Testimony…
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One day two years ago, I felt a bag on my chest while taking a shower, and I couldn’t help but think: Why did I suddenly grow a bag? If I look at the recent weight loss for no reason, will I get any bad disease? But then I thought: What kind of disease will I get at such a young age? Don’t scare me, I should be fine! But after two months, I lost 20 pounds compared to before, sometimes I suddenly stood up with black eyes, and it took a minute or two to see things, when I went out shopping or ran errands, I had to rest for an hour or two to recover my strength, and from time to time I had chest pain and some difficulty breathing, I couldn’t help but wonder: Did I have some disease?
Just in case, I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said, “The bag in my chest is a tumor, and it is very active, so you have to go to a specialized hospital for excision.” “I came to the cancer hospital again with trepidation. After doing a thorough examination, the doctor told me that I had breast cancer and that I had to be treated as soon as possible, otherwise, my life would be in danger when the cancer spread. He and other oncologists decided on a treatment plan and told me that if I started chemotherapy, my hair would fall out, my eyes would become inflamed, my mouth would have sores, and I would vomit. Listening to what the doctor said, my mind went blank and I couldn’t listen to anything, I sat down in my chair and fell into despair: I was only 24 years old when I got cancer, should I die at such a young age? Several of my husband’s relatives had cancer and died without being cured, and his aunt also died of breast cancer, should I die like this?
In desperation, I walked on the way home, looking at the crowds coming and going, listening to the laughter of adults and children in the park, my mood was full of melancholy, helplessness, and pain welled up in my heart, and tears flowed uncontrollably when I thought that I had cancer. When I got home, I prayed to God, “God, the diagnosis from the hospital seems to be the verdict of my death, and now I am scared and very sad. What should I do? Lead me and help me out of this desperate situation. During the prayer, I remembered God’s Word: “Almighty God is the Almighty Doctor!” To live in sickness is to be sick, to live in spirit is not to be sick, as long as you have a breath, God will not let you die.” “The fate of man is in the hands of God……” God’s words gave me great comfort and confidence, and at the same time moved me, I also understood that God is in charge of the fate of mankind and all things, and my life is in God’s hands, and without God’s permission, even if I have cancer, I will not die. With God as my back, I have nothing to worry about. I should give myself to God, submit to God’s sovereign arrangement, be at God’s mercy, and face cancer bravely. Thinking about this, my emotions gradually stabilized and became less painful.
Next, I prayed and leaned on God and received healing. But after I went home from chemotherapy for the first time, I was dizzy, had tinnitus, vomiting, and didn’t want to eat anything, and I didn’t have any strength. Thinking about the 21 times of chemotherapy, when this pain ended, my tears flowed out uncontrollably, and later, I didn’t eat for 4 days, my body was very uncomfortable, I wanted to give up the treatment in the pain, and I felt that it was better to die than so painful. When my roommate saw that I was uncomfortable, he took care of me, comforted me, and read God’s Word to me. I gained faith by praying to God and relying on God’s Word, and when I had faith in God, I recovered well. During a follow-up check-up in the hospital, I happened to meet a patient who had been undergoing chemotherapy with me, she was skinny, and weak, and talked to me with a cat, and she was constantly panting. I received treatment with her, but now I have gained 10 pounds, my blood value has also recovered, and my physical strength is also very good. At this time, I burst into tears, deeply touched by God’s love.
In March 2017, I browsed a Facebook message on my phone: A breast cancer patient was treated for 3 years, but eventually died due to ineffective treatment. Seeing what happened to her, I thought that I had been treated for months, could I be like her and die?
Not long after, when I went to the hospital for chemotherapy, the doctor said that they had made an appointment with the surgeon and the plastic surgeon to discuss my surgical plan and that I would have to remove all of my breasts so that I was ready for surgery. The doctor’s words made me suffer again: I have been afraid of pain since I was a child, and now I have to have a total resection, and it will hurt after the operation, will I die like the woman on Facebook? If I will die sooner or later, I will not have surgery. The doctor’s words kept echoing in my mind, I was in pain when I returned home, my physical discomfort after chemotherapy, the impact of my emotions, I couldn’t get up in bed for three days, except for eating, I lay in bed. When my husband saw that I was uncomfortable, he read a passage of God’s Word with me: “Some people like to reason and imagine, but where can the maximum scope of man’s imagination go? Can it go beyond this world? Can man’s reasoning and man’s imagination construct the truth and accuracy of God’s authority? Can man’s reasoning and man’s imagination construct the truth and accuracy of God’s authority? Can man’s reasoning and imagination be able to truly comprehend and obey God’s authority? Facts have proved that man’s reasoning and man’s imagination are only the product of man’s mind, and they are not of the slightest help or benefit to man’s understanding of God’s authority. Since we cannot know God’s authority by imagination, what is the only way to achieve true knowledge of God’s authority? Through eating and drinking God’s Word, through fellowship, and through the experience of God’s Word, we can gradually experience and gradually confirm that we can gradually understand, and we can know it step by step, and there is no other way to know God’s authority. Not letting you imagine it doesn’t mean you sitting still, or not letting you do nothing. Don’t use your brain to think and imagine, you don’t need to reason logically, you don’t use knowledge to analyze, you don’t rely on science, but through God’s Word, through the truth, through everything you come into contact with in life, to experience, verify, and confirm that the God you believe in is authoritative, to prove that He is in charge of your destiny, and His ability to confirm that He is the real God Himself, which is a way that everyone must go through to know God. For all that God is and that all that God is is not empty, but actual. ”
“We think and plan to do this because we don’t know the Almighty Lord of God,” said the husband. We are creatures, we are in control of our own destiny, we can’t even predict what will happen in the next second, how can we imagine something more long-lasting? Everyone’s fate and the length of life are God’s final say, and we can’t speculate and judge our future illness and outcome based on other cancer cases and scientific knowledge, because this is not at all consistent with the fact that God is in control. Therefore, we must learn to let go of our imagination, surrender ourselves completely to God, truly rely on God, and experience God’s sovereignty in the future treatment, so that it is in line with the truth and God’s heart!”
After listening to God’s Word and my husband’s fellowship, I realized that since I had cancer, I always reasoned by my imagination that I would die like my husband’s relatives who had cancer and Facebook patients, so I was always in pain and wanted to give up treatment and wait for death. I now understand that speculation and imagination cannot make me aware of the fact that God is sovereign, and cannot make me submit to God’s arrangement, but only keep me away from God and live in pain. What I will suffer today, what will become of my body, what the doctor says, and other people’s experiences are not mine, only God knows what I will face, and only God can control and control everything about me. What I should do is to have true faith in God, rely on God more in the process, and know God according to the facts He has done. I think of the same treatment I received for other cancer patients before, but after each chemotherapy treatment, I had fewer side effects and recovered faster than them, isn’t this all God-preserving? Thank God! Seeing God’s Word, I once again had the confidence to experience it, and I was willing to let go of my imagination and submit to God’s Lord.
After 3 months of chemotherapy, the doctor happily told me that the cancer was too small to be touched by hand, that I had the fastest and best recovery she had ever seen, and that after they discussed it, I would not need to have a total resection, just a small operation in the breast. At this time, I shed tears of emotion, I know that this is God’s love, it is God’s salvation! When I face cancer according to the requirements of mythology, I see God’s work, God has changed everything! Thank God, on the day of the operation, my husband and I prayed to God and relied on God, and the operation went smoothly. When I left the hospital, the doctor said happily, “You are really lucky, you are the person I have seen the fastest and best treatment in the past few years, the cancer has been removed, as long as you come back for regular check-ups in the future!” I happily said to him: “It was my God who saved me.” ”
God’s Word: “No matter what your background may be, no matter what your journey lies ahead, no one can escape the mercy and arrangement of God, and no one can control his destiny, because only that One, the Ruler of all things, can do such a work.” “It’s right that you follow God, God won’t lead you into the ditch, even if he hands you over to Satan, God will be responsible to the end, you have to have this faith, this is the attitude of the creature towards God, ‘God just gave me to Satan as a plaything, he is also God, I can’t change my heart to follow him, I can’t change my faith in him’, that’s right. ”
Yes, only God can control the destiny of man, and when we encounter any danger, only God can be our master, as long as we have true faith in God, we can overcome any difficulties in front of us. Looking back on this cancer experience, God led me step by step and rekindled my faith in fighting cancer: when I lost hope in life and lay in bed and gave up treatment, it was God’s Word that encouraged me and gave me the courage to face treatment, and when I endured the pain of treatment, God’s love sustained me and gave me strength. I was with me through the agony of cancer, and when I lost my way and imagined the outcome of my destiny, God did not give up on me because of my ignorance, but still opened and led me with God’s Word, strengthened my faith, and gave me support. After experiencing cancer, I felt God’s selfless love and favor for me, and I truly experienced that only God is my dependence, and only God can control everything I have. This experience is etched in my heart, and I sincerely give thanks and praise to God!
Now that I have recovered my health and can live a normal life, work normally, and do my part as much as I can in the church, I feel that every day is full and happy! I am glad that I have followed God and thank God for giving me a second life! I have made up my mind that I am willing to hand over my future life to God, submit to God’s arrangement, continue to experience God’s work, and testify to repay God’s love.
