been actively engaged in church work, and I think I have been faithful and confident in God, and it is all because God can heal my illness as soon as possible and free me from the torment of illness. But when I saw that my illness was not getting better, I became discouraged and despaired, and even complained about misunderstandings and blamed God, and I was tired of doing my duty, because I did my duty to receive grace and be healed by God, and I was not willing to do my duty.
Isn’t my purpose just to make a deal with God? We are all created by God, and a breath of breath is also given by God, so how can I, a corrupt person, be qualified to ask God for terms and demands, isn’t this too irrational? The more I think about it, the more I feel that I believe in God and do not treat God as God, and I have no face to come to God. At this time, I realized that my previous views of believing in God were wrong, so I made up my mind in front of God: I am willing to turn back to God, I don’t want to ask God according to my will, no matter whether my illness will be cured in the end, I am willing to submit to God’s arrangement, and do my part as a creature to repay God’s love!
Submit to God’s mercy and miraculously appear, deeply loved by God.
Thank God for letting me understand God’s heart, and since then I have put this disease in God’s hands, often meeting with my brothers and sisters, and living the church life, my mood has improved, and my face has a smile, and it is no longer the worried face of the past. Sometimes I still worry about my illness, but I can immediately realize that this is Satan’s desire to make me blame God and resist God through my illness, I should not fall for Satan, I should risk my life to satisfy God. So, I kept my heart quiet in front of God, read God’s words to find out God’s heart, and prayed silently from my heart: “God, whether my illness is good or not is in your hands if you let my illness be cured, I will be cured, if this illness is not good for my life, I have no complaints, I am willing to obey, pursue the truth, change my satanic nature, and do my duty to satisfy you!” In this way, I sought again and again through prayer and defeated Satan’s thoughts through God’s Word. One day not long after, I unexpectedly found out that I had a period, and at this moment I cried with emotion and thanked God from the bottom of my heart. Seeing God’s all-powerful sovereignty and the authority and power of God’s Word, God said: “Almighty God is an all-powerful doctor! To live in illness is to be sick, and to live in the spirit is not to be sick”, “Myth is the cure! Humiliate the devil and Satan! Touch the myth to rely on, God’s Word is quick to save the heart! There is no peace in all things.” These words are too practical. Doctors say that menopause cannot be cured, but I just put into practice God’s Word, reversed my view of making a deal with God, and experienced God’s work with a heart of obedience to God, and then I was healed by God, from the doctor’s diagnosis of menopause to the recovery of the disease, in just over 20 days, I saw God’s wonderful deeds, God is so wise and so omnipotent! Although God’s environment does not fit my concept, it is the best. If I hadn’t taken the wrong medicine, I wouldn’t have come to God to pray to God and touch God’s heart, and I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to experience God’s work and experience the truth and reality of God’s Word!
In the following days, my face slowly became rosy, my memory was restored, my eyes were gone, and what was even more amazing was that the arthritis that I couldn’t see well everywhere was cured. Once on the street, a friend I hadn’t seen in a long time said, “Why are you younger than before, you look four or five years younger than before.” Once I met an acquaintance again, and he said, “Why are you so pale and so beautiful now?” I know very well in my heart that this is God’s care and protection and wonderful work.
Thank God! I have never experienced such a trial before, I believe that God is not at all, I do not pursue the truth, I have no faith in God, I just follow the crowd. But from this experience, I have come to know my own despicable heart of believing in God, and I have also seen God’s wonderful deeds so that I no longer follow the crowd of believing in God, I have also truly realized that believing in God should obey God and fear God! All glory be to God, amen!
