?真实的恩典[11…
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耶稣叫了十二个门徒来，差遣他们两个两个地出去，也赐给他们权柄，制伏污鬼；【可6: 7】
主耶稣33年半的时间里面，后面3年半祂开始出来传道、医病、赶鬼。祂做了很多很重要的事情，一个大方向祂宣讲天国的福音，另外一个大的方向祂医治各样的病症。同时主耶稣做了一个更大的一件事情。
祂不是一天到晚在讲道的，祂也不是一天到晚在行神迹的，但是祂整天都在做一件事，特别在那3年半的时间里面，就是带门徒。门徒在祂讲道也跟着祂，祂行神迹也跟着祂，医病赶鬼跟着祂，五饼二鱼喂饱五千人跟着祂。耶稣做的几乎每一件事这些在祂旁边的人都跟着祂，带门徒真的是一个很重要的工作。
人亡政息真的是一个可怕的一个状况。就是当这个人不管他的一生做了多重要、了不起的事情，有一天他走了，他离开这个世界了，他所有的工作没有人接得下去。耶稣不是这样，祂是这一位独一的真神，祂做的事我们人怎么能够做呢？感谢主，祂带了12个门徒，中间11个人跟着往下走。
历来祂作榜样，所有带门徒的是让他们跟着耶稣做，看耶稣怎么做，耶稣怎么样医病，耶稣怎么样赶鬼，耶稣做，作榜样。然后教导他们。祂有榜样，然后有很好的教导，告诉他们说你要注意什么，你们要怎么样开始做。并给他们权柄。主耶稣给他们权柄，因为他们所做的事，要跟着耶稣所做的事，不只是知识，是带着能力，带着权柄。
主耶稣也为他们建立团队。主耶稣是让他们两个两个人出去，建立团队。在一个团队当中，即便有人是那种超级能干得不得了，优秀得不得了，但是因为整个是一个团队，就算有一天这个人离开了，这个团队像一个架构一样，可以撑在那里继续往前行。耶稣帮助他们不是英雄主义的塑造下一个英雄人物，耶稣让他们成为团队，然后彼此成全，各尽其职，做成神要他们所做的事。
教会里面需要门徒训练，才能够让这样一个重要的大使命的托付永续经营在神的恩典当中。求主帮助我们，在神的恩典里面，我们可以一起学耶稣，给榜样，给教导，给权柄，建立团队。
愿在你手中的每一样工作，都是这样深深的经历神，以至于它是可以永续经营的。感谢神 ! 奉主耶稣圣名蒙恩! 阿们!
?真实的恩典[11…
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耶稣就在那里不得行什么异能，不过按手在几个病人身上，治好他们。他也诧异他们不信，就往周围乡村教训人去了。【可6: 5-6】
人的不信，“不相信”使我们没办法经历神的大能。祂的确是那位满有能力的神，但是如果我们里面存着很多不信的恶心，经上说：不信的那个恶，其实是一个罪。就是如果我们里面塞满了很多的“不可能，不可能，- ”你就什么也看不见，但是拒绝那种不可能的、负面的思想。
我有许多的困难，我渴望圣经里面所说的这一位全能的神，祂可以成为我的帮助。我要对你说，神的能力从来没有减少，祂的确就是那一位全能的神，但是如果我不信，你就什么也得不着。
就好像银行里面有那么多的钱，银行没有倒塌，银行始终有那么多的钱在那里，可是你拿不到，因为你手上没有提款卡 – 信心。信心是一个提款卡，所以当你没有提款卡的时候，不是银行没有钱，是我拿不出来。求主恩待我们，你愿不愿意跟主说，主帮助我，让我得着信心，我试试看，跨出这一步，我要经历我的神是不是那一位又真又活的神。
信心这一把钥匙带我们进到上帝的全能里面，主啊求祢赐给我们一点小小的信心，以至于我们可以跨出这一步，经历祢的全能。在祢凡事都能，在你所感受到的那个无能为力里面，带着信心经历神的大能全能，感谢神 ! 奉主耶稣圣名蒙恩! 阿们!
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2. This time it’s fate
In December 2009, I went to Suqian to talk about business at a place called Suyang. The road from Suqian to Suyang is very good, it is a double road. There is a green belt in the center of the road, which should be regarded as a first-class highway. At that time, my friend and I were driving, and when we were about to arrive in Suyang, my friend fell asleep, and I was also very tired and sleepy. It didn’t take long for my eyelids to blink a few times and I fell asleep, I don’t know how long. I woke up from my dream with a thud and knew something was wrong. By the time I reacted, the car had already crossed the green belt and drove onto the opposite side of the road. Fortunately, there was no car on the other side, so I hit the right direction and didn’t drive into the ditch! Thank God!
We were all safe and sound, but the bumper of the car broke. There are also two broken wheels. Thinking about the speed of the car at that time, it was really fast, and if there was a big truck on the opposite side, it would flatten our small car. If there are pedestrians on the road, it will cause a major traffic accident, and I am afraid of fear! Thank God for His grace! This is because a believing family is blessed by God, God is with us all the time, and it is God who saved me! But in this car accident, I did not go to church to give thanks, and I quickly forgot about it, so that I only now know God. It wasn’t until the loving Heavenly Father delivered me from sickness and death for the third time that I truly threw myself into the arms of the Lord.
In March 2010, I was diagnosed with a pancreatic tumor and had to undergo surgery. Before the surgery, my family and my brothers and sisters in Christ prayed for me before God to save me and heal me. Even my 68-year-old father, a ××× worker, fell to his knees crying and begged God to heal me. The old father knelt down three times, all of them crying and praying. When he prayed for me for the third time, his mood suddenly calmed down, and he felt that I was at peace. Thank God, it is God’s grace! After the operation, my father came to see me, he clasped my hands with both hands, and the first thing he said was, “Son, God bless you!” I looked at my father’s red and swollen and tearful eyes, and my heart was about to break! I didn’t dare to look at my father more, otherwise, I would not be able to control my emotions. I turned my face to the ceiling and said firmly, “Dad, God is with me, my surgery was successful! I will get better soon, don’t worry!” My father nodded straight and said yes! I know that my father has been comforted! Brothers and sisters, I was diagnosed in the Nanjing Military Military Hospital. But after seeing the images, experts from the military hospital said that the tumor could not be removed.
We went to consult the second specialist doctor, and the second specialist doctor said, “What stupid doctor would dare to do this to you!” this means that my illness was hopeless. The family held on to the only hope and went to the Provincial People’s Hospital to give it a try. Director Qian, an expert from the Provincial People’s Hospital, received us, and after looking at the image and the inspection report, he said: “We are not sure that we can do it, but we can open it and take a look, and we can do our best to do it, if we can’t do it, we will reroute you and maintain temporary life!” After family research, it was decided to agree to the operation.
At 7:30 a.m. I was wheeled into the operating room. It wasn’t until around 5:30 p.m. that my surgery was over. Thank God for His grace! When the chief doctor came out of the operation, he confidently told my family, saying, “Luckily! The tumor was successfully removed! And it was cut clean!” But what I didn’t expect was that at about 10 p.m., I woke up and felt a pain in my abdomen, and when the doctor came to check on me, I coughed violently and spit out something like a blood clot from my mouth, and then I didn’t know anything! Later, I learned that it was an intra-abdominal hemorrhage and had to undergo a second operation. So at two o’clock in the morning, he was pushed into the operating room again.
The second operation is very dangerous, and it is almost impossible to get off the operating table! Because the abdominal cavity of the second operation is full of blood, the internal organs cannot be seen clearly, and the internal organs can be easily damaged. When the second operation came, my wife couldn’t control her emotions anymore and she was completely devastated. The doctor told her to sign it, and she was delirious. In confusion, his wife could only cry and call Pastor Wu and say, “God is not saving him!” and Pastor Wu said, “Don’t be afraid, I saw God’s hand holding him in prayer!” Thank God for His grace, as the pastor said, I woke up safely the next day. And I slept so soundly, I never slept so comfortably, just like a person who has just unloaded the burden! I was tired, and I was completely refreshed, my mind was clear, and my whole body was relaxed! I said to my second sister-in-law, who came to see me, “I slept so comfortably today! I want to sleep here for another week!” “Thank God for His grace! I was able to be so comfortable in the second operation, it was completely God’s healing! The second operation was also successful. But I didn’t expect that after 7 days, my wound suddenly swelled and I felt like the needle and thread were falling off. Hurry up and call the doctor, the chief doctor rushed to untie the gauze of the wound, and the blood sprayed straight out!
The chief doctor was also startled, but quickly calmed down and quickly tied the blood vessels inside. Then a few more stitches. The bleeding finally stopped. However, the chief doctor was helpless in the face of my condition. There were no stitches on the wounds outside, and I said that after two days of observation, it would be up to you to make it! When the doctor said such things, my heart was very clear! I knew how many times I was tortured, and the doctor no longer had much confidence in my condition! I knew that only God could heal me and save me! My family, my brothers and sisters in Christ, were praying for me.
That night, I was asleep, and I felt a little hot pain in my wound, but it was as if a warm hand was gently caressing my wound, and that hand was so warm and loving! Thank God for His grace, God is healing me! After a day and a night of observation, the next day I was in good condition, and all the indicators on the computer were healthy, and even the chief doctor was amazed! His surprised smile was also full of surprise! He said, “Very good, very good! Everything is fine!” I quickly recovered and was discharged from the hospital a week later!
In all three surgeries, God healed me through the hand of a doctor. God loves me, God is with me, and God has saved me! I know that without God’s healing, I can’t go through even one ordeal! Thank the Lord for His grace! I will follow the Lord and walk the gospel path. Let more people receive God’s grace! After the operation, I was in good condition! But the devil took the opportunity to attack me, day and night, and when I closed my eyes, all I saw were colorless faces, or my face was covered with blood, and I was deformed and horrified! From far to near, from left to right, floating in front of my eyes.
I had never experienced this before, I didn’t believe it when people told me before, I didn’t expect it to happen to me! My wife and I kept praying for God to drive away the filth in front of me. Maybe it’s because of my weakness, but it’s still a little far from God’s inspired communication. I didn’t get rid of those shadows for several days, and in my helpless confusion, my mind remembered the words in the hymns that my wife usually sang. I can’t remember which poem it was, so I made it up from my memory and feelings. I can’t sing, but I sing in a very good tune! Lord Jesus! I love you, and with you I have everything! You are on earth as in heaven, Lord Jesus! I love you, you have given me the bright sunshine! You have given me the power of life! Lord Jesus! I love you! With you I have everything! What am I afraid of? Lord Jesus! I love you! I will follow you all my life! I will follow you all my life! I will follow you all my life! I will sing every night until I fall asleep.
In the morning, I insisted on going to the window and singing. Because he had just undergone surgery, his body was very weak, like a chick that had just come out of its shell, staggering around. Looking out the window, the spring sun that has just risen, shining on the mountains and forests in the distance and the gardens nearby, looks particularly brilliant and beautiful! The feeling of being born again makes me wish I could go out for a walk! I can only sing in praise of the beautiful world that God has created. These lyrics were so deeply imprinted in my mind that about the fourth day, those filthy faces disappeared from my eyes! In their place, these powerful songs! Thank God! I truly felt the power of God’s Holy Spirit who created all things in the universe! Thank God for His grace! During the operation, I felt the warmth and love of Christianity, this big family! Before my surgery, several brothers and sisters came to visit me after learning about the situation. Comfort me in every way to have faith in the Lord. And pray for me with tears!
I was touched enough to meet a few people I didn’t know, made a long bus trip, and came to the 9th floor of the inpatient department to see me! But far from that, they came to see me after my operation, bought a lot of food, and encouraged me to have faith and rely on the Lord! I cried! In the same way, when I returned home, my brothers and sisters came to see me, cared for me, cared for me, prayed for me, and offered their love. It made me feel the great happiness of being a member of the family who believed in Christ!
This is the Christian brothers and sisters, their love is so selfless, so sincere! Thank God! I want to be a Christian so that more people can enjoy the warmth and love of Christianity, this big family! Now I am very close to my brothers and sisters, and I love every brother and sister because I grew up in their love!
I had surgery on March 8, was baptized in May, and joined the choir in June. At the end of September, my health check-up turned out to be normal! God healed me, the Holy Spirit understood me, and I understood that greed is the source of human sin. Gluttony will cause disease, and greed for money will also get disease, and even death in violation of the law. Thank you to our loving Heavenly Father for opening my eyes so that I can see the world. I used to see the world with my physical eyes, but now I see the world with spiritual eyes, and I see two completely different worlds.
God’s Word tells me, “What was once beneficial, is now lossy, what was once glorious, now it is shame, what was once precious, now it is dung!” When we look at the world with our eyes, we see a world of vanity, jealousy, hatred, lust, greed, pleasure, and insatiable sin, and in this world, we do not see our sins to the point of death. Only by relying on the Lord Jesus Christ and washing away our sins with the Blood can our hearts be cleansed and we can see the world spiritually.
Spiritual eyes can see our sins clearly, keep us away from the world of sin, and also enable us to see another beautiful world full of love, that is, the world of eternal life with joy and happiness! Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I believe that under the Lord’s care, this young seed of mine will take root, sprout, blossom, and bear fruit. Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I will cherish and cherish all the affection, friendship, and natural scenery that God has given me!
Although I don’t know how long my life path is, I will go through my life with love until I reach the Heavenly Father who loves me! Dear brothers and sisters, Life is divided into two levels, one is life and the other is life. I used to be in sin after life, material things, and money, and I forgot that there was still life. But God loved the world, and in my afflictions, it was the Lord Jesus Christ who saved me and chose me again and again.
After listening to my testimony of life, may we all surrender our lives to God, let God be the Savior of our lives, and look to Him and trust Him so that we will always be healthy, joyful, and peaceful on the road of life! Today I will confess my sins before you! Pray that the Lord Jesus Christ will once again wash away all my sins, all my unclean thoughts, and all my unclean souls with His precious Blood! Let my heart be cleansed! Let me become a truly regenerated person, let me be an instrument of the Holy Spirit, and let my spiritual life be nourished by the Holy Spirit and grow like a green tree, which grows without growth before it bears fruit!
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Here’s what one listener testified: Dear brothers and sisters, peace in Christ! Thank you, Lord, for giving me this opportunity to share my testimony with you. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says, “If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; “Thank you to the Lord for the grace of a new creature who has been saved from the line of death by God again and again. Today I want to glorify the name of the Lord by giving a good testimony to the Lord. Pray that the Lord will lead me so that my testimony will touch more people to come to the Lord and come to the Lord.
All men are guilty before the Lord. I am a sinful person, and I have been infected with gambling in my heart since I was a child. I remember it was when I was 8 or 9 years old, and my big brother gambled with his neighbors’ brothers. At that time, they gambled very little, only 5 dimes a dollar. But as I watched from the sidelines, I couldn’t help but be curious, thinking that this kind of money would be so easy! Just like that, a seed of sin and greed was planted in my heart. So much so that when I grew up and started a family, the seeds of sin began to germinate. That was when I was back home, and I was in good condition. As soon as I graduated from school, my father opened a store on the street and asked me to start a business, mainly selling hardware and electrical appliances, building materials, and paints, and later I developed liquefied gas sales.
At that time, business was very good, I was a salesman, and I was also a buyer, and I was busy all day. I can make a lot of money every year, but during the Spring Festival holiday, I am like a wild horse, gambling day and night, until I lose all the money I have worked hard for. My wife knew that I loved to gamble, so she watched me not go out, and every night she had to watch me go to bed before she went to sleep. However, my heart was so burning that I could not sleep, and when I was sure that my wife was asleep, I quietly got up, and the gate of the courtyard was locked by my wife, so I climbed over the courtyard wall and went out, and then went to find a blockage. It was a long way to find a casino in the town, through dark woods and ghostly slopes, and I felt like I was enchanted by ghosts, I didn’t know anything about fear, and the gambling demon led me to destruction. In ’97 I was arrested for gambling and lost another year’s hard-earned money.
My wife wanted to change me in a new environment, so she asked me to go to the county seat to develop. I invested in and opened a liquefied gas station in the county, and the business was very good, I also hired a lot of employees to manage it as a company. I became a boss who didn’t have to do anything on my own, and every day I went out to hotels, cafes, karaoke halls, and occasionally casinos with my friends who drank and meat and indulged in a carnal life of greed and sin. However, my income is still the same, and the money I earn every year is either squandered by me or lost by me, and it is still an empty shelf from round to round.
I don’t know how to repent, and I’m still addicted to this so-called boss life. In the county, we have always rented a house, and I have not thought about building a comfortable nest for my wife and children. In 2002, my wife bought a piece of land and built a two-story house with a single door. So that we have a home. When the house was first built, it had not yet been renovated, and his wife sold the façade house in her hometown and was going to use the money to decorate it. But as soon as the money from the sale of the house was remitted to my account, I was addicted to gambling and lost it all overnight.
My wife often took my two children, a 5-year-old and an 8-year-old, looking for my husband, who didn’t know how to come home, at night. Think about how much I owe my wife and children. Gambling eventually led me into the abyss and towards death. At the end of 2007, I lost more than 300,000 yuan at one time, more than 300,000 yuan! But this is not a small number! Not only did I lose my savings, but I also lost the 150,000 yuan that my brother lent me to do business, and I was equal to 150,000 yuan in debt! What a blow! Powerful pressure can shatter and destroy a family! However, my wife did not know that I had lost so much money, and my greedy desire did not make me repent!
I took out the last remaining 20,000 yuan and went to gamble on the last handful, this time not to gamble, but to go to the casino to put a loan shark. I have a cousin who is in the casino, and he told me to give 20,000 yuan, and he gives me 2,000 yuan in interest every day, what a tempting benefit! I calculated that it is 60,000 yuan a month! It is 360,000 yuan in half a year! In this way, the money I lost will be able to earn back soon! Who knows, 20,000 yuan will go and there will be no return, and when I go to look for my cousin, there is no trace of him! I have not collapsed and fallen after losing more than 300,000 yuan, but when the only hope of 20,000 yuan is destroyed, I have completely collapsed! I cried bitterly, and I was never so wronged and miserable in my life! I laughed, and I never laughed so desolate in my life!
I will never forget that dark day in Wuxi, the day of facing death, I really almost died there. My cousin and a bunch of thugs lived in an underground bathhouse, and I stayed there for more than half a month. Because of my severe mental trauma, life there was like hell, life was worse than death! I couldn’t sleep all night. It’s all in nightmares and hallucinations. I always feel in a daze, there are a lot of ** people who come to the baths, catch drug addicts and gamblers, and the baths are in chaos all day long.
At 4 or 5 a.m., I felt that I was being chased by **, and I got up from bed in fear, ran to the edge of the bath, jumped into the pool at once, and was stuffy in the water. At this time, a waiter came and grabbed me and said, “This water is boiling.” “But I was numb and I didn’t know anything, I didn’t feel anything at all, I was just full of fear and fear! I wanted to get out of hell as soon as possible, but I felt tired and tired because I hadn’t rested well for a long time. I was confused, so I wanted to find a hospital to infuse some nutrient solution to replenish my physical strength, otherwise, my physical strength would not be able to support me to go home. I walked out of the bath, it was drizzling outside, I looked up at the sky, tasted the sweetness of the drizzle with my face and lips, and smiled and walked forward. At this time, my mind was no longer normal.
I didn’t know the south, south, west, and northwest, so I kept walking, and I only had one concept in my mind, going to the hospital for infusion. I found a hospital in a daze. I walked into the hospital, saw two nurses inside, and said to them, “Give me some nutrient solution.” The two nurses didn’t speak, just looked at me in amazement. I said a second time, “Please give me some nutrient solution, I haven’t rested for a few nights!” The two nurses still looked at me with surprised eyes, but still didn’t answer. I said impatiently, “Would you like to give me some nutrition?” At this time, the two nurses came to their senses and said, “I’m sorry! “I was so ashamed that I almost fainted and nervously said, “I’m sorry”.
The nurses didn’t pay any attention to me, just grinning and muttering something as if to say I was a psychopath. I turned around and left the hospital, like a homeless man, drifting in the rain and fog. In the end, with the help of others, I found the city hospital, where I was given a nutrient solution, and I was prescribed some tranquilizers to eat, so that I could return home. As soon as I got home, I lay down for a week. My wife asked me what was wrong, and I said that I was tired and sick from doing business in Wuxi, so I would just take some medicine and rest for a while.
In fact, she didn’t know the painful depression in my heart. The sin is what I have done, so let me bear it alone! I also want to die to end this suppressed pain! But what if I want to die my wife and children? If my wife knew that I had lost so much money, she would have collapsed, and this family would have been broken. I thought that this day would be the end of my life. However, paper can’t contain the fire, and my wife is a Christian, who is in charge of the children’s Sunday School service and knows many brothers and sisters. One day, my wife heard from a sister that I had lost a lot of money, so she checked my accounts. She cried! Thank God for His grace! My wife was strong by the Lord, and she didn’t even say a word of complaint, but just said to me, “I don’t want anything but you.” We can earn money slowly and pay it back slowly. This sentence brought tears to my eyes, made me see hope, and see the light, and cheered me up to face life.
Thank you for the grace of the Lord! From mid-June to the end of July 2008, my business earned nearly 200,000 yuan, and I have never earned so much money in such a short period. In this way, we not only paid off my brother’s account but also had tens of thousands of yuan left. God has been gracious to us, and my wife found out about my loss in May 2008, that is, it was only a little more than 2 months from the time we carried the burden to the time we unloaded it. Thank you to the Lord for His grace, not only to relieve us of the burden of toil but also to save me, the prodigal son, from the death line of gambling. And make us quickly become financially prosperous, so that our family can face this life full of sunshine, joy, and happiness anew! Recalling the gambling scene when I was a child, I saw that the environment can change the fate of a person’s life. An environment full of sin will lead people to grow into sin and gradually lead people to the path of sin and destruction.
Only children who grow up in a loving environment will be healthy. When I was younger, I was a child who was affected by the evil of gambling. Therefore, we need to keep more children away from sin from an early age, let them know our loving Heavenly Father, so that they can listen to the word of the Lord, grow up healthily under the light and care of the Lord, and they will always be healthy and happy. When I finished writing about this gambling experience, I saw my sin. I was greedy for money, abandoned my wife and children, gambled, and almost lost my life.
Matthew 16:26, says, “What profit is it for a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his own life, and what can a man exchange for his life?” Thank you, Lord for saving me and bringing tears of remorse to my heart. I hated myself for causing pain and hurt to my family. Even if my wife and children could forgive me, I couldn’t forgive myself. Sin is extremely harmful to human beings, it can destroy the happiness of the family, it can damage the health of the body, and it can sell the human soul. The wages of sin is death, and we can only be saved by relying on the Lord Jesus. But at that time, I was indebted to the love of the Lord Jesus Christ, and I didn’t throw myself into His arms because I was not yet a believer. But the Lord Jesus Christ loved me and called me again to move me by the Holy Spirit. On May 8, 2009, when I was moved, I wrote a journal called “Inspiration”. My wife is a Christian, and under her guidance, I understand that there are many truths in the Bible, but I still don’t understand it well, and there is still a certain distance from it. I don’t know that the highest state of life is to enter the world of inspiration, and God has chosen your soul to sublimate, that is, you have entered the happiest and happiest world of eternal life. I used to believe only in the truth, not in the existence of a world with souls.
But today is a feeling I have never felt in my life, just when I was listening to the program “Embrace Every Day” on Liangyou Radio, the Holy Spirit moved me, my eyes suddenly brightened, and the world seemed to become many times bigger, the sun was shining outside, and the scenery was exceptionally clear. That kind of realm is so beautiful, my brain is as clear as water as if it has become many times smarter. The joy in my heart filled me with confidence, and I couldn’t help but dance, just like an innocent and lovely little actor who was full of confidence in the future, dancing so naturally and moving so gracefully and softly. Every movement of oneself is as clear as what you see in the mirror. I usually sit in the arena, but now I feel like there are 10,000 spectators, and I am so comfortable that I completely forget my existence. It’s a beautiful phenomenon that can’t be expressed in words. My eyes were moistened with joy, and I shed tears of joy, and said to my wife, “It turns out that having a soul is the power of life!” “The joy in my heart gives me strength for the future life, and the cultivation of the soul is inseparable from God’s inspiration. Like an ignorant child who can’t do without his parents, I seek Him and follow Him, never wanting to leave Him! God saved me, the Holy Spirit understood me, and I understood many things. A person who is close to God’s inspiration sees the world bigger, and gets more wisdom and joy.
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2009年12月份，我去宿迁地区，到有个叫粟阳的地方谈生意。从宿迁到粟阳的路很好，是双道。路中心有绿化带，应该算一级公路。当时我和朋友开车去的，在快到粟阳的时候，我朋友睡着了，我也很疲惫，很困倦。没过多久我的眼皮眨了几下，居然睡着了，也不知道多长时间。只听见咚的一声，我从梦中惊醒，知道出事了。等我反应过来，车子已经穿过绿化带，开到对面反道上了。幸巧对面没有来车，我一把方向打正，才没有开到沟里去！感谢神！
我们人安然无恙，只是车子保险杠坏了。还有车轮毂坏了两只。想想当时车的速度真的很快，如果对面来个大货车，就会把我们小车压扁。如果路上有行人，就会造成重大交通事故，恐惧使我后怕！感谢神的恩典！这是因为一个信主的家庭，是受上帝蒙恩的，上帝每时每刻与我们同在，是上帝救了我！但这次车祸,我没有去教堂感恩，很快的就忘记了，以至于到现在才真地认识上帝。当慈爱的天父第三次把我从疾病死亡中拯救出来，我才真正地投入主的怀抱。
2010年3月份我被确诊为胰腺肿瘤，必须手术。手术之前，我的家人和主内的兄弟姊妹都为我在上帝面前祈祷，求上帝拯救我医治我。就连我68岁的老父亲，一个×××员，也哭着跪下来，求上帝我医治我。老父亲一共跪下来三次，都是放声痛哭祈求。当第三次为我祈求的时候，他的心情突然平静了，就是感觉我是平安。感谢神，是神的恩典！手术后，父亲来看我，他双手紧握我的手，第一话就说：“孩子，上帝保佑你！”我看着父亲红肿含泪的双眼，我的心都要碎了！我不敢在多看父亲一眼，否侧我会控制不住自己的情绪。我把脸转向天花板，坚强地说：“爸，上帝与我同在，我的手术很成功！很快会好起来的，您不要担心！”父亲直点头，嘴里应声嗯嗯！我知道，父亲得到了安慰！兄弟姊妹们，我是在南京军区医院检查出来的病情。但军区医院专家看完映像后，说肿瘤无法切除。
我们又去咨询第二个专家医生，第二个专家医生说:“哪个笨蛋医生能敢给你做这个手术！”也就是说我的病没有救了。家人抱着唯一的希望，去省人民医院试一试。省人民医院的专家，钱主任接待了我们，他看了映像和检查报告后，说:“我们也没有把握能做，但可以打开看看，能做我们尽力做，如果不能做我们给你改道，维持临时生命!”经过家人研究决定同意了这次手术。
早上7：30我被推进手术室。到下午5：30多，我的手术才结束。感谢神的恩典！当主任医生，从手术里出来的时候，他很自信地告诉我的家人，说：“很幸运！肿瘤成功切除！而且切的很干净！”但没想到的是，到了晚上10点左右，我醒过来，感觉腹部胀痛，医生过来给我检查的时候，我一声剧咳，从口中吐出象血块一样的东西，然后就什么都不知道了！后来知道是腹腔内出血，必须进行了第二次手术。于是在凌晨两点又再一次被一推进手术室。
第二次手术，是非常危险的，几乎是下不了手术台的！因为第二次手术腹腔里面全是血，看不清楚内脏，很容易碰坏内脏器官。当二次手术的时候，我的妻子再也控制不住自己的情绪了，她彻底崩溃了。医生叫她签字，她已经神智不清了。妻子迷惑之中，只知道哭着给吴牧师打电话说：“上帝不救他了！”而吴牧师说：“不要害怕，我祈祷中看见上帝的手托着他！”感谢上帝的恩典，正如牧师所说的那样，第二天我平安的醒来。而且睡的好香，从来没有睡的那么舒服，就象一个身负重担的人，刚卸下重担的感觉！原来疲惫的我，整个焕然一新，头脑清晰，浑身轻松！我对来看我的二嫂说：“我今天睡的好舒服呀！我真的想在这里，再睡上一个星期！”感谢神的恩典！第二次手术我能这么舒服，完全是神的医治！第二次手术也是成功的。但没想到过了7天，我的伤口突然膨胀、有针线脱落的感觉。赶快叫医生，主任医生赶来把伤口的纱布一解，血直往外喷！主任医生也吓一跳，但很快的平静下来，快速地把里面的血管扎紧。然后又缝了几针。血终于止住了。然而主任医生，面对我的病情也无奈。外面的伤口也没有缝，说观察俩天，就看你的造化了！当医生说出这样的话的时候，我的心里很明了！我知道几次的折磨，医生对我的病情已经没有多大信心了！我知道只有上帝能医治我，拯救我！家人、主内的兄弟姊妹，都在为我祈祷。
当日的晚上，我熟睡中，迷糊的感觉伤口有点火辣的疼痛，但好象有一只温暖的手在我的伤口上轻轻抚摸着，那只手那么温暖那么慈爱！感谢神的恩典，这是上帝在医治我！通过一天一夜的观察，第二天我的状况很好，电脑各项指标检查都很健康，就连主任医生也很惊奇！他惊喜的笑容中也带着惊讶！说：“很好很好！一切都很好！”就这样我很快的恢复了健康，并在一个星期以后出院了！
三次的手术，都是上帝借着医生的手在医治我。上帝爱我，上帝与我同在，上帝拯救了我！我知道没有上帝的医治，我连一次的磨难都不能经过！感谢主的恩典！我要跟随主，走福音之路。让更多的人，得到神的恩典！手术后，我状况很好！但是魔鬼乘机攻击了我，不管白天还是夜晚，眼一闭，看到的就是一张张面无颜色的面孔，要不就满头满脸都是血，变型的恐怖面孔！从远到近，从左到右在我的眼前飘过来飘过去。
我从来没有经历过这种现象，以前别人讲我都不相信，没想到会发生在我的身上！我和妻子不停的祷告，求上帝为我赶走眼前污秽的东西。也许是我软弱的原因，与上帝的灵感沟通还有点距离。连续几天都没有把那些阴影赶走，无奈迷惑中，我的脑海想起了，平时妻子唱的赞美诗里面的词。我也记不清是哪一首诗歌，就凭自己的记忆加感觉编了出来。居然不会唱的我，唱的还很有调子！主耶稣呀！我爱你，有你就有了一切！你在地如同在天，主耶稣呀！我爱你，是你给了我灿烂的阳光！是你给了我生命的力量！主耶稣呀！我爱你！有你就有了一切！我还什么可怕！主耶稣呀！我爱你！一生一世跟随你！一生一世跟随你！每天晚上我都不停的唱，直到睡着。
早上也我坚持走到窗口歌唱。由于刚做过手术，身体很虚弱，就象刚出壳的小鸡样，东倒西歪的。望着窗外那刚升起的春天太阳，照在远处的山林和近处的花园，显得格外灿烂美丽！到处充满了生机。重生的感觉，使我多盼望能够出去走一走呀！面对上帝创造的这美丽世界，我只能放声赞美歌唱。这些歌词已经深深的印在我的脑海里面，大概第四天，那些污秽的面孔从我的眼前消失了！取代它就是这些充满力量的歌声！感谢神！使我真正感觉到创造宇宙万物上帝圣灵的力量！感谢神的恩典！手术期间，使我感受到基督教，这个大家庭温暖和关爱！在我手术前，几位兄弟姊妹得知情况后，去探访我。百般的安慰我，要有信心依靠主。并流泪为我祷告！
面对几个素不相识的人，做了很远的公交车，又到住院部9楼来看我，我已经够感动的了！然而远远不是这些，他们在我手术后又来看我，还买了很多吃的东西，鼓励我要有信心，依靠主！我真的流泪了！同样，我回到家中，兄弟姊妹得知情况后，纷纷来看我，关心我，关爱我，为我祷告！并献上他们的爱心。使我感受到了做为一个信主的家庭成员，是无比的幸福！
这就是基督教的弟兄姊妹，他们的爱是那么无私，那么真诚！感谢主！我要做名基督徒，让更多的人享受基督教，这个大家庭的温暖和关爱！现在的我，特别亲近弟兄姊妹，我爱每一个弟兄姊妹，因为我是在他们的爱中长大的！
我是3月8做的手术，5月份受洗，6月份参加唱诗班。9月底，我的健康检查结果一切都很正常！是上帝医治了我，圣灵感悟了我！使我明白了贪欲是人类的罪恶之源。贪吃会得疾病，贪财也会得疾病，甚至违法送命。总之很多贪婪都会使走向死亡路之！感谢慈爱的天父，他开启我的眼睛，使我能看清世界。以前我用肉眼看世界，现在用属灵眼光观看世界，看到的是两个完全不同的世界。
神的话语告诉我“从前看为有益的，如今看是有损的！从前看为荣耀的，如今看为羞耻的！从前看为宝贵的，如今看为粪土！”当我们用肉眼看世界的时候，看到的是充满虚荣、嫉妒、仇恨、欲望、贪婪、享乐、永不满足的罪恶世界，而在这个世界里面我们却看不到自己的罪孽，以至于走向死亡。只有依靠主耶稣基督，用宝血洗去我们的罪，我们的心灵才能得以洁净，我们才能用属灵的眼光看世界。
属灵的眼光能看清楚自己的罪，让我们远离罪恶世界，也使我们看到另一个充满爱的美丽世界，就是快乐幸福的永生世界！我虽然不知道我的人生道路有多长，但我相信在主看护下，我这颗幼小种子也会生根、发芽、开花、结果。我虽然不知道我的人生道路有多长，但我会珍惜、珍爱上帝所赐给我的一切亲情、友情、以及每一处自然的风景！
我虽然不知道我的人生道路有多长，但我要用爱走完我的人生，一直走到爱我的天父那里去!亲爱的弟兄姊妹：人生是分两个层次的，一个是生活；一个是生命。以前的我是在罪中追求生活、物质、金钱，结果忘记了还有生命的部分。但神爱世人，在我患难中，是主耶稣基督，一次又一次地拯救了我，并拣选了我。
弟兄姊妹！听了我的人生见证后，愿我们都能把生命交给神，让神做我们生命的救主，我们仰望祂，信靠祂，在人生的路上我们才会永远健康、喜乐、平安！慈爱的天父：感谢你一次又一次地拯救了我，并拣选了我，给了我新的生命。今天我要在你面前认罪！求主耶稣基督再一次用宝血洗去我一切的罪、一切污秽的思想、一切污秽的灵魂！让我的心灵得以洁净！让我能成为一个真正重生的人；让我能成为一个为圣灵所用的工具；让我的灵命，得到圣灵的滋润，不段成长，就象青青的树，不段成长，才能结出果实！
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耶稣听见所说的话，就对管会堂的说：“不要怕，只要信！”【可5: 36】
神因着爱使血漏的妇人，长期活在血漏里面的一个女人，她的病得到医治。使一个瘫子能够起来行走，耶稣做各式各样奇妙的一些事情，使一个被邪灵长时间辖制像疯狂一样的人能够清醒过来，主做了很多奇妙的事情。
主耶稣使一个死人复活。一个死人，他是管会堂的人，他是在教堂里面工作的一个人。这个人那个女儿死了，病了很久后来就死掉了。耶稣要去医治她，但就有人来跟他讲说不要去了，因小孩已经死了。当这个孩子病得很重的时候，这个爸爸睚鲁，拼命的去找耶稣说来。但是在路上，这个孩子就已经死了，所以很多人说算了啦，啊，没救了啦。
病，医生可以把他医好，但是已经没有命了，医生也没有办法。可是耶稣不只是医生，祂是那一位 神，在祂岂有难成的事。对人来讲还活着，只要还有一口气就还有盼望，对 神来讲就算没有那口气了，祂都能够使死人复活过来。
一个属灵真理就是：信心。当耶稣要去医治这个人的时候，旁边有很多人在那里哭，有人在那里嚷嚷。然后呢，耶稣说，不要在这里哭不要在这里吵，她不是死了她是睡了。旁边就有人笑，就讥笑耶稣，说啊主耶稣把这些带着不信的恶心的人赶出去，连门徒耶稣都只带几个进去，为什么呢？你知道非常多的时候，那个小信，不信是一件可怕的酵。那个酵的渲染会让全团都变成充满着不信。
当 神要做一件荣耀的大事的时候，不要让那个不可能的思想弥漫在你的环境里面。要充满着信心说，是的，在我不能，但是我宣告在我的 神凡事都能。感谢主！耶稣把那些充满着不可能思想的人赶出去。许多人在你的事业上、在你的婚姻里面、在你的家庭当中，主要做一些荣耀的奇事，但是求 神把那个不可能的思想从我里面赶出去。我相信，我相信主爱我，我相信主的恩典够我用，我相信 神所做的事超过我所求所想的。
当那个不可能思想又来的时候，用 神的话用真理把不可能的思想从我里面赶出去。是的，在我不能。但是你要经历，在你的 神凡事都能。奉主的名把不可能的思想从我们里面赶出去。感谢神 ! 奉主耶稣圣名蒙恩! 阿们!
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你们来看 神所行的，他向世人所做之事是可畏的。【诗66 :5】
天不怕、地不怕，曾被认为是一种勇气和开拓精神。
科技的迅猛发展，大大提升了我们的掌控力，但同时，失控和不确定性不但没有减少，反而变得无处不在！赚钱最快的首富，一个反腐新闻，就瞬间变为阶下囚；举国敬仰的科技巨头，遭到一项贸易禁令，马上面临关门的风险。微软很早就宣布自己离倒闭只有 18 个月！
当反思造成中国当代多种重大社会危害的原因时，一个关键的认知成果是，中国人失去了敬畏之心。敬畏耶和华是智慧的开端！
今天，让我们深怀敬畏之心。大胆不能妄为，创新不能违法。
底线是良心，上线是我们的神！奉主蒙恩! 阿们!
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我-耶和华必成就我所说的。我先给你一个兆头。【赛 38:7】
直觉是一种大数据分析！
上帝掌握最大、最全的数据，是全知的神。直觉是上帝给人类的礼物，让我们在上帝要成就的事前，有一个兆头！现今，各种预测技术已经大大替代了某些先知性的个体，但是，黑天鹅还是不时地出现。预测技术越发达，明天更加不确定！
卓越的企业家似乎能够预知未来，总是能找到下一个风口，他们的产品具有很强的预见性。上帝的至善性决定了，他会把他的计划透漏一些信息给他要使用的人——企业家常常是这样一个被拣选的特殊团队！
今天，让我们聆听，聆听来自上帝的启示。他必不向爱他的人隐瞒！奉主蒙恩! 阿们!